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Confused and Afraid

by Dez 8/29/2013

written by Dez

So recently I found a new girlfriend and she’s made me see things in a new perspective. She’s made me see my problem. My past haunts me and is the reason why I’m broken and beyond repair. I’m trying to let it go. I’m trying to be free, but I can’t…

Some days are just easier than others…

What I’m confused about is if I should go on with my planned suicide.

Some days I feel like I shouldn’t because there’s a life to live now, but other days I feel like going through with it at the moment. What disappoints me is that the sad days are […]

8/29/2013 2 comments

Torment

by Rain 7/16/2013

written by Rain

I am 19. I used to get bullied and sexually abused when I was in elementary school. In middle school, there was no sexual abuse just bullying, but I met Him. We didn’t go to the same middle school, but he lived across the street from me. I was at his house every day when I got out of school. His brother, Him, and I. We were always alone as their uncle and aunt were always out working or partying. Soon, it was only he and I..together alway. We went to the same highschool and I was bullied no more. He had given me a […]

7/16/2013 3 comments

One Day

by Brown Girl 5/8/2013

written by Brown Girl

One day I will get my happy ever after, but I am so tired of waiting for it to come. Â I wanna take everything in to my own hands and have the life that I know I deserve but of coarse I can’t and I wanna know why can’t I have it. Â I dated a guy for 10 years, I mean seriously you would think he would be my happy ever after but wrong. Â He decided that being a crackhead was more important and I just couldn’t do it anymore I was physically and mentally drained. Â 1 week after we break up he has a […]

5/8/2013 0 comment

I’m losing my grip

by lifes_end 3/30/2013

written by lifes_end

I’ve told you her story now I’ll tell you mine. I’m Angel and I’m 13, I’ve gone through so much though so don’t judge me on my age. I’ve been raped and beaten, I’ve been hated on and abused, both physically and mental, I’m suicidal and IÂ cut. I’ve gone through so much and I don’t understand why I’m here anymore. Why do I have to live on this earth full of haters? Anyway, when I was 10 I was put up for adoption and I was taken in by a family in Louisiana. They were okay, for the first week. They had 5 other kids […]

3/30/2013 1 comment

“Pain changes people.” -House

by Deathembrace 3/22/2013

written by Deathembrace

I wrote here 3 years ago about my pain and about my suicidal thoughts. When I look back at those days from now, I see a human that has fallen to betrayal, mental and emotional abuse. I was a kind, caring and loving person. I used to help people as much as I can and try to make things right. None at that time did really care but I did my best regardless. Then I was betrayed by my girlfriend and members of my family. Most friends did not seem really to care. Others just made things seem easy. Honestly speaking I was […]

3/22/2013 0 comment

Why do I do this to myself?

by marchingkitty 1/24/2013

written by marchingkitty

I know for a fact that I get too emotionally involved when i watch movies/read books about depression/suicide/self harm. So why the hell do i still do it? When i do this i start to think of how shitty my life is. This makes me start to feel physically sick. They either make me feel like i have no reason whatsoever to be depressed and suicidal or they give me that false Hollywood hope. The characters always have some huge overwhelming problem that makes them depressed or whatever. Me? Well I’m just haunted by my past (been bullied badly), do poorly in school, rarely see […]

1/24/2013 1 comment

What is wrong with me?

by PokeMorgan 1/22/2013

written by PokeMorgan

Hey there,

I’ve been at a low point for many years (and since I’m 17 that’s a lot)

I was heavily bullied, I had suffered home abuse and loss, I self harmed, my grades were dropping drastically. I had a trunk load of self hate, saw no way out.

I attempted on January 2012, I failed, obviously. Though things looked up, the day out of hospital I found a new girlfriend.

5 months later, I ruin things, she can’t deal with my problems. She leaves me after I have a mental breakdown. Weeks later she sleeps with my Friend/Brother. I survive these next few months, barely.

Now 7 months after […]

1/22/2013 2 comments

I’m not exactly sure what to say

by opcomeback 1/13/2013

written by opcomeback

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so lost and it’s such a long story I don’t know where to begin. There’s this boy and I’ve known him for a little over a year now. We became very fast friends and I told him everything. The first day we ever really talked I told him everything. I was sexually abused as a child, I was raped multiple times by a man I called my grandfather. He told me his life story, his troubled past with his parents, his horrible past relationship. We talked every day, all day. I moved to his city and got […]

1/13/2013 5 comments

Tanner you broke me. You win.

by BrooklynBoxx 1/13/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

Lucky him he’s moved onto a new girl i should be happy, but its only to ironic. Tanners new girlfriend is Ryanne, ive been talking to her ex dylan. She said i’d look cute with him but even though i like him i dont wanna date him, one because i wanted to give them both time to heal, and because of the fact i dont wanna date anyone cause im still not over tanner, i dont wanna use anyone as a rebound.

It’s not fair i hate all of them all this fucked up shit, i wonder if tanner knows those more recent scars on my […]

1/13/2013 1 comment

My Depression: The real reasons…

by CryingForHelp 12/29/2012

written by CryingForHelp

Hi, I’m Destanie. I’m 15 years old. I turn 16 in May, but I don’t think I’m going to make it to see my birthday. Here’s why….

