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Monotony

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by tyrone 7/5/2012

written by tyrone

How does one cope with the monotony of life. Dead end jobs. Pointless relationships. Living for the weekend..

Is it really fair to say I want to commit suicide, if I feel like I’ve never really lived at all.

I thought giving up smoking drinking and drugs, while taking on exercise and healthy eating would improve my life but no. The little joy I had left in my life is gone.

I start work in a few hours, haven’t slept in a few days thinking about this. Is tonight the night. I’ve picked up the knife so many times already and pussied out, but this time I can […]

7/5/2012 1 comment

Tired.

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/22/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I just slept for a long time, but all I can say is that right now I feel exhausted.

I’m tired of everything in my life at the moment.

I’m tired of the endless monotony of school and exams. I have a countdown to summer in my Planner, but knowing I still have 95 days does not do a lot to comfort me.

I’m tired of people, and the person I’m expected to be.

I’m tired of myself, and the person I’m too afraid to be.

I’m tired of the fact that everywhere I’m just not good enough anymore.

I can’t do anything properly and just fuck it all up when […]

3/22/2012 4 comments

Wondering What You’ll All Think of This…

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/19/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

What happened to us? What happened to the world? Why is this site filled with Â so many of us technically healthy people trying to destroy ourselves?

But do we blame the world? Or do we blame ourselves? Am I depressed thanks to unbalanced serotonin? Am I suicidal because depression’s genetic and mine is confusing? Do we blame science? Do we blame society? Do we blame each other? Is it the fault 0f previous generations? Did our parents feel this way? Is it normal for a teenager to feel tired of living?

So many questions surround this topic, and it seems to me that the core question of […]

3/19/2012 8 comments