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Motives

“yOU aRE nOT nEEDED”

by 4L1C3 6/9/2013

written by 4L1C3

“You are not needed”

Those words ring through my head constantly

Ever since they were spit at me, spit at my face

And I couldn’t say anything

Because that would mean denying the truth

Suicide

I’d always considered it yeah

It was always passive, a passing thought throughout life

The usual motives are still there, and it’s all so cliche

I think I am fat and ugly and stupid

My story just seems like another one of those huh

The most major problem I have is depression

And my emotions are unfortunately unstable

I have panic attacks, I never see them coming

Then comes cutting, such a sick process of harming and healing

Then attempts to make myself hurl, all […]

6/9/2013 2 comments

post session analysis

by kristink 3/12/2013

written by kristink

well a lively chat today. i was surprised that you had already read last nights post. and surprised that you would be offended by that surprise. seriously my cynicism has everything to do with my self loathing and not your personal or professional capabilities. my previous therapist never called me at the hut . and i know that i am just one of many that you see. i did notice by the way that you zinged me pretty good. yes i know that killing myself would leave a mess for others to clean up. both literally and figuratively. i also know that my family and […]

3/12/2013 0 comment

Why Should I Go On…?

by awasteofspace 11/24/2012

written by awasteofspace

I’ve never looked completely normal just enough to ‘pass’.

Whenever my limits reared their ugly heads I was called a ‘faker’. Raised before bullies existed.

Raped by a female classmate before there was anyone to tell. Does that really happen between 2 girls?

The only redeemer was a mind that was sharp but then left out because I got moved ahead. Still alone.

An ‘afterthought’ child with siblings moved to be on their own; just an ‘irritant’ when I was around them.

Raised by a couple who were better as grandparents not wanting to be a mom and dad again; just pretending.

Wanting to be special to someone, be loved and […]

11/24/2012 2 comments

Still Kicking Feebly

by thefailure 7/30/2012

written by thefailure

I don’t know why I’m even bothering, but what the hell. I’m still here. Still not in the pokey, either, though I suspect I’m running out of time.

I think I’m sticking around just to piss people off. I’m probably just chickenshit.

It dawned on me this morning that if I was someone else looking at my life and my situation, I’d be telling me to fight hell and high water. Even if I lose, I’d still get to take down a few assholes with me. My brother deserves to be in jail for rape. My narcissistic sister needs a serious dose of reality to shatter her […]

7/30/2012 2 comments

To Mary Ann and Alex

by JonesHenry03 7/5/2012

written by JonesHenry03

Hey! This letter is for Mary Ann(Marika)in Finland.
I hope your reading this.

So much has change since i met you here around a year ago.

I understand your reasons and motives very well, but i feel you asked the wrong person for advice. Then again so did Alex from Scotland.

But ultimately Marika you were right. We all at the end of the day do want to be “free” to decide our of destiny. I say “free” in caps, because in reality we do not have any REAL freedom. All is under the controll of god.

And Marika as much as i hate to say this, you may […]

7/5/2012 2 comments

I wrote2 posts, but the hatred and depression and stuff keep coming back.

by RogueShadow1281 4/22/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

It’s been a few hours after my last post. I am tired of this shit. I’m tired of living, I hate life. No point in having one. God is a false deity. The idea that God is Satan is very thorough, but I still don’t believe in a god. Or else he’s past insane. He keeps repeating human’s course over billions and billions of people and never is there a right person. Everyone is evil. I wonder what was Jesus’ motives. He was probably filling his ego. Maybe he was brainwashed.Â

I hope to join the army in 1 1/2 years. That’s too far away, though. […]

4/22/2012 8 comments

maybe in heaven,

by idunno 3/28/2012

written by idunno

Maybe in heaven, there will be understanding.

Understanding of the motives of each and everyone.

Understanding why they feel the way they feel.

Maybe it will be more than understanding, maybe you will get a first person glimpse of what it is like to be someone else.

Connecting of each other to form a peaceful, heavenly bond.

Madness, disappointment, RAGE,Â hatred, disgust, FEAR, sadness, grief, humiliation, shyness, cowardliness, regret, sorrow, loneliness, Physical pain, emotional pain, stress, turmoil, suffering, HOPELESSNESS, nonsense,Â will be overcame.

Maybe in heaven, things will all make sense. It will all PUZZLE together.

Why there is pain.

Pain adds character. Pain breedsÂ experience, wisdom, knowledge, meaning, bravery and resilience.

Pain makes […]

3/28/2012 2 comments