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not die

Nothing left

by BlondeWig 3/28/2016

written by BlondeWig

Do you ever just stay up late til like 5am and just struggle to find a reason to not kill yourself? I have done this for the past 2 weeks.

The worst feeling in the world, is being treated like a second option, and feeling unwanted. Being with someone who constantly makes up excuses for not seeing you and then wonders why I get upset so often.

My family disowned me. I have 0 hobbies. 0 friends. I do nothing with my life except go to work and be bored as fuck in my house alone.

I tried to kill myself once, obviously failed. At first I thought, […]

3/28/2016 9 comments

How many

by Youngoneforever 7/13/2015

written by Youngoneforever

I need to know how many sleeping pills it takes to get knocked out, but not die. I need to see who cares. And don’t you DARE call me an attention whore. Its just my life is falling to pieces before my eyes. I can’t take it.

7/13/2015 1 comment

Cancer

by 3rdxcancergirl 6/8/2015

written by 3rdxcancergirl

Hi,
This year I was diagnosed with Renal cancer for the 3rd time.In 2005 I lost my left kidney to it.2nd time it showed up in my right kidney and got a botched surgery to remove the tumor. Only thing is this time (the 3rd) it’s spread throughout my body. I will not die of it. I am a nurse and have watched too many people die of this horrid disease and I refuse to let it take me.I do not want my families last memory of me to be that of me lying in a hospital bed,wracked with pain,on so much Morphine I don’t […]

6/8/2015 8 comments

Finally Met with Someone

by capricious 11/10/2014

written by capricious

I finally got my case pushed through to meeting someone. After waiting 40 minutes in the foyer he finally came out to meet me. Thanks for the promptness. Just proves how important I am to these people.

With the last 20 minutes of my session remaining the guy asked me all the same boring shit he should have got in the fax of my assessment. Oh wait. They didn’t fucking send it to him.

So now here we are, more than halfway through and with no past history on the table. What a great start. I was so mad at this point that I could barely answer […]

11/10/2014 5 comments

Tired of life!!!

by ridzzz 5/29/2014

written by ridzzz

Life is really , weird , I’m done with with everything . It’s just over , dealing with this shit has made me sick , it feels worse , I’ve lost all my interest in every single damn thing , dealing with the shit your parents are giving u … I don’t understand what the hell is wrong with me ,, this shit is over man , suicide is the only option left maybe.Today I stood at the end of the Cliff , nd yelled loudly . I just wanned to jump off it nd wanted to feel the warm blood […]

5/29/2014 4 comments

For anyone who cares, this letter which it’s not a posthumous note.

by PennyroyalTea 10/3/2012

written by PennyroyalTea

I’m feelingÂ worseÂ every day. With every breath I feel emptier. Iâ€™m doing a lot of shit for trying to survive, because I’m hurt and empty and that fucks me. That’s why I’m so self-destructive. My strategy for survive every day makes me feel more empty, but calms my painÂ temporarily. I don’t even know why I am hurt. I mean, my whole life is so normal, my family problems and all that stuff are really common. Everybody have problems and I think I’m too dramatic so I hate myself for that. No one fucking cares, I talk about all this with a few friends and they also […]

10/3/2012 2 comments