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Mabey

Confusion at its strangest

by souptool 2/2/2016

written by souptool

I always wanted to die laughing.. like the ending of of mice and men. Best case scenario for anyone.

I can’t remember a time I didn’t want to die. I remember being so happy that I should kill myself cause things couldn’t get any better… I’m a pretty happy guy in general, I find positives in negatives, I make people laugh it’s one of my favourite things to do is make people happy.

I don’t know where all the pain comes from. But the pain the sadness is all secondary to the fact of how pointless I feel life is. It’s like everything else I just want […]

2/2/2016 16 comments

my last moment?

by noexception 5/12/2012

written by noexception

im thinking,the next train usaully goes past a little after 10 o clock,i waited untill it gets dark out so noone sees me and gets tramatized,mabey i should jump the train first, see were it takes me,mabey to a different state,but then i will have to change my appearence, if i do decide to go tonight, im nervis,iv been out of my body before,i have had a obe,and i saw something i never want to see again,wen i went back in my body, i still felt that presence,i dont know what happens wen you die, noone does untill it happens to them, but being out […]

5/12/2012 1 comment

adrenalin rush

by noexception 5/9/2012

written by noexception

since i was little, iv been everywere,lived in city after city, putting myself in placements so i could get away from the abuse,even wen noone wanted me,never could fit in,well i started running from treatment facilities and group homes,everytime they put me in a different city, i had the impulse to run,i would run so fast, i felt free, like noone could catch me,most people couldnt,im in my own palce now later on,i still have that adrenalin, i crave it, feeling the rush is like a drug to me,i love big cities and looking at all the tall buildings and everything around me,its like i […]

5/9/2012 8 comments

a decision that will make it my last

by noexception 5/4/2012

written by noexception

i have been thinking,i know im to smart for my own good,i woulda never survived through the shit i did if i didnt know how to save my self from dieing of in my case anything,my life is shit,i live hours away from anyone im related to , and they are the shittiest people, the ones that abused me, starved me treated me inhumane till i was 17 wen i was finally taking away perminetly,still haveing attatchment issues and trust issues,vulnerable and always ran into someone that would say they care but hurt me and brake every promis possible,untill i realized, i dont have a […]

5/4/2012 3 comments

i dont get it,

by noexception 5/1/2012

written by noexception

,i only give people what they ask for,,but then you see these cold ass bitches roming this planet that are rude and mean toeveryone. people they never saw before, mean nomatter what,, they just walk past a random person and have to say the meanest shit possible,why?what is the point of being a ***** all the time? every second of every day??and some people iv met,i dont know what could make them such a mean cruel *****,iv been through pure hell,and atleast i dont try to ruine a random strangers day,, society is fucked up, and how are you sapost to think or look at […]

5/1/2012 2 comments

still alive,

by noexception 4/28/2012

written by noexception

woke up pissed off,well i guess im just gonna have to drink more this time,i drink it last time and i started feeling sick as hell and started getting drifty,mabey i felt so sick because i have been starving my self,if i eat i eat fruit only, i weigh 100 pounds and my doctor says im under weight, but i dont see that wen i look in the mirrior,so i only got fruit in my fridge,monday im gonna buy diet pills to, im gonna damage my body because i hate it.i guess i dont really want to die yet, i am to scared, but if […]

4/28/2012 6 comments