I do believe in God. I was in a car accident when I was three. I was in the back seat, my Dad was driving. As we were turning right at a stop sign we were t-boned by a huge SUV. My Dad was knocked out, had a dislocated shoulder and a concussion. I didn’t get a scratch. It wasn’t a terrible accident. The car was totaled. But not a scratch? Not even a shard of glass cutting my arm? After the accident, everybody told me that I told them about a lady in white with wings. They said I said she kept me company, […]
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Ive been thinking about telling my dad about my cutting. I wanna do it tonight but im scared. I dont know if I can.
I don’t think I want this, but what am I saying? I never did.
This isn’t the life I ever wanted to live. I used to have so many hopes and dreams… And now? There’s… Nothing. Just broken remains of the buildings of my hopes and dreams, shattered by those who thought lesser of me, as if their cruel words could never hurt me. But not just them. The family never helped me, if anything, they made it worse. This isn’t where I should be starting though. The suicidal feelings, the depression, everything like that, developed at around the age of 7. […]
My name is Christiane and I am 20 years old. This is my story.
My mom and dad had been fighting badly the past few years. They had been married 19 years but were together for 22 years. We lived in Florida as the only blood family around. All our family lived in California. My dad would get angry with my mom and fly her there when he thought he was done with her. This was about the third or fourth time it happened and during this last time my mom was in California, my dad took his own life.
On April 11, 2013 I came home […]
I feel like dealing with not being loved is so much harder than dealing with an act of hatred or violence. I was molested as a child and beaten for years, but the scars that remain aren’t from those acts (which came from my brother), but from the fact that I never felt loved as a child by my father and brother. That’s the hurt that I have to live with and that has wrecked my self-esteem.
My father never did any fatherly things with me, like kick a ball with me, come watch me play, do homework with me or anything like that… He always made […]
I know friends can’t be replaced with anything else. But if you don’t have any friends, you can at least try to find something to love. That’s why I decided to get pets. We already have pets, but none of them are really my pets. The cats don’t like me because as a child I didn’t know how to play with animals. I would accidently(!) scare and hurt them. And the dog likes me, but I feel no connection with dogs. I’ve wanted my own pet for a while now, first I wanted to get a bearded dragon (it’s a kind of lizard), but they […]
it`s my dad`s death anniversary. I`m adopted. And my real dad…well, it`s his death anniversary tonight he killed himself in front of me. my dad, he shot himself. in front of me. When i was 12. Nothing much happened for awhile, I guess it needed some time to sink in. Then when i turned 15, i got hospitalized like 3 times for attempted suicide that year. There was nothing i wanted more than to just die and i was so mad cuz they wouldn`t let me. You know how it feels when everyone`s secretly blaming me…the kind of blame where no one really says anything […]
I’m 19 years old. Just finished my freshman year of college, double major in Political Science and Communications with a French minor. Straight A’s. My dad works at the church, my mom is a special education teacher, I have a brother who’s 15. I’ve had a boyfriend who loves me and who I love with all my heart for 7 months. I guess that all seems pretty perfect.
I began feeling symptoms of depression in 7th grade. Of course, I didn’t know what it was that I was feeling. When it all fell apart for me, though, began 3 days before my 14th birthday, 8th grade, […]