whats on my mind…..well suicide. It has been for as long as I can remember, in one form or another. The last month it has gotten stronger tho. I watched “the bridge”, and now cant stop watching the footage of people jumping off the bridge. The thought of the release of pain when at last u get to fly must be beautiful. I think thats why people choose that method. Anyway I opened up and told my wife about what ive been watching and my thoughts on it and she was shocked and worried. I do suffer mental illness and we both have […]
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I’m new here… uh, actually, I already knew of this place, but… I never had the courage to actually post something here. I guess this is a start? Maybe we can be friends :). I hope that we can help each other or at least be friends .
Honestly don’t know what to say… other than I’m new here and this is my first time opening up to people about my problems… If I ever get comfortable enough to talk about my problems. I guess this post is more kind of like an introduction?
Or just me trying to get comfortable here and meet people because I’m honestly really uncomfortable even just typing this.
Anyway, hi. I’m Ira. I’m 20 years old. I love to draw and I’m really shy so I’m sorry about this awkward intro… On another note… my avatar looks like a scary duck… Need to change it.
What is a thing or two you still enjoy or use as a diversion from real life?
written by wintersportnut
Hi folks… I am still pretty new here and really enjoying getting to know all of you! I have a hard time sharing all the hard things in life or dealing with them. I tend to make life one big diversion. I get relief from watching sports. love almost all of them. I also like watching British comedy on YouTube, like fresh meat or peep show. what are some things you folks enjoy as diversions?
I feel like shit.
One of things I absolutely hate is the fact that we no longer live a normal life anymore.
My father is jobless, and my mother works freelance at the company where my dad used to work at. For months now, he’s been jobless and he’s been living with us in the apartment I’ve been using for college. Currently, he applied to some company abroad, whereas he’s been waiting for his papers’ approval. We’ve tried telling him to work at the company he worked at before but he absolutely hates it there, so no question about him wanting to go back otherwise it’d lead […]
Hello everyone, I’m new here.
I really don’t know where to start, there are so many things I wish I could tell people. I feel that this place can at least give me an opportunity to share these things with others, it may feel better. I do hope that this isn’t viewed as whiny or awkward, and I’m sorry if I upset anybody. Also I guess I should warn that may go into shallow detail about self harm…. ((frequency and desires)not sure if that’s something I should warn about at the top of the post or not)
So mostly I just sort of want to tell somebody […]
So, im new here. Ive had manic depression since i was a child. But in the last few months ive been on a terrible low. I was thrown out of my house, due to an argument with a roomate that escalated to blows, they had a kid, they got to stay. So now im living in my parents basment, i lost my job when i lost my place. Realy the only thing keeping me sane at the moment are the chemicle kisses (drugs) and my childhood friend… But now he is trying to get clean… And i support his decision, drugs are bad…. Mkay? But […]
Hello everyone. I’m new here. I’m almost 24 and my native language is not english, so excuse my poor english.
I have been dealing with anxiety and depression (i guess it appeared later) since the age of 15/16 i guess. It started after my dad said yes to a surgery to my kidney( i didn’t want to do it cause i knew it wouldn’t fix anything, it was’nt a matter of life or death, not anything closer to that, just to fix a congenital problem). But the only thing it brought to me was a psicosomatic disorder and later anxiety and depression.
I’m telling you […]
I’m going to keep this short, sweet, and unrelated to the norm. I want to write, and normally I don’t ask if it’s a good or bad idea. I generally just do it and say fuck the consequences, but this time is a little different. As you all can guess, it’s about a girl, and it’s complicated. First, a little update on how romance has been going in my life. The girl that has caused me so much sorrow and heartache has officially been given up on, and I have moved on. Now that’s out of the way, straight to why this shit be complicated […]
Im still new here i havent had chance to write much anything but i have a few ?s first i would like to kno the pics pple have how r they changed and colour? Like i dont mind mine but i want diff colours or to pick new one anyone ever chill on skype or have movie nights online?
