After I lost my friend, I didn’t know what to do or who to turn to, I wound up joining the wrong crowd. I was always a little bit of a drinker, I mean I liked the taste. But I got a little too tipsy one night, and I wound up sleeping with this guy whose last name I still don’t even know. I wound up getting pregnant after that, but I tragically lost the baby before I could even tell anyone, including my family. I wound up spiraling down into depression and “cutting” and I was just in a funk. As soon as I […]
My daughter’s father before he committed suicide.I was three months pregnant. This was while we were still happy.
This is Annabelle, our daughter. She was born 3 months after her father committed suicide. She looks just […]
So last night was completely shitty. As usual I went on a website where I have a fair few friends, and started talking. But, something seemed off about this particular friend, so I told her. She’d said that she was acting like it because she didn’t want me to kill myself [ I had told her of my plan a couple days prior to this and also had the date on my profile for my other friends to see ].
I explained that I was hurting and didn’t know what else to do, to which she replied with she ‘didn’t care’ and said she ‘shouldn’t have […]
To whom ever says they know me
If I didn’t want to live
Here is what I’d give
I’d give the breathe that fills my lungs
The food that will taste sour to my tongue
I would give the wayward mind I have
The undecided and unknown path
I’d give up everything
If I didn’t want to live
If I didn’t like humanity
Understand without unnecessary pity
We are overly selfish and dramatic
Obnoxiously annoying and spastic
We dwell to long on things I want forgotten
Too many people assume how I’ve gotten
If I didn’t like humanity
Perhaps I didn’t want to live
If I didn’t like myself
Here is the basic line up on the shelf
I am pudgy to others […]
Not Exactly Sure How To Start These. I’m Just Gonna Wing It.
From The Time I Was In Kindergarden I Was Bullied. Pushed Around, Bothered. No One Really Ever Left Me Alone. It Wasn’t Until 4th Grade It Started Getting Bad. I Started Getting In Trouble In School, I Owed 6,000 Hours Of Community Service By The Time I Had Finished 5th Grade. The Beginning Of 6th My Life Started Going Downhill Fast, My Parents Got Divorced, Week To Week With Mom And Dad. I Was Severely Unwanted At My Dad’s House. My Aunt Lived Next Door And My Uncle Lived Across The Street, I Couldn’t […]
This is where I stand with the brand of scars.
The stars above me are clearly disappearing.
Who am I to knock the block of my walls around
When there is no sound, only screams of pain.
The rain is so cold and I’m just growing
Older and the fire is smoldering lifelessly
Just like me, tossing endlessly, in these, a sea of dreams.
The carcass of my body marked, in disarray
But bae you can stay and lay on me, if you may.
Tell me what’s wrong, sing me that song you loved to sing
But your voice is gone; it wasn’t your choice
just turned 19 ive already am off to a bad start lost my only friend and the weird part is I DONT EVEN CARE. i have no current desire to patch our friendship up. I guess its because then ill have one less thing to worry about, to act
happy with, to feel judged around and to avoid certain sensitive topics with like what ive been up to. which has been shit all. No job no school, few interesting feats and gossip. i am house bound ii am pathetic and lazy. i stay up all nite searching for the answers and […]
I am a 25 year old musician. I have never had a problem with depression until recently. I was happy, touring in a band, making money doing it. Then everything came crashing down. Now all I think about is everything that I have lost.
My best childhood friend dies unexpectedly, then my mother, then my friends turn their back on me.
I have lost all inspiration, I hate everything I do. My girlfriend who I live with are becoming more and more distant. I’m stuck 1,000 miles away from home with a shitty job, nothing to show for myself, and all I want to do is curl […]
Yesterday I lost my closest friend. He just stopped talking to me, he won’t reply to me, and he usually replies really fast.
I know he hates me, but I don’t understand why.
He happens to be best friends with my worst enemy, and she tweeted indirectly “So glad he has finally seen your true colours”, but the thing is that I haven’t done anything that could make him angry at me.
