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AI in the future ; Life is boring ; Life sucks

by niki
written by niki

Title: AI in the future / A.I in the future / Artificial Intelligence in the future ; VR in the future / V.R in the future / Virtual Reality in the future ; Transhumanism in the future ; technology in the future ; Life is boring ; Life sucks ; escape from reality

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AI is the future
A.I is the future
Artificial Intelligence is the future
because Life is boring / reality is boring / real life is boring / real world is boring

VR is the future
V.R is the future
Virtual Reality is the future
because Life is boring / reality is boring / real-life is boring / real-world is boring

AR is the future
A.R is the future
Augmented Reality is the future
because Life is boring / reality is boring / reallife is boring / realworld is boring

Transhumanism is the future
Transhumanist is the future
Life is boring
reality is boring
reallife is boring
realworld is boring

Future technology
Technology in the future ?
Technology is the future ?

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reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

by niki
written by niki

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate reality , reality is boring !
I hate real life , real life is boring !
I hate real world , real world is boring !

I wish I live in movie / movies , I wish movies were real
I wish I live in video games , I wish games were real
I wish I live in novels , I wish novels were real
I wish I live in anime , I wish anime was / were real
I wish I live in manga , I wish manga was / were real
I wish I live in fairy tale , I wish fairy tale was / were real
I wish I live in fantasy , I wish fantasy was / were real
I wish I live in Imagination , I wish Imagination was / were / is real

I wish magic was real , I wish magic were real , I wish magic is real , I wish magic really exist
I wish superpower was real , I wish superpowers were real , I wish superpower is real , I wish superpower really exist
I wish superhero was real , I wish superheroes were real , I wish superhero is real , I wish superheroes really exist , I wish superhero really exist
I wish science fiction was real , I wish science-fiction were real , I wish sci fi is real , I wish sci-fi really exist
I wish fairy tale was real , I wish fairy tales were real , I wish fairy tale is real , I wish fairy tales really exist
I wish dragon was real , I wish dragons were real , I wish dragon is real , I wish dragons really exist
I wish fantasy was real , I wish fantasy were real , I wish fantasy is real , I wish fantasy really exist
I wish

Movie is better than reality , movie is better than real life , movie is better than real world
Video games is better than reality , video games is better than real life , video games is better than real world
Anime is better than reality , anime is better than real life , anime is better than real world
Comics books is better than reality , comic books is better than real life , comics is better than real world
Manga is better than reality , manga is better than real life , manga is better than real world
Novel is better than reality , novel is better than real life , novel is better than real world
Science fiction is better than reality , science-fiction is better than real life , sci-fi is better than real world
Fantasy is better than reality , fantasy is better than real life , fantasy is better than real world

I wish Harry Potter was real , I wish Harry Potter were real , I wish Harry Potter is real
I wish I live in Harry Potter universe , I wish I live in Hogwarts , I want to live in Hogwarts , I want to live at Hogwarts , I want to be in Hogwarts ,
I want to live in the Harry Potter universe

I wish Avengers was real , I wish The Avengers were real , I wish The Avengers is real , I wish The Avengers are real
I wish I live in The Avengers universe , I wish I live in Marvel universe , I wish I live in MCEU universe
I want to live in The Avengers universe , I want to live in MCEU universe

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I wish Virtual Reality (VR) is real to escape boring reality
I want Virtual Reality (VR) real to escape boring real life
Virtual Reality (VR) real to escape boring real world
I hope Virtual Reality (VR) progress real to escape boring mundane reality

I wish Augmented Reality (AR) is real to escape boring reality
I want Augmented Reality (AR) real to escape boring real world
Augmented Reality (AR) real to escape boring real life
I hope Augmented Reality (AR) progress real to escape boring mundane reality

I wish Artificial Intelligence (AI) is real to escape boring reality
I want Artificial Intelligence (AI) real to escape boring real life
Artificial Intelligence (AI) real to escape boring real world
I hope Artificial Intelligence (AI) progress real to escape boring mundane reality

I wish Transhumanism is real to escape boring reality
I want Transhumanism real to escape boring real world
Transhumanism real to escape boring real life
I hope Transhumanism progress real to escape boring mundane reality

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Miguel De Unamuno – Poems

by Taf Taf
written by Taf Taf

Muerte (Death)

 

To die to sleep… to sleep… perchance to dream.

(Hamlet, act iii, scene iv)

 

You are the dream of a God; when you awake

will you return to the womb where you were born?

Will you then be what you were before?

Will your death be a new birth?

