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Medical Condition

Absence of Sympathy

by androsil 6/14/2013

written by androsil

I have a recent but unfortunately permanent medical condition that causes me constant pain and fatigue and will make sustained employment difficult. Tonight I acknowledged to my partner that it does give me suicidal thoughts at times. Their response was to say they felt like they would never be able to give me what I need; after a period of quiet, they left the room.

I don’t know what to do. I was an active, adventurous person before my illness. I feel like I’m a now an island, and life’s ship is steaming away. And the walls of silence between my partner and I grow thicker […]

6/14/2013 0 comment

My last days

by mylastdays 2/15/2013

written by mylastdays

After studying leastÂ painfulÂ suicide methods for many weeks now, Â I came toÂ conclusionÂ that properly done partial suspension hanging is the least painful way out. Â And I do have a proof. Â Â This morning Â I tried my noose that I made yesterday from strong leather belt with strong, large D-ring style buckle (one of those “Lewis” designs), Â to “try and see the fit”.

I had the noose hanging from a staircase railing, put it around my neck. Â I lowered my knees and the very moment when I felt the noose closing tightly around my neck veins (without choking me), Â I realized that this would be “it”. Â My […]

2/15/2013 10 comments

THIS HAS TO END

by IDKWTD 11/6/2012

written by IDKWTD

I have a hard time talking about this stuff but i just dont know anymore about anything one second I’m happy and ok and most of the time i just dont know what to think its weird, i dont know what to think anymore I go to the gym to help my confidence and it seems the harder i go the harder i am on my self , I feel i made the wrong decisions in life im not getting anywhere with life i feel like im at a stand still, i hate every choice i have made noone knows i feel This way and […]

11/6/2012 2 comments

Trapped

by Milosh 10/15/2012

written by Milosh

I’m 28 years old and my life is a complete waste. I am the youngest of six children, there’s a seven year gap between me and the rest, the eldest of my siblings being sixteen years older than I am. (just giving you the background here).

Life in my family was never easy, we were considered free labor, we cleaned the house, cooked the meals, did the laundry, kept the yard did the shopping and washed my dad’s collection of cars. These chores started as young as five years of age, we’d walk two miles to the nearest supermarket, and then carry the groceries home, this […]

10/15/2012 4 comments

Feeling like a loser, so why keep trying.

by cocoblair 9/24/2012

written by cocoblair

I just discovered this website and reading some of ya’ll’s posts called out to me and made me want to write stuff down. So why not do it for you people, someone who gets what im going through.

In less than 2 months I’ll be 22 years old. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was 12. Depression and anxiety have been a part of my life since I was a baby. I remember being 4 or 5 years old, and feeling anxious and unsafe all the time. I grew up in a home where fighting, co-dependency, depression and hysteria was considered normal so I didn’t […]

9/24/2012 2 comments