He really liked me, and I don’t feel the same way about him, and when I told him that, he hated me, but then we sorted it out. He said he cared about me […]
I tried to kill myself on halloween, vodka and sleeping pills, the cowards way out right, i was rushed to the hospital then a psych ward. My outlook changed, my close brush with death maybe. its been a week since i lost my friend in a car accident, i heard about it 3 days after, im losing it, why did she deserve to die, i dont want to die but the voice in my head that left after halloween is back, i was going to spend my winter break with her now im going to be visting a funeral, i think its time to switch […]
I lost one of the last few things that kept me going. I pushed him away but honestly I never really understood him. He was just there. He promised he would help but he lied and I knew he never cared.
Every morning he would annoy me by poking me or calling me stupid. We had those retarded kiddy fights and it was just frustrating at times. I don’t know what I wanted from him but I felt I was better off just cutting all ties with him because he just doesn’t care. I sound so selfish for saying so and I’m terribly sorry.
My […]
So this is my first time even talking about this. I thought opinions from people i dont know might help.
I have been stuggleing with what has been described as a manic depressive disorder. I dont know of its any different from anybody elses, but the easiest way to describe it is that i can be brought down by things simple as a 3 second memory. Ill randomly become depressed for different severeties and random amounts of time. It can be mintues to months.
Latley though just cant get through it […]
Yesterday,my cat died and I know I’m prob being silly for being this sad over an animal,but she meant a lot to me.I love her so much.It’s like she left with a piece of my heart.I’d do anything to hold my cat one last time.I feel so alone and heartbroken.It would help out a lot to get some imput from someone that experienced this kind of tragedy.Please.
I lost my best friend to cancer. I first met her when we were 9, we played basketball on the same team. We had clicked instantly. Best friends right away. She lived two blocks away and we always would meet at the park to hang out. She was a year older then me and she was like a big sister. She always had my back and looked out for me. When she was 12 she got cancer. She had it for three months and then the doctors said it went away. But then four months later, just before she turned 13, the doctors said that […]
Everything today has gone to shit….
My brother just waking up and going to watch tv somehow got on my nerves
I had a credit card company call and leave a message
I had a bike stolen a while ago which was given to me by my landlord and she just asked where it was…. (least of my problems)
I lost a friend and I don’t know why… I just woke up and all of the sudden shes unfriended me…. 🙁 this one hurts the most…
I ruined my plant – I was trying to change the cycle to make it bud, covering it with a garbage bag, and now […]
yeah im pretty sure, he got what he wanted back, now i dont think he needs me anymore. im stuck in hell alone i guess.
So many things have changed in the past year I don’t know what the hell happened. Yes, I have made some friends now that I probably would have had before now. But.. My old friends.. I kinda miss them. I miss being able to talk to them about anything. They were honestly amazing people. Well, until they all turned into back stabbers. But,before they were that though, I could call them in the middle of the night if I needed anything. I don’t have that now. I have “friends.†I even call a few my “best friends,†I don’t have the strength nor the trust […]
Hi everyone, it’s been a while since I’ve been on here. Not sure if ppl worried about me or not…
I lost a friend recently.. He was one of my bestfriends, and he helped me so much with my depression.. And now he’s no longer going to talk to me… Ugh I miss him….
It’s getting hard… My depression feels like I’m getting worse..I also think I need knew friends becuz the ones I have no don’t really treat me right.. I don’t want to get into details…
-RawrImaTurtle….
Living is suffering for me. I know some would say that I should feel like I have a great life. But they are only saying that because of my material objects.
They don’t know that I stay up late at night, crying because I have to hide so much of myself. My family is Christians, and they make fun of gays. It’s so hard due to the fact that I am a bisexual atheist. And it’s not like I have the courage to just tell them.
I don’t know exactly how long I’ve been depressed, but I noticed some notes of mine dating back to […]
Phone rings
Don’t wanna pick it up
I’m so scared
I’m gonna say too much
I tip toe around your questions
Why you gotta dig so deep?
Tears fall
And the glasses break
Inside these walls
The floor boards shake
From outside
It’s alright
Long as you looking from fifty feet
I been trying trying
Hold my head up high
I been lying lying
Keeping it all inside
Trying not to trust you, yeah
Take another leaf, I’m broke yeah yeah?
I’m done, I give up
I don’t wanna pretend no more
That’s it, so what
I’ve lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is
No […]
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