–

Is this dream absent during wakefulness?

Luckily here the mystery assists us;

as a remedy of our sad life

our fate remains an inviolable secret.

–

Let your future remain hidden under the fog

and walk calmly as you take your last step;

the less light there is, the more certain you can be.

–

Is our sunset the dawn of another world?

Dream on, my soul, in your obscure path:

” To die to sleep… to sleep… perchance to dream.”

 

The Immortality of the Crab (Inmortalidad del Cangrejo)*

 

The deepest problem:

of the immortality of the crab,

is that a soul it has,

a little soul in fact…

–

That if the crab dies

entirely in its totality

with it we all die

for all of eternity

 

* The title of the poem is based on the Spanish phrase pensar en la inmortalidad del gangrejo (thinking about the immortality of the crab), which means that someone is daydreaming, is lost in thought, is pondering. There’s a similar phrase in Portuguese: pensar na morte da bezerra.

 

To Destiny (Al Destino)

 

When I struggle, calmness overwhelms me

hiding your secrets from me, Destiny;

don’t let me falter in my path, because

without questioning I obey you blindly.

–

Don’t give me time to complain or beg;

spur me on without stopping,

and, like a sleepless pilgrim, let me

carry with me the fire from my hearth.

–

I want to win my peace through war;

I want to conquer the impossible dream;

don’t let me rest from trying to shed light

–

on the enigma within your heart,

and when I return to the bosom of the earth

let me deserve an ever-lasting peace.

Miguel De Unamuno is probably the most important Spanish philosopher, novelist and poet of the 20th century. His most famous works are: The Tragic Sense of Life (1912), Poesias (Poems – 1907), Our Lord Don Quixote (1914), Saint Emmanuel the Good, Martyr (1930), Aunt Tula (1921), Cancionero (Songbook – 1953, published after his death).  He was born in Bilbao (1864) and died in Salamanca (1936).

 

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George Vizyenos – The Dream

by Taf Taf
written by Taf Taf

George Vizyenos – The Dream

(Translated by Timothy Adès)

 

Last night I saw all in my sleep
a river deep:
God let it not come true!
Silent as night beside the flood,
moon-pale, there stood
a young man whom I knew.

– – –

With force the stormwind striving
and smiting
near drove him from the living;
waves sucked his feet with kisses,
inviting
him down to their embraces.

– – –

Not by the storm I thought him
mistreated,
despairing wretch forsaken.
To snatch him safe I speeded,
nor caught him:
abruptly he was taken.

– – –

I stooped towards the river,
him to discover:
my own pale corpse I knew!
Last night I saw all in my sleep
a river deep:
God let it not come true!

 

George Vizyenos (or Georgios Vizyinos) was one of the best Greek novelists and poets. Some of his books translated in English (if anyone wants to read them) are: My Mother’s Sin And Other Stories, The Only Journey Of His Life, Who Was My Brother’s Killer? and Moskov Selim . Although he is famous in Greece for his novels, he also wrote essays on psychology and philosophy. He studied in Germany and he was a student of the famous psychologist Wilhelm Wundt. His ending was a tragic one: he ended up in an insane asylum in Athens, where he died in 1896. He was 47 years old.

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I hate business ! I hate money ! I hate capitalism / capitalist !

by niki
written by niki

I hate business !
I hate money !
I hate capitalism / capitalist !

The main reason is because business kills creativity & ideas . money kills creativity & ideas . capitalism / capitalist kills creativity & ideas !
There are a LOT of good ideas , creativity , imaginations , inspirations , dreams , & even good deeds that business / money kills ! simply because of a petty, shallow reason “it doesn’t make a lot of money or profits ! ”

money makes the world unfair ! business makes the world unfair ! capitalism makes the world unfair !

plus , the world becomes a boring place !
everything is all about MONEY , business , and profits only ! even though actually Life is SO MUCH MORE than that ! ie: imagination , dreams , creativity , Love , education , inspiration , helping each other , Heart & SOUL , genuine things , sharing , laughter , collaboration together , science , philosophy , and mankind / humanity / civilization make a great jump / leap forward in progress to a totally NEW era / civilization / Mankind / Humanity ! instead of only repeating the same , stupid, shallow, superficial, ignorant , narrow minded , dull , boring , petty , miniscule , & meaningless things like politics, wars about who has the most MONEY , fighting over religion , race differences, etc etc !

