In 1993 I committed suicide. It came after years of attempts, and it came not from a long, considered planning process but by sheer circumstance. Looking for one thing I found another. A precursor of sorts. Combined with something else at hand the deed was done. Just before losing consciousness the phone rang. Not knowing I was about to pass out I answered the phone. Then I passed out. When I woke up in an ICU the next day I was angry. So angry that I ripped out the IVs and stalked out of the unit with a gaggle of nurses trailing behind me. I […]
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Mysteries
Life is too precious too consider throwing away. theres so many beautiful people in this world and mysteries and suprises you’d never expect and to cut your life short is throwing away any chance of having that. My mom always said it’s funny how things work, and she’s right. Having god come in my life in 10th grade couldn’t have been just a coincidence. i didn’t know the hardships and battles i would face later in life. God guided me all the way through there though, it was a miracle. i’ve made alot of mistakes along the way and my drug and alchohol abuse, while […]
What do you do when every comment anyone makes seems personal to you?
Even when those comments are not directed at you?
Even when those comments have nothing to do with you?
Even when those comments are not even applicable to you?
I get this problem sometimes. What the hell it is, I don’t know, and I don’t understand it. At any other time, I have a skin thick as raw-hide, but other times, it’s as if I’ve walked into an auditorium naked and everyone is staring, whispering amongst themselves. I don’t know why because I’m not naked, and nobody is staring, and any whispering […]