Hello again i am very new here shy also i wanted a change my name i only posted recently didnt say much but i have been reading posts for few months now i am depressed i went to see a pyicitrist but he really didnt help me i will try again and hope to get some meds i have not been diagnosed with the two i kno i do have anxity and depeession i really hoped when i took that step and shared things with him hed give me some meds and i got nothing ill try again someone else all i can do hello […]
im not really sure what im expecting from this i guess
maybe someone to relate to? im not sure anymore, i just need someone
im completely lost and torn between wanting to live and wanting to die
i’m a 15 year old female from scotland, and honestly, all i want is a friend
So one night I was just like… it would be pretty cool to find other people who want to die at times, and just hang out for some reason. So I found this site, and decided to join.
I am 24 years old, living in Southern California and going to college… I won’t really go into why I wanted to suicide or other things, because it’s too long, sensitive, and kinda crazy. So I won’t for now… Unless I feel like doing it one night on private.
I really like music so I’ll try to share music with you guys.
9 months has passed, the baby was ready to be born. The mother went to the hospital and the amniotic liquid started running through out her legs. The doctor called her, come on, go to bed, everything will be alright.
The mother is worried, she is not feeling the baby movements. She looked down her tummy and felt it empty. There are other people around her, everybody is telling her that she is ok, she just need to be patience and wait for the long hours of labors. But she is insisting, please, he is a good doctor, but I trust more my doctor from the […]
I’m new here..and I just desperately need to type this out with the anonymity that comes with the internet. I’m so..very tired. I’m not sure what’s wrong. Since I was little..maybe 7 I became withdrawn. Depression rose and finally last year when I was 24 I finally collapsed when the anxiety decided to come out full blown. My mother took to immediate care once she found me 4 times curled up sobbing for no reason. By that time I had taken off work, my grades were garbage, I had stopped eating, stopped everything but lay in bed and cry. My father says it’s in my […]
I’m new here. This is my first post.
I served in Afghanistan. I’ve seen some of the most evil shit imaginable. I used to carry a pack full of gear, ammunition, ordinance, etc…
Now I carry a pack full of insecurity, self doubt, self hatred, and sadness. How did I end up here? How come some men can stow their shit away and never look at it again, and others (such as myself) cannot? I’ve been nearly killed on several occasions, but I’m still here. The only things that bring me happiness are my kids, my girl, and a V Twin with wheels. I’ve become indifferent as […]
I’m new here..
I need to spill how i feel: alone. I recently graduated from uni and moved back to LA with my parents. Ive realized that i have no friends. And the few people i believed were my friends dont seem to want to see me. 6 months ago my bf of 6 years broke up with me. Its been so hard to deal with. I guess its better since i was always dragging him down with my sadness. My eating disorder (bulimia) is worse than ever. Ive been this way 7 years. I have been trying to get treatment but the treatment centers are […]
Hey guys,
I’m new here and I wanted to share my story. But I have 1 problem and that is that my memory is not as it is supposed to be. I can’t remember what happened at what age, but I guessed a little. Anyway, here’s my story:
At the age of 6 I harmed myself. I can’t remember why, but what I do remember is that I always said to myself that I should be punished. So, I always bit myself in my hand, harder and harder each time. I told my parents how I felt, I said that I feel emotionless but still sad, […]
Okay so I am brand new here and kinda awkward about it. But I’m going to use this as a place to vent and stuff.
So I am your average teenage girl, with a slightly disfunctional family.
I have never meet my birth father. My (now ex) step father is a pretty alright man. And my mother is a monster, I will get into details about her later.
I have many brothers and sisters, but only few whom I have actually meet, and only 1 that I have grown up with. My older brother (by 9 years) hes.. well I dont know, he doesnt exactly […]
I’m new here, I’m here because I came across this randomly while googling.
I’m here because I’m planning on killing myself in a few months.
the reason for this delay is I want to pay off my credit card before I go so as not to leave my family with too much of a burden. I also want to have time to plan my perfect last day.
I’m trying to approach this from the most rational direction possible. If I don’t go through with this I’ve got nothing else. I’m a college dropout working a crap job for nine dollars an hour. I can’t connect with people. My […]
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