I used to have hope for Humanity , hope for Mankind , hope for humans , hope for people , hope for human race , hope for Mankind ‘s civilization … but now unfortunately / sadly I lose hope in humanity , lose hope for mankind , lose hope for humans , lost hope for people , lost hope for human race, losing hope for Mankind ‘s civilization ,.. Humanity is hopeless , Mankind is hopeless , human race is hopeless , human beings is / are hopeless , mankind ‘s civilization is hopeless .. !
I hate people / humans / humanity / society sometimes !

anyone also feel the same ? anyone can relate ?

(PS: have you guys also heard of some alternative movements / solutions like for example : Resource Based Economy (RBE), The Venus Project , the Zeitgeist Movement , Thrive movement , Paradigm Shift , Basic Income movement , Equal Income movement ? what do you think ? will it work out as an alternative / solution for our current society ‘s problems ? )

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fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!

by niki
written by niki

fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

easy examples:
‘fantasy’ or ‘sci-fi (sci fi / science fiction)’ movies (or games, anime/manga, comics, novels, books, etc etc) like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Avatar, The Matrix, Sword Art Online, MMORPG games, etc etc have much more interesting & UNLIMITED worlds/realms/dimension & superpowers / magic & real ‘COOL’ superheroes , than this f*cking boring reality / realworld / reallife ???

if God really exists & real, then He/She/It must have played such a cruel, sick JOKE
for creating such “other-worldly / out of this world” type of human’s IMAGINATIONS / fantasy ,
….only just to STILL trap / imprison us humans (especially the *real* smart & creative types of people) inside this f*cking damn mundane, dull, boring reality/real life/real world (and also to be placed among MAJORITY (like 90%) of f*cking stupid, shallow, superficial, dull, boring, mundane, ignorant “ordinary/normal” people/humans all around me/us ???…

fuck this… !!
please, just get me out of this reality , a cruel, sick, harsh, & boring reality … !!!

can anyone here relate or think/feel the same/similar with me?

(PS: have any of you heard of Virtual Reality, Lucid Dreaming, Astral Projection/Travel ? )

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is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

by niki
written by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & boring, mundane world !
human’s IMAGINATION like movie, video game, comics, novel, book, anime / manga etc are better than reality ??! …
I wish superhero / superheroes were real exist , because reality / life is boring !
here in this ” reality ” , it’s only all about money, money, and money. the usual boring “suit and ties” thing rules this real world. very boring !

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime / manga, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ?…

does God (if there is indeed one..) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative (also often real smart & Open-minded ! ), artistic, imaginative, and “other-worldly” artistic type of people & their fantasy, sci-fi (science fiction) works and IMAGINATION !?..

can anyone here relate or think/feel the same/similar with me ?

(PS: how many of you here also have heard about: Virtual Reality (VR) , Lucid Dreaming , Astral Projection ? )

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Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

by niki
written by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

easy examples:
‘fantasy’ or ‘sci-fi (sci fi / science fiction)’ movies (or games, anime/manga, comics, novels, books, etc etc) like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Avatar, The Matrix, Sword Art Online, MMORPG games, etc etc have much more interesting & UNLIMITED worlds/realms/dimension & superpowers / magic & real ‘COOL’ superheroes , than this f*cking boring reality / realworld / reallife ???

if God really exists & real, then He/She/It must have played such a cruel, sick JOKE
for creating such “other-worldly / out of this world” type of human’s IMAGINATIONS / fantasy ,
….only just to STILL trap / imprison us humans (especially the smart & creative types of people) inside this f*cking damn mundane, dull, boring reality/real life/real world (and also to be placed among MAJORITY (like 90%) of f*cking stupid, shallow, superficial, dull, boring, mundane, ignorant “ordinary/normal” people/humans all around me/us ???…

fuck this… !!
please, just get me out of this reality , a cruel, sick, harsh, & boring reality … !!!

(PS: have any of you heard of Virtual Reality, Lucid Dreaming, Astral Projection/Travel ? )

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Reality suck , Real Life suck , Real World suck . why human’s Imagination is much better & interesting than this everyday’s boring reality ??

by niki
written by niki

I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very boring, and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…

does God (if there is indeed one…!) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative, artistic, imaginative, and “other-worldly” artistic type of people & their fantasy, sci-fi (science fiction) works and IMAGINATION !? …

can anyone here relate or think/feel the same/similar with me?

