I’ve wanted to die not long after I’d been born. The first time I tried to kill myself was when I was four years old. And for the people who have told me that my brain wasn’t fully developed yet, its impossible, i wasn’t capable of feeling suicidal, bullshit. I remember it. I wanted to die and I was perfectly capable of feeling hopeless. Â The next seven times I tried to kill myself was when I was ten years old and living in hell. I remember I brought a large steak knife up to my room and just held it up to my neck till […]
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Living In Hell
seriously what is the point in living like this?i mean i try and live life but even when ime happy i still feel the negetive thoughts destroying my social life,i want to die asap and i have the courage to do so its just i cant leave my mother on her own it will break her if i die,but theres no way i want to live anymore would it be fair to leave family in a mess just to be at peace or isit worth living in hell just so your family dont loose you even tho your a faliure. i dont no […]
IF I could do one thing with this pathetic life I would kill myself and take all your pain with me so that no body ever has to live I have for the last 23 years. I know its impossible and my death will do nothing for the cause but its a sincere thought. I have been living in hell for so long that I feel that reaching actual hell could not be any worse than this, and I deserve to burn anyways. I figure a fair punishment for hurting my family to no end is burning in hell in eternal torture and flame. But […]
I, am a suicide survivor. I know not everyone will believe my story, like I know, but I do ask you to listen to me. I was there.
On a late winter night (seven years ago) I found myself homeless. After SEVERAL suicide “attempts’ (not too too serious ones) I made up my mind, that this was it. I was Agnostic/Atheist. I wasn’t sure what I believed, yet. I later that night found myself living with a group of drug addicts, not very pleasant. So, I took my razor from my wallet and sliced into my arm, repeatedly. I ate only handfuls of aspirin, and one […]
i live by a quote. i know it seems stupid but as soon as i found it i knew that it would be important to me.
“no man is free if he fears death. but the minute you conquer the fear of death, at that moment you are free.”
i love that quote. i love the challenge of it. and when i thought i was living in hell and i couldn’t wait to die i thought i won. i thought that i had found the meaning of life and that i was ready to die. i thought i was free. but the truth is, i wasn’t. i […]