Tag:

Masturbating

Verbal diarrhea

by hankbaker64 6/9/2013

written by hankbaker64

I want to kill myself.

Awww why you have a perfectlyâ€¦ almost perfectly good life. Youâ€™re just going through a bit of a rough time hang in there, its going to get better.

Its not going to get better, Iâ€™ve been wanting and waiting for it get better for how many years nowâ€¦ I canâ€™t say I can predict the future but Iâ€™ve been understanding my feelings, my death wish, and I want to dies more than ever. I say more than ever, but I cant clearly remember all the reasoning, the beliefs, the crap that led to this point but I can say with confidence that […]

6/9/2013 2 comments

I’m such a failure that I can’t even succeed in Killing myself… :(

by AmericanBeauty 6/29/2012

written by AmericanBeauty

I have pushed so many people away from my life… I’m so sick of being fake around people… if I’m genuinely not happy with myself I don’t want to be around others nor do I want to bring them down… I just want to be left alone to deal with my own emotion and problems.

Being Adhd and Autistic isn’t easy for me, during my teens I’ve done a lot of drugs as an outlet to help me express myself since so much I felt I was suppressed through society, school, parents…Â even though now I don’t smoke or pop pills anymore I just don’t feel […]

6/29/2012 2 comments

i feel great now

by tphg 3/9/2012

written by tphg

I just took a dump and the empty feeling usually last for a solid 10 minutes, so ten minutes of bliss to get all of this out.

I decided yesterday to quit smoking and masturbating, to go back to who I was 3 years ago. I’ve an active imagination and I view my mind as a cockpit. There are voices about but for the most part, my pilot is in control. 3 years and I thought I was in control, but little did I know that my pilot was actually my lizard brain. 3 years spent on myself, finding pleasure, “finding myself”. All that happened though […]

3/9/2012 2 comments

As it stands

by ponyboy 1/5/2012

written by ponyboy

I’ve wanted to kill myself at various times throughout the past 5 years. Â About two months ago I started to become serious about it and began to plan my death. Â This was after I had gotten out of the psychiatric hospital (my 7th hospitalization since 17 years old). Â I was in the hospital for almost 4 weeks and received 6 electro-convulsive therapy treatments. Â I also got put on some new medications which didn’t do anything to no surprise. Â I was however started on adderall which was the only thing that got me out of bed and able two at least go through the motions of […]

1/5/2012 4 comments