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I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, boring & mundane, nothing that interesting!

by niki
written by niki

I hate life. I hate people. I hate this world. I hate reality / real world / real life, they are all too boring/mundane for me, and I’ve found almost nothing that is interesting in this reality/real-life/real-world anymore, also in MOST people/humans!

the majority or MOST of human beings/people in this world I’ve found to be either a bunch of stupid, shallow, superficial, ignorant, selfish, rigid, stoic, lifeless, uninteresting, uncreative, and/or boring / mundane ones.

maybe that’s why this “reality” (or “real world” / “real life”) or our society currently is sooo f*cked up now almost beyond help!

with only VERY FEW exceptions of: real-GOOD, honest humans/people, real smart/intelligent people, and/or very creative, imaginative, ‘artistic’ type of humans/people (that produces some of the best “other-worldly” works like novels, movies, games, anime, work of art, etc etc) ,… then the rest (again, which is the majority, like 90% or even 99% of human beings on this planet!) , I simply absolutely HATE them, and how I deeply always f*cking wish that I NEVER live in ONE planet with them,.. or how I wish I could get immediately transported into another world / universe (like in those ‘cool/awesome’ movies, novels, games, etc etc) ..

can anyone here relate with me?
then, what is the solution?..

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Suicidal Inspiration “Everyday I tell myself…”

by icandoyourhair
written by icandoyourhair

stewartgary

Do you have someone you know personally, or a role model/possible celebrity figure whose suicide or death you admire? Sometimes, I think of the deaths of others to help build up courage in the fact they could go through with it. You could either be inspired by the method itself or the components of their life surrounding the death.

For example: I often think of Gary Stewart who was a 70’s country singer from where I live. He had some good hits in his day, reaching the top of the charts. Most all of his songs were about drinking, except they were borderline novel with a sad twist to them. His son killed himself in 98 and his wife died from natural causes before in 2003 Gary shot himself in the neck while lying in bed at his home. I believe his songs are laced with suicidal thoughts disguised as quirky honky-tonk songs with catchy lyrics.

The first lyrics on the first song on his first album: “Everyday I tell myself it’s temporary…”

Check out these lyrics or even look him up on youtube… the music isn’t my cup of tea, but it’s the meaning behind them http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/gary_stewart/an_empty_glass.html

What about you guys?

 

 

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Maybe someone will understand

by Stucke112
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since i can remember i have never been happy. i have amazing parents. my father is a state bridge inspector and my mother is a high school history teacher. my dad is older, from an older time and can be a real hardass sometimes, i know he always means well. my mom on the other hand is my hero, the best person i have ever known hands down. i couldnt count the number of people i have met through out the years that have told me, most of the time random people, that have told me that my mom has changed their lives. i have been blessed with so much more than i deserve, which is what makes every day that much harder. But on to my story. i’m 22 years old. i recently had my heart torn out by my girlfriend and the absolute love of my life for 3+ years. when i say recent;y i mean at the time of typing this it has been 6 months since. she had a new boyfriend right away, a guy who i thought i could trust. it has been the most difficult situation i have ever been made to handle…most people tell me i’m young…get over it…they’ll never understand and i just pray someone will…some more backround….i’m not the typical superficial guy. i don’t look for girls at bars or at parties…i want a real personal connection…it takes me forever to warm up to someone enough to put myself out there…i really in all respects am one of the best guys i know and everyday i see complete tools end up with real sweet and caring young women..ill never get it….but back to the present….i have not been the same since she left. i know it seems extreme but i had honesty without a doubt thought i met the woman i would spend forever with…and even still 6 months later i love her more every day….i’m 22 years old…ive met people since..ive been in therapy and done my best with meeting people and moving on…but i cant explain it…when you lose your soul mate, it is an unimaginable pain that i wouldn’t wish on my worst enemies…i could write a novel to eplain how i feel about this girl but it would all be waste…ive been close if it weren’t for the lucky timing of a roomate…i really believe that an eternal sleep will finally give me the peace i so want…i may not make it…but hopefully all of you reading this do…and i hope all of you remember to use your pleas and thank yous….never take a smile for granted….ill always cherish the fact i got to meet my soul mate…most people never get the chance…someone else deserves the opportunities ive been given. i’m just happy to finally get it out. thank you all.

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Not Really Sure What I’m Trying To Accomplish Here…

by JadedConfessions
written by JadedConfessions

I stumbled upon this site on accident, as I’m sure a lot of users have.  After spending a good hour reading through older posts I decided that maybe it was a good idea to share my own story. Before I do though, I would like to request that I don’t get any of those standard responses that you see on most forums. I really don’t want to hear about how selfish I am, or how things will magically get better one day – no offense, but none of you know me and you can’t rightfully say anything about my lifestyle choices. Isn’t the internet grand?

