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I Did This…

by renegadeRaenbow
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Whenever we’re little, why is it that we wish we were older? Much older? Why didn’t anyone warn us of this? The adult life is so sugar-coated and isn’t as glamorous as it’s made to be.We wasted out childhoods on wishing we were done with it, when in all actuality, we would give up anything just to go back.

I first tried to kill myself when I was fourteen, after 3 years of cutting. My parents split up, I lost my 8 day old nephew, my sisters moved out, I lost my friends, and I had nothing holding me back from suicide. I was put on […]

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It’s life

by blindaudio
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People say it’s life, and that whatever life throws at you, take it with ease. But then, they freak out when things do not go their way. I’m refering to my mum here, and others I have known, do the exact same thing, and it bothers me to no end. I mean, I’m not perfect, not perfect at all, but when life throws me curve balls, I try to take it. I won’t always say that I do well, but I try.

Another thing I’d like to mention is love and relationships here. I have seen the way my mum and dad treat each other. […]

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Six Days Left.

by GonnaDie19
written by GonnaDie19

Last night I posted this video  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OpaekXGWPc. I plan to let you all know about my last week here on earth.

Today, I mostly slept. I feel unbelievably tired. Almost like I felt when I took overdoses in the past. It’s weird. I went for a walk around the town where I live but I’m scared of others. What are they thinking? Why are they looking at me? I feel I’m there physically but spiritually I’m not there fully. It’s like I’m floating around. In four weeks I’m supposed to get a nephew… today I found out my sister in law is being induced Wednesday. […]

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one year countdown is getting closer by the day

by notalwayshappy
written by notalwayshappy

I decided on Nov 18, 2012, that I did not have 1 single happy day (or half day, or real significant moment of relief) that I would wait 365 days and if things had not improved (i.e., the happy moment), that I was done here, my work completed, and that I would just check out.

I have a great job, a nice family and all that “people strive” for – in fact, I feel selfish writing this post because I know full well that I am not hard done by…. but I lost the one. Not only did I lose her, but I made it happen, […]

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by SadSteve
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As I have mentioned many times before here on tsp, In 2002 I reclined the seat in my car in the garage and closed my eyes and waited but before I fell asleep forever I kept seeing images of my 1 yr old niece and 5 year old nephew.  I got out of the car went up to bed, cried and have been living in pain ever since.  But its all worth it after days like today, when they show up out of the blue and we spend some hours having fun swimming, playing wiffle ball and just being around these 2 great kids makes […]

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My final words

by ForeverLonely
written by ForeverLonely

I’ve had this saved for some time now. Realised from the moment I thought it that one day I would use it. My family, especially my parents, have the right to know why I decided to do the unthinkable. They have no idea I’ve been researching it for months. Devious really. This is a material world and I want out.

To My dear loving family

 

 

Forgive him all for what he’s done

A departed soul he has become

His pain and suffering  so much so

He had no choice but to go

Young, loving and so very proud

But in the end was beaten by deaths dark […]

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Rainy Day.

by Deyanight
written by Deyanight

I’m sitting on my bed, and all I hear is the rain falling and the wind going crazy. Sometimes I wish there was more sun here. It makes me more depressed looking outside. Today has been another bad day, I feel like I can’t talk to anyone, and I feel so lonely. I’ve lost mostly all my friends because I’ve been with my bf for 2 years and it’s all about him now, which is good because he’s my friend but when he’s not there I feel so alone. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t understand how much sadness I feel inside, and all the […]

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Going through the motions of a life

by fantine2
written by fantine2

I’ve struggled with major depression for several years. The time between feeling some level of normal and giving anything for death to free me from this is getting shorter and shorter. In November, I argued with my shrink and therapist that this is my life, and to not allow me from release from the pain was unethical. After when animals suffer, they are put down. No one else knows how depressed I really am. I mask it very well- I go through the motions of a life while feeling nothing but wanting to be dead. If this […]

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Deep hate for an innocent child.

by Danni
written by Danni

In my family there’s only four. My mother, my father, my sister, and I. Being 10 years apart (my sister and I), I looked up to her, always wanting to be like her, she moved out when she was 18,  and I was so excited, and happy for her being independent, and all. Anyways, she moved to a city, we (my father, mother and I) thought she was doing well. She was in Uni, independent, and partying, just like any other young adult, but unfortunatley she was mixing her priorities wrong. Too much partying and not enough studying, lead to her not sending my parents […]

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Slow Suffering

by Danni
written by Danni

I’ve had depression since I was around 10 years old. My father used to bash me for every little thing, whilst my mother would just sit, watch and laugh. It’s been some years now, my parents did however get better, BUT that’s only after I finally grew the courage to tell the police, anyways  just two days ago, I celebrated my 19th birthday,  I thought about killing myself at the end of the night, but couldn’t mostly because 3 of my friends were with me till morning. Anyways, I try to move on, every day, but the memories always haunt me, and it’s not only […]

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my conclusion.

by sleeplesslydreaming
written by sleeplesslydreaming

I’ve come to a conclusion: I’m insane. I used to think that I was just unique, then again, my young, naive eyes sought for any and everything that would make things better.
Looking at some of the crap other people have gone through and comparing their situations to mine, I feel like an ass. I really should be grateful for my life, but instead, I’m here, desperately seeking someone, even someone who is quite possibly as unstable as I am, to give me a reason. Just one.
I guess I should just get to my privileged-child sob story. Where should I start? Ah, yes, […]

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Hello there, The angel from my nightmare, The shadow in the background of the morgue….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

I have breakdowns. Because I have mental health problems. And these breakdowns are quite possibly some of the scariest things I have to endure. I don’t get a choice, They can happen at random. And yeah, Sometimes I want support.. So I attention seek. But considering at all other times all I am trying to do is make others happy, I thought people would be able to let that go.. But no.

