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Shit, I want to die so much now

by lostallhope123 9/22/2018

written by lostallhope123

He kept asking me to leave him and move, he wanted me to break up with him first and he did not want to end it first. He told me he can take the blame even if I leave him first. Because, we don’t have a future together. He is not ready to think of even giving it a try, instead he wants me to accept the reality and move on.

He says we both knew it right from day 0 when we started this relationship. He stopping coming near me even via texts, he is now ready to turn back and leave. I’m trying so […]

9/22/2018 4 comments

Painkillers

by Casino96 5/25/2016

written by Casino96

so I kind of ruined my family a bit and I can’t seem to stop… I don’t want to hurt anyone but I told my mom that I wanted her to apologize sincerely for not being there to support me whenever I went through disciplinary trouble, and that I can’t move on until she does. Long story. Anyway, since the incident happened yesterday it feels like time doesn’t exist. There’s no future, barely any past, but everything is the present. I cut myself 20 times yesterday and I’ve been steadily taking painkillers since 3. I don’t even take pills. I don’t think I’m going to end […]

5/25/2016 3 comments

I wish i were stronger

by secret me 5/16/2016

written by secret me

Everyone at my home attacked me today.
Why? well lets just start with my mother.
So lately she’s been really mean to me for no reason. You’re probably thinking that it must of been for something, but no no reason at all. She says things to me like “i wish i never had you”, “you are pathetic and worthless”, “you’re a female dog” etc…
And what i do is walk away or ignore her.
Ok lets move on to my father. if i try to emotionally connect with anyone is my dad but he always pushes me away. example, “i don’t want to hear it”, […]

5/16/2016 1 comment

I don’t know what to do

by Snowy 5/6/2016

written by Snowy

So I’m new on here and just found the site today but I think this could be beneficial for me. I am 27 years of age, I’ve been married over a year (almost 6 years with the guy), our house and car are paid off, and I have two wonderful dogs. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. I’ve struggled with depression off and on for awhile and it’s getting bad now. I am so sorry in advance this is going to be long…

My husband is loving but not understanding at all, he is homemaker (I think that’s what it’s […]

5/6/2016 4 comments

Dying inside

by akg1229 4/20/2016

written by akg1229

I’m dying inside. I am falling further into the dark abyss where my coping skills no longer help me function. I am calling my doctor in the morning, if he can’t help I’m done. I just don’t have it in me to keep this fight up. It’s hurting everyone I love. Everything that is living that comes across my path is tainted by my diseased mind. Of I’m going to cause pain and destruction anyway, I might as well do the final deed so they can mourn and move on. They may feel it’s selfish, but it’s the least selfish thing I can do at […]

4/20/2016 3 comments

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by whiskered-fish 4/16/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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4/16/2016 16 comments

Uncertainty

by J Doe 4/15/2016

written by J Doe

Hello. I’m very uncertain about a lot of things. I’m not even really sure that I’m suicidal. I think about killing myself all the time and I even daydream about how I would do it. But if I was really suicidal, wouldn’t I have already done it by now? Literally I could just go into the kitchen while everyone’s asleep, get a knife, cut my throat, and lie down on the bed. But every time I’m at my lowest and feel the urge to do it, I just can’t bring myself to do it. I guess I’m too afraid. I imagine I’m put in situations […]

4/15/2016 6 comments

I find life funny…

by happydepression 4/11/2016

written by happydepression

I’m not afraid of suicide, I’m ok with death. I’m just afraid of surviving my suicide. Facing the people close to me after my suicide. You don’t realize how much people can influence your decision in life. Either small or big. I envy those who actually commit suicide, I learned this yesterday when I got news a someone else overdosed. Their mental will and desire for what they want, but then again I envy those with the power to move on, to find reasons to smile and to live. I am neither. Stuck in between. Never know what to do, it always lingers in the back […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

New Drawing – Unfinished

by JiminyCrispies 4/8/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I know I’ve already posted tonight, but I couldn’t get rid of my energy. I ended up working on this drawing of Oliver Sykes and Josh Franceschi.

It’s not finished – I still need to work into their faces and tweak some of their facial features- but I’m about to move on to doing something completely unrelated, and I thought I’d post what I’ve done so far while I’m still somewhat focused on it. It’s good enough considering the state I’m in right now.

4/8/2016 9 comments

Time to Move On

by 13vida 4/8/2016

written by 13vida

I don’ feel any more butterflies in my stomach when I think of him anymore, all I really feel is pain and that makes me sad. This used to make my world, he brightened it and made it so beautiful. Now, it feels gray and dank and disgusting. Now, when I think about him, I wonder if he even loves me at all, and if he doesn’t then when did he stop. I wonder if it was easy for him to replace me and I pray to the Universe that it isn’t, that if he truly loved me then he won’t be able to -selfish, […]

4/8/2016 2 comments

My life isn’t full

by NiDDA 4/5/2016

written by NiDDA

Hey.

