I can feel myself almost needing to go, I can’t stand to look anybody in the eyes anymore. I hate them. I hate that they will remember me if I go. IÂ just want to be gone, and forgotten… Sinking, slowly to the bottom of the ocean. It feels like I will never be able to breathe again… Why should I stick around, just to get my heart broken again, my dreams crushed and my hopes thrown off a cliff? I shouldn’t.. I don’t want to.. it seems like every breathe is a point for the other side in my losing battle…. I just don’t […]
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Losing Battle
since i’m already here might as well vent out a little bit. maybe some input may give me a bit more perspective instead of using the option of death to calm me down.
turned 24 last month, introverted, depressed for the past 10 years or so, finding it difficult fitting in the modern world and i find it difficult to connect with people and a deeper level. i feel so detached from everything and everyone. i’m more often than not, isolated from the “real” world and watching other people live their lives to the fullest is making me wonder why i can’t do the same thing. […]
So this is my first post and I don’t really know what to get out of this. I am young and some would say attractive. I have a husband, a son, and one on the way….so what is my problem? I feel selfish that I have these thoughts, these feelings. I AM AT A LOSS. I am in this losing battle. I live with my in-laws and many would say that that is my problem. They definitely play an important role in my misery. I have lived here for a year now and I can say that I actually hate them…I hate their voices and when I […]