I need help. But my therapist stopped me and said if I continue to use the vocabulary I’m using to describe my feelings, she can consider it a legal “yes” to the “suicidal?” box, and I’d lose my security clearance and my career with my company goes with it. I should have known better; any suggestion of mental incapacity makes you a national security risk, so I can’t get any sort of professional or medical help. Not sure why I care so much; I feel like I’m on a freaking pirate ship here. Belligerent a-holes here don’t respect anything I tell them to do, specifically […]
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I’m 17 years old(will turn 18 this June),5″3,39 kg,underconfident,anxious,afraid,failure,looser,quitter……Ive been heavily suicidal for like five years now!!!
Mostly due to my academic stress….till highschool i scored great and was a bright minded geeky kid but for some odd reason i started to grow more and more fears and day by day the roots of those fears anchored deeply into my conscience and i ended up being a fiasco….i fail at everything….i cant reach out for even the simple mundane goals…apparently i am still bright and healthy but inside there is a neverending armageddon and mental anguish…I am dead…I’m just a breathing corpse without any genuine […]
I know what you’re thinking… “I’m going to tell this depressed person, either to contact professional medical help, call mom dad family or friend, just don’t do it because all life should be valued.”
Please don’t tell me this again. I’ve been to countless therapists over the course of my entire life so far. All I want is for someone to understand why I would want to kill myself, not just make me feel stupid for wanting to, or telling me that God has all the answers, or make me feel bad for being selfish that I want to kill myself. I just want someone to […]