Been a long time again. In 25 days I will be in London looking for a job and stuff. Up till then I have nothing to do. Nothing. I have no job. I just workout. My days are so boring. Sometimes I walk my dog, I love him, he is so playful, he makes me happy and laugh.

On the suicide front I think I have made a progress. I think less, way less then before, but I still have thoughts. I have a […]

4/5/2016 2 comments

Rant – I Don’t Know What To Do

by 13vida 4/3/2016

written by 13vida

The guy I was seeing a couple weeks ago, Aaron, turned out to be a bust. He was a really nice and sweet guy, but his interest ran out. But that’s not my main problem. It’s Presley. I am madly in love with Presley, we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together, we were in love with each other, and then all the crap happened with Holly and Amy, he chose both of them over me, and yet we still love each other. I want to yell at him, I want to pound on his chest and beat all of my pain away as […]

4/3/2016 0 comment

How to move on……

by EvilOni22 4/1/2016

written by EvilOni22

The pain is still here. I can drown it out. I can muffle it. But I’m just a shell of a person wandering around. Withdrawn to where it feels more than awkward to be out and around people when it wasn’t so before. Opening back up on command isn’t as easy as shutting down anymore. Desire to end things lingers as well and always has. Thoughts of such are being provoked more often than not now. What do you do when you feel that you have more reason to leave than to stay? Given life more than a chance just existing for the past 2 […]

4/1/2016 3 comments

it’s like… i make myself miserable on purpose

by claritee 4/1/2016

written by claritee

Today I skimmed and read and skimmed and read hundreds upon hundreds upon hundreds of texts that my ex and I sent over the last year. They’re just there. In my phone. So much love. So much communication.

I know I need to delete it. I know I need to move on. What is wrong with me???

4/1/2016 1 comment

Tomorrow

by hopeisafourletterword 4/1/2016

written by hopeisafourletterword

When we first met I had no intention of letting you inside, of giving you my heart, of loving you with my soul. Just a little while later, all of that came true. It all came true at the point I was most ready to end my life. It was… a miracle of sorts. The single best and worst thing that ever happened to me. No longer on the edge, I was yours to take, although you never did. But still, the tomorrows kept coming because of you. It’s two years later and nothing’s changed. I wish I had moved on by now, but with […]

4/1/2016 2 comments

Long Time, No See

by NiDDA 3/24/2016

written by NiDDA

I haven’t been here in a while… Which sounds good. It means I am trying to move on and maybe I will succeed.

Since than I have started to work out. Here is my fatball face with my workout buddy:

And I got my dream catcher tattoo which I was really excited about.

I am still planning my working in London, I just need […]

3/24/2016 5 comments

I can’t move on…

by GraemeGuy 3/24/2016

written by GraemeGuy

I was with someone 7 months ago. We had been together for 6 yrs. She has 2 children from a previous marriage. Our relationship was just a big fantasy I now see.

I come from a poor family and what little help my parents imparted to me just wasn’t enough to get me somewhere. I have no skills or anything and my future is bleak.

My ex on the other hand has had everything handed to her in life. She has had money and opportunities. All through our relationship she was living her dream. I see that I was just some kind of visitor in her life. […]

3/24/2016 4 comments

I Tell You

by GTSuicide_6 3/21/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

You know sometimes I really frigging think to myself, (LIKE RIGHT NOW):

“FUCKING. SNAP. OUT. OF. IT.”

No yah. Its true. Just snap out if it. There IS no sadness.There is no stress. There is no problem. Get up and move on and live life “normally” because that exists for a damn reason.

But you know what? I can’t,”snap out of it”. I can’t wake up one day and be OK. I can’t pretend I am fine. I can’t because I am NOT.

But still,

once more,

“snap out of it. Everything is fine.”

Sure.

But maybe I’m not.

3/21/2016 1 comment

Tearful and confused

by Michael from dunmow 3/18/2016

written by Michael from dunmow

A few weeks back I was arrested for fraud and as I type this letter the Police are investigating me.

My life has collapse – I have lost my marriage, I will lose my house, no job and my dearest two boys particularly my youngest (14) does not want to know me but my oldest is autistic so he cannot comprehend the situation.

Our marriage has always been stressful – looking after our autistic son, my health problems and wife’s depression. Our youngest was always was protected – giving him a carefree life with a great education. With that protection he is now in a Royal Ballet […]

3/18/2016 7 comments

Had a good day, until… :(

by claritee 3/14/2016

written by claritee

I had a pretty good day today. I felt somewhat happy all day. It was a nice cloudy day and I’ve been happily enjoying my body and the lack of anxiety and depression that it feels today. However, I ran into an old friend at a restaurant and we chatted for a few minutes. I really hate talking to old friends because we have to summarize the last amount of years in a few sentences. I felt unaccomplished and having to tell him that I have basically done nothing with my life in the past years makes me feel annoyed and my anxiety crept back […]

3/14/2016 0 comment

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