Hello all, I lurk around here when things get rough. for about the last year and a half, figured I’d make an account. It’s currently 9:15’ish in the morning and I finally feel tired enough to sleep so I’m gonna leave you all a song I resonate with. I don’t know if it’s gonna link correctly, as this is my first post so sorry in advance if it doesn’t x.x
My First Post.
I’m not afraid of suicide, I’m ok with death. I’m just afraid of surviving my suicide. Facing the people close to me after my suicide. You don’t realize how much people can influence your decision in life. Either small or big. I envy those who actually commit suicide, I learned this yesterday when I got news a someone else overdosed. Their mental will and desire for what they want, but then again I envy those with the power to move on, to find reasons to smile and to live. I am neither. Stuck in between. Never know what to do, it always lingers in the back of my head, I should try and fight another day, full of those who I care about? I do. And it’s hard. It’s hard being stuck between 2 choices so similar yet so different. Both are peaceful things but the outcomes are different
Oh lonely flower, where do your seeds go?
Oh lonely flower, may you forever grow.
Oh lonely star, how bright is your light?
Oh lonely star, blending in with the night.
Oh lonely boy, where have you hidden your scars?
Oh lonely boy, keep faith in your heart.
Oh lonely moon, why do they sleep when you rise?
Oh lonely moon, if only they saw the tears in your eyes.
Oh lonely world, where are the friends?
Oh lonely world, I must make this end.