Back in June of 2012 i fell in love with this guy Tyler. He gave me the happiness I needed. He made me feel loved and wanted. We started dating but it only lasted about a week. For 3-4 months after that, I kept trying to tell him I still loved him. Finally he started talking to me again and I told him.. He told me he still loved me too and that he wants to make things right. […]

12/29/2012 10 comments

how

by mgnmcgrath 11/27/2012

written by mgnmcgrath

i dont know how to say goodybye. i dont know how to leave this cruel world. i drown in misery everyday of my life. maybe its laziness. i dont know what is wrong with me. i cannot get up in the mornings to attend school. im failing all my classes because i miss soo much. my ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend and it kills me everyday to see them. my mom has been gone for about three years out who knows where with another man. i feel so empty and im not happy. i dont remember what it feels like to even be happy. […]

11/27/2012 2 comments

I cannot believe I’ve gotten to this point.

by Dreamslave 11/24/2012

written by Dreamslave

I think about it every night before falling asleep. You know, that time when you are supposed to be winding down, lying in your bed in the darkness with nothing but your over active brain that won’t shut up to keep you company. Sifting through memories that you long to experience over again. Feelings you’ve felt, decisions you wish you could alter.

I’m going to end it.

I was spoiled growing up. I have an older brother and a younger sister, so that makes me the middle child and the second boy. I was created for the sole purpose to give my brother someone to play with […]

11/24/2012 3 comments

Black Friday

by Abselom 11/23/2012

written by Abselom

Saw Emily at the mall today … Â That’s my exboyfriends sister Â Ad it was way too awkward… She gave me a death stare Â which really sucks because we used to be pretty close. I had an anxiety attack after saying hi to her. Â Just makes me want Travis that much more.

And reminds me about how perfect his new girlfriend is Â and how fucking shitty I really am

11/23/2012 0 comment

November 20th

by Abselom 11/20/2012

written by Abselom

Just another day.. typical.. nothing unsual.. just thinking to myself about travis.. ( i dont care. ill put his real name up) I think maybe there still is hope for us..? not for sure.. but i have a feeling that maybe things arent totally over.. we had too deep of a conection.. we understood each other in everything we said and did. morgan (his new girlfriend) cant possible know about his nervous habits. how he cracks his knuckles in a certain way when he is thinking about something, or he is upset. how he bites at his cuticals when hes uncomfortable. how he obsesses with […]

11/20/2012 1 comment

With Me

by Rain 10/16/2012

written by Rain

That night…tall grass bathed in moonlight. The stars sparkle brightly as the North Pole’s breath travels down to where we are and dances across your cheek. Tall grass and white flowers..in thatÂ place Â next to theÂ brook and that wise old tree. We would stretch out between the roots under the spot where you carved our initials when we were young. The place where we fell in love, where you first tried to kiss me and I pulled away and ran as you chased me until i tripped over a secret root and you fell on top of me. Dear God we were only 13 and 14 […]

10/16/2012 0 comment

Bestfriends?

by vaaaaanna 10/8/2012

written by vaaaaanna

There are those that you trust & those that you enjoy spending time with right?

My friend is leaving the country for a long time. Happy for him, better life where his going anyways! I’ve helped him out when he had his huuuuge fallout with his ex, I was the “shoulder to cry on” friend. He was aaalways calling me his bestfriend, being appreciative about my existence and shared with me everything he thought I should know. ha sooo I could say I was pretty much his little treasure box, we were good friends! I didn’t see him more or less than a friend, sooo he […]

10/8/2012 6 comments

my story… well so far

by katiebear12 8/26/2012

written by katiebear12

there is so much i have to say and i don’t really know where to begin… so i’ll try to start from the beginning. i don’t really remember ever being very happy. i spent the first five years of my life with a father who did and sold drugs all the time and when and if he came home he was abusive towards my mom. i don’t remember this but my mom told me that he pushed her down the stairs when she was pregant with my youngest brother. we never really had much money because my mom couldn’t work with all of us being […]

8/26/2012 4 comments

So cut my wrists & black my eyes so I can fall asleep tonight.

by _PrincessSin 6/21/2012

written by _PrincessSin

I hope everyone who sees this reads it, I am no one special, I’m an 18 year old girl with so much baggage. When I was 15 I met this guy & at first I didn’t let him in didn’t trust him or love him, but at some point my guards came down & I let him in, September 27, 2009 was our day and it all ended after a year & a half. Imagine me vulnerable & alone. In love with someone who promised me the world. Said he fucking loved me forever and ever and always and eternity. Then one day he didn’t […]

6/21/2012 8 comments

Frustrated

by nopatience 5/20/2012

written by nopatience

I have no idea what to do. I just need some help, I guess.

So, here’s my story.
I’ve been battling depression & anxiety for 7 years now. I’m sure I’m not unique here.
I’ve also been fighting Interstitial Cystitis for 3 years. Basically, my immune system is trying to kill my bladder. I’m in constant pain. It feels very similar to giving birth. I can’t deal with the pain anymore, and there is nothing the doctors can do to stop the disease or the pain.

I just broke up with my boyfriend of nearly a year a few weeks ago. Not a problem. We just didn’t […]

5/20/2012 3 comments

Update: Fade to Black

by Help89 5/14/2012

written by Help89

I just can’t deal anymore. Everyone says to “hold on” and “be strong”. But they do not walk in my shoes. They do not feel the pain I feel. They were not physically and emotionally abused in their childhood. They didn’t see their boyfriend of 6 years find a new girlfriend and the two of them crack jokes about me on Facebook, saying that I am lunch meat while the new girlfriend is steak….yet the ex-boyfriend calls and tells me the same week he not over me and wants to be friends and I am a great person.Â How can I be a great person if […]

5/14/2012 2 comments

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