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Fighting to stay sane

by to be or not to be 7/15/2013

written by to be or not to be

The worst fear in my life is not that i will lead a lonely life but that the loneliness will drive me insane.

Even when I am in the midst of a huge crowd, a familiar crowd of friends and relatives, that feeling of loneliness creeps in and sometimes pushes me into that unholy pool of madness… where the first impulse is to hide from everyone, the second is a strong desire to run away from everythingÂ and everyone,and then i get caught up in a feeling of despair… at how helpless and useless i am and then the doubts about why i am here to […]

7/15/2013 10 comments

Unwanted Children – another thing I wrote

by humansdestroyhumanity 6/11/2013

written by humansdestroyhumanity

Letâ€™s just honestly say, that many childrenâ€™s creation upon this Earth was a mistake. Â In several ways. People tend to deny these things, this entire post perhaps, but they avert their eyes when they do. Â Then they rapidly change topic, start accusations of something you yourself have done, but they twist it around and make it sound as if they had no part in itâ€¦.had no part in being the very reason why you did that (whatever it may be). And when you deny it, of being the sole factor in a certain exchanging of words, in a response, or an action, they lose what […]

6/11/2013 2 comments

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by glass_music_cup 4/16/2013

written by glass_music_cup

The condition of one of my rooms is absolutely, horribly disgusting. There’s spilled soda soaked into the carpets, crumbs all over the floor, dirty laundry, and probably something like 30+ bottles of empty diet soda.

I guess the reason I am posting this is that I am ready to die but too depressed to go through the preparations. I am thinking about hiring someone to clean out my car, pack up my belongings, etc. because I want to have a rational, planned out suicide and will never make an impulsive decision to do so. ButÂ unfortunately, I am too tired to go Â through with the cleaning and […]

4/16/2013 32 comments

Predator in our midst?

by jebediah 10/14/2012

written by jebediah

After reading one_day’s post the other day about the person on this site going by the name nolentwohundred (37m) having and inappropriate relationship with another member madetofade (15f) I took the time to investigate for myself through their various posts whether or not this allegation had any merit. I must say personally i found the whole thing to be very disturbing on multiple levels. The fact that a 37 year old man is using a suicide forum to spout his personal political,social,religious views in a blatant attempt to try and attract and influence vulnerable (underage) woman is just wrong and possibly even illegal. […]

10/14/2012 13 comments

Facebook relationship with mom??

by mysmilecoversalot :) 6/22/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

So I live in a house with my 2 parents and 3 younger sisters. I also have 2 older sisters, but my family broke a little while back and I am no longer allowed to talk to one of them. Somewhere in the midst of my family breaking, my relationship with my parents also broke. I can’t explain why, but I can’t talk to them. Any time they are around, I have absolutely no personality. I never show happiness, sadness, anger, anything. Only when they are around though, it is strange. When they are gone I have a huge personality, I’m funny and sarcastic, loud […]

6/22/2012 1 comment

The Narcissist

by Verum 5/11/2012

written by Verum

Empty streets, forsaken buildings,

Numbing sleet, deficient shielding,

Foundations crumble,

Hollow grounds rumble,

Lonely and lost,

Pale, cold and humble,

A dull pain in his mind,

While his absent hands fumble.

Sitting alone in the midst of a broken city,

He deserves some care, some love and pity,

A fallacy – his sorry image might delude,

When observing this twisted being in solitude.

The failing architecture that surrounds him,

Tall and formerly grand,

Built with the ingenuity,

Of warmer hands.

Drops of sorrow fall on shattered road,

Unrestrained anguish, where rain once flowed.

The cooling liquid,

That runs from […]

5/11/2012 1 comment

PLEASE HELP, in midst of dying.

by dreamer56 3/1/2012

written by dreamer56

i’m dying on the inside.

I know longer know what to do. I don’t know how i got the way that i am, but i feel as if i was born to die & now that feeling is grabbing me more than ever.

i’m in high school, but i haven’t gone to school in about a month. i just show up every once in a while, when i’m in there i feel like killing myself. but switching schools is no option for me.

my parents seem quite disappointed but they don’t understand that this is an ongoing battle i have dealt with for over 3 years. I almost […]

3/1/2012 5 comments