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Medicine Cabinet

The first time I tried to kill myself.

by betrayingtheworld 3/26/2013

written by betrayingtheworld

The first time I tried to kill myself was on November 3rd 2012.

I was friends with this girl Tori, and then one day, for no reason I know of, she changed. She hated me. I didn’t know what I did. But that week after she changed was hell for me. She called me things, made fun of me, tripped me, hit me. And on that day, I’d had enough. When I get on the bus, I instantly regretted it. It’s like I could feel that I was going to go home and kill myself. My bus stop is the first one, right before hers. When […]

3/26/2013 4 comments

It’s My Fault

by littleolivia 12/11/2012

written by littleolivia

I’ve made so many mistakes. I’m only fifteen, turning sixteen next month and I’ve done so many horrible things. I don’t like to leave my house because I’m not sure who I’ll see and what they think of me. I’ve gone to bars and gotten drunk making a fool out of myself, tried to pick up strangers and people who know me and my family, I’ve done drugs and had sex for money, and to top it all off I got pregnant and got an abortion two weeks ago. I was only six weeks along but I feel so sad whenever I think about it. […]

12/11/2012 2 comments

Feeling the Death

by Oboist 11/5/2012

written by Oboist

Yesterday my boyfriend told me that he wanted to break up with me because he refuses to stay with me if he goes 6 hours away for college. We’ve been together for two years and he won’t listen to anything I say.

I raided his medicine cabinet and I took all of the pills I could find. I’ve been throwing up for 18 hours and can’t eat or drink anything. I’m so dehydrated. When I drink anything, I vomit.Â I can’t stop sleeping but I needed someone to hear me in case I pass.

My parents have never listened to me. My problems have always been written off. […]

11/5/2012 1 comment

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by death4kisses 11/4/2012

written by death4kisses

looking around my room i realise i have so many pills. two types of naproxen, concerta, Aleve, Adivl, Tylonal, and sleeping pillings. i coud OD no problem but… i don’t. i keep thinking about it… all the time… i want to soo bad. i could take all those pills. there’s even more in the medicine cabinet and alcohol under the stove. i could take the pills, go to bed, and never wake up.

i don’t know if it’s progress that i haven’t tried ODing yet or not because i keep thinking about it… a lot.

i stopped cutting… i think. it’s only been a few days since […]

11/4/2012 4 comments

Im not worth this life…

by BieberBaby1814 5/1/2012

written by BieberBaby1814

End Of Time

Back in January, i really realized that my life really sucked. Im an overweight 15 year old girl in 9th grade. I always hated myself in middle school because it felt like i didn’t fit in with anybody. And it felt like nobody liked me. Then, the bullying started. In 7th grade =, this boy named Cameron started calling me names and pushing me in the hallways and stuff. He called me names like fat ***** and ugly hoe and stuff. He got expelled for that because someone saw what he was doing and reported it to the principle. Then in 8th […]

5/1/2012 2 comments

Fight Club

by The Giver 4/29/2012

written by The Giver

Tonight we had our own â€œfight clubâ€ for the first time. I got the text invitation just as I was thinking about swallowing all the pills in my medicine cabinet…it seemed like a nice alternative to a suicide attempt, so I agreed. Call them odd for emulating such an idea, but it beats the hell out of pumping iron at the tool cage on the ASU Tempe campus, I guess. There were only six of us behind the abandon furniture store across from the tracks, but it was more than enough to get things rolling. The energy was immenseâ€¦like doing lines of blow at the […]

4/29/2012 4 comments

my story

by mmarano 4/22/2012

written by mmarano

my name is matt, I live in new jersey. i started off with depression when i was 3. at that time my father began beating me i would estimate once a week, as well as my father having somewhat severe fights with my mother which often hurt me because she would be emotionally unavailable and I obviously was very distant from my father which made me feel alone. this feeling of being alone has always embodied me. i now am 19. i started off in middle school acting out and made a lot of “friends” but got myself in a lot of trouble just because […]

4/22/2012 2 comments

Almost Gone..

by tahnee_wisch27 2/10/2012

written by tahnee_wisch27

I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin whoâ€™s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know weâ€™re screaming bloody murder […]

2/10/2012 1 comment

Almost Gone…

by tahnee_wisch27 2/9/2012

written by tahnee_wisch27

I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin who’s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know we’re screaming bloody murder […]

2/9/2012 3 comments

Hello Darkness

by CJ 6/18/2009

written by CJ

Hello. I’m new to this site. I saw it as a beacon, almost. Let me tell you a bit about myself.

I’m 14 years old, I’m bulimic, I have two brothers, andÂ I tried to kill myself when I was 13 years old.

The bulimia didn’t develop until recently, since after the suicide attempt I was as self- loathing as ever. My brothers contribute highly to my depression. My older brother is seeing a girl whom I don’t want him to see, since I was friends with this girl at one time but she ended up molesting me. He knows about this, yet he continues to see […]

6/18/2009 3 comments

7,7,7,0

by AbsentFeeling 5/10/2009

written by AbsentFeeling

I forgot about everything. Just a total blank out and then I fell apart. Tears were pouring down my face. When my mom finally came back from work we decided to go for a car drive. She said, as she often does, that something wasn’t quite right about me. Then she asked if I was at all suicidal. I quickly told her no, hoping to hear what would happen if I had said yes. She did a small cough/laugh and said that if I said yes I would go straight to the Mental Hospital. I know for sure that I couldn’t talk to her about […]

5/10/2009 3 comments

I just needed to type something…tell something.

by kp 3/26/2009

written by kp

When I think of myself more often then not I just want to puke. I used to be so happy and free spirited and I feel high school and just recent events in my life is ruining me. I am more cynical, I dont get along with parents, I dont have a 4.0, I feel fat and ugly…i am a let down to my amazing little sisterÂ and my life is just one big treadmill. Its like ive climbed on and cant get off. I just have to keep running because I cant stop or I will get flung off and I dont know how to […]

3/26/2009 4 comments