Anyway, without typing out a novel, I will tell you that I have been suffering from major depression for as long as I can remember. When I was younger, I was prescribed a cocktail of drugs that did nothing more than slightly numb the pain of living, but none of them ever properly did their job. After my first suicide attempt at the age of sixteen, I was pulled from medication and temporarily institutionalized. It was clear that the doctors at that particular facility saw me as nothing more than another pay check, because I quickly convinced them that everything was fine and they sent me on my way. Since then, I have tried two other times to off myself – but really, in retrospect, only one of them was a serious attempt. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m no stranger to the game.

I’ve come here today because I can feel that familiar weight pressing down on me. I think that, at 24 years old, all of the bullshit has finally caught up with me in life. If you asked me whether or not I was depressed, I would honestly answer with a ‘no.’ Depression doesn’t even begin to explain how I feel. Despair is close…but still not quite right. Every waking moment of my life is spent being miserable, I can’t help it. I can’t even remember the last time I truly experienced happiness.

I’m extremely worried (yes, worried) that I might kill myself tonight. It’s become a sort of mantra in my life – every day, like clockwork, I tell myself that today is going to be the day. Today will be the day that I finally step off that ledge. But I never really go through with it, obviously. The idea of dying terrifies me – but I honestly can’t stand the pain of living any longer. At this point it really seems like the only viable alternative.

They say that killing yourself is selfish because it hurts everyone around you. Well, that can’t possibly be the case for me. I live alone, I don’t have any family (at least none that cares), and within the last year I have pushed every single friend out of my life. I go weeks without seeing anybody at all and when I do it all feels so pretentious that it makes me sick to my stomach. Nobody knows what’s going on inside my head because nobody knows me. I’ve forced myself into isolation and now I can’t get out.

I need help, I know this. I don’t want to kill myself, I don’t want to die…but a huge part of me knows that it’s going to happen. I don’t want to live any more, that’s for sure. I kept holding on because somebody once told me that things would get better, but I can’t wait any longer. I just don’t know what to do.

As stated in the title, I don’t know what I’m hoping to achieve here. I just thought that maybe it would be nice if somebody out there got the chance to hear me for once….just one last time. This is probably the last anybody will ever hear from me…I don’t use FB, I have nobody to call…

I don’t know. Maybe this is what’s selfish. Sitting here and wasting your time by making you read this pointless post. So for that I’ll wrap it up. Hopefully this feeling will fade in the evening and I’ll still be here tomorrow, but really, if I’m not, that just might be for the best.

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Whispering Silence

by fallenangel48
written by fallenangel48

This is the beginning of a novel i am writing…let me know what you think

 

In the whispering scilence there was not a sound to be heard. And then the screaming began. Now before i get ahead of myself allow me to tell you something. I was neither the victim nor the criminal. I was a witness. A witness to something i was pursued for. I don’t have much time left, so i will tell you as much as possible. It began with a scream. I was sitting in the playground under the tree when i looked up to identify the source of the scream. A small girl in a pink sundress and one white sandel on. Holding her under one arm the man in the fedora and trenchcoat had his other hand inside his pocket. After hearing her frightened screams ” he’s not my dad!!!!!” coming from her five year old daughter she came running. Then she fell. The hand came out of the trenchcoat and pulled the trigger. The panicked look on her face mirrored her daughter’s when she fell. I sat there in shock. What had i just seen. He looked at me, i tried to pretend to read my book but he locked eyes with me. He mouthed, “You’re next” and swung the girl over his shoullder. And then he was running….

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I’ve written a novel…

by vedura
written by vedura

I’m a long term suicide survivor.  I know how hard it is and how it feels to want to die.  So I’ve written a novel about a girl who goes down that path and ends up in a  hospital, like I did, and actually gets help.  When I present it at writer’s groups, they don’t understand why the girl wants to die just because the love of her life dumped her.  Geez.  These people must have  robot “stable emotions,” like saw dust instead of guts.  It’s never just one thing but sometimes it takes just one more thing to push a person over that edge.

The novel also has humor.  Rather than go into specifics, I make the mother a caricature of the controlling distant mother.

My question:  Do you think other suicidal persons would want to read such a novel?  My experience is that once one has gone over that edge, to consider seriously taking one’s own life, they think differently than the part of the population who wants to live no matter what.  I want “them” the ones who don’t understand to understand how it feels.

Who knows?  They probably won’t.  In any case, if I ever get it out online, the title is “Karma’s Little Helper.”

Thanks for reading.

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