I’m fucking sick of this. The world is a cruel selfish *****, Just like me probably. I know most of you have thought that before.. I wanted to stick around for the good things […]

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Don’t start to panic for me, ’cause I have nothing to lose I am as bright as the sun, I burn up all that I choose, Up on the side of the field, I see a city with lights, I touch her face when I kneel, she tells me she’s not alive….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

So…. Updates for those who are interseted in me and my mental health, which is probably none of you….:/.

At 1am On Monday 6th February…my new nephew was born, i met him today and he is stunning….im in love, might upload a photo of us…

Im not talking to my dad, still. we got into an arguement after the whole police thing and thats just been it. i miss him though….should i apologise? do i even have anything to apologise for?….

I’m also considering a foster home, because as long as i’m living here i don’t think i’m going to get better…. so much stress and negative atmosphere….

I’m […]

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Drinking…

by imperfect1
written by imperfect1

Today was a great day, celebrated my nephew’s birthday with family and friends. Now I’m home alone and all I can think about is how much I hate being alive. I am drinking knowing that it only makes things worse…but I can’t help it. It gives me the sense that my thoughts are just caused by the alcohol…that it’s not me…but I know the truth. I’m alone…there’s a loaded gun in my drawer. I think about how easy it is to just…
I love my family, I know they love me…I have everything I could ever want, but I don’t…can’t appreciate it all. I just […]

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I can try to get by, But every time I start to panic, I’m a little bit shy, A bit strange and a little bit manic….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

I want to do it.

On monday, im planning again…. Apart from this time i haven’t made the mistake of telling ‘Everyone’. So my intention is to travel to a bridge…and you can probably guess the rest….

Life has not gotten better, its gotten worse? My OCD has. Fear of things are coming back…and my hands can tell you that, they don’t appreciate soap as much as i thought they would….

My family know ‘Everything’…at least thats what they think, they’re some things i havent told anyone….and probably never will….It has just made life awkward, and the arguements don’t stop, either about me or about my dad.

My new […]

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I’ve had it with this damn double vision, My hand’s swollen, I can’t keep holding on, My heart’s sinking and stuck in deadly rhythm, I can’t fake it, I can’t, can’t brush it off….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

ok, So that guy started talking to me again last night, he wanted to do it again. But i made up excuses like i wanted to do but had other things to do and i had to go….

And then today on facebook, One of his friends who he told about our past actions asked me this….’answer this question honestly ok? ♥ if i offered to shag you 😉 what would you say? ;)♥’. I couldnt believe it…. I feel so dirty and used.

And all of that just added to yesterday, my dad didnt even say […]

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Stop banging away on my kaleidoscope. Stop draining the color out of my scene. Just play me something I can dance to. I can dance to anything you wanna sing….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

ok….. Monday is only sixish days away… And I can’t wait.

People are trying to talk me out of it, they say that things will get better, but I don’t really believe them.

I just don’t want to leave behind on of my closest friends…Lauren. If you ever get to read this then just know that if I ever were to do something then its not your fault. ILoveYou.<3.
Please don't ever blame yourself….

I can't cope much longer, living this way…also I love you, Jayden…. You are the best nephew anybody could ever ask for…..<3

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I’m just a bastard child don’t let it go to your head I’m just a waste of your time, maybe I’m better off dead They turn us loose in the night, I’m fucking Jekyll and Hyde We’ll have the time of our lives although we’re dying inside….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

so…. Today I stayed with behind to talk to Mr Gregory, a popular venting choice of mine.
Anyways I told him about being suicidal and my intended plans…. Naturally he told me not to do it, and he went through what might happen once I had gone through with my plans.
Why does everything he says always makes perfect sense….
I still feel like going through with it, i only know a few things about my final choices.
Date: Monday 23rd January 2012 .
Time: I don’t know….
Method: Again, I don’t know….
I just know that I want this all to be over, I […]

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Cajun Field

by Cajunfield
written by Cajunfield

I’m 58 years old, working in Iraq so my wife could spend time with her sister and our nephew who died of brain cancer 1-Nov-11. I came here for her, for my family and stayed though I hated being away from my home and family, I stayed because they were proud of me.

Up until coming here in May-2011, the longest I’ve been separated from my wife was three weeks while she visited our son in Japan. She has wanted to go to Japan for as long as I’ve known her and when our granddaughter was born there, my son was in […]

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