I have found that I worked all my life for Woman who did not love me. I am the youngest of my family and not very good with the other sex. I fear being alone all my life It is a very painful life I have no one and wish too die without shaming my family with my suicide I know God is good but I think some people are going too hell no matter what just like some people are born beautiful are rich.I just wish too leave this painful life.If you could help me I would be in you’re debt.
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Old Men
Got displaced so far from home
When I left, it’s on my own
Had someone, she used to stay
But I was cruel and I drove her away
Couldn’t get along with people I’ve known,
I changed my name. I changed my clothes.
But these old men, where have they gone now?
There’s not an issue they’d back due.
I say hi, what’re you d-d-d-doin over there?
Here I go down again
Lost my love all my friends
No one’s left no more debts
I found out all I got is myself
” What’s the use of a title”
They don’t make it
the beautiful die in flame-
suicide pills, rat poison, rope what-
ever…
they rip their arms off,
throw themselves out of windows,
they pull their eyes out of the sockets,
reject love
reject hate
reject, reject.
they don’t make it
the beautiful can’t endure,
they are butterflies
they are doves
they are sparrows,
they don’t make it.
one tall shot of flame
while the old men play checkers in the park
one flame, one good flame
while the old men play checkers in the park
in the sun.
the beautiful are found in the edge of a room
It all hit me. I was at coffee with my friend, and all of the sudden it all hit me – the depression, the urge to kill myself, for all of this to end.
I have no purpose, I see no tomorrow, I see no future. I just want to die, so fucking badly.
I’m living but I don’t feel like I am. I just want to fucking die! Why can’t I? Why can’t some car hit me and I’d die? Why can’t something happen and my life would end? I have no purpose. I feel like a puppet doing stuff only because I am told I […]
Just found this site.
Trying hard not to give up, like old men sometimes do.
It’s 2 am in this small upstate new york town, and time to go out walking, like i do at night. Haven’t been out during the day, or talked to anyone for a week. All evidence suggests i am already a ghost. Food, i hardly eat, slowly wasting away. No more family, no more freinds. Not very social anymore.
Funny thing, seeing other people hurting always makes me cry. Other people in dispair and emotional pain, i get it, been there. I want to reach out and say “it will get better, just being alive […]
Today I started my “project”. I’m sick of the world, but my best and pretty much only friend wants me to stay with her until highschool, because she’s struggling with life as well. So I figured that if I slowly starve myself to death, I can stay with her, but as soon as school is out, the pain of starving will make it easier for me to just end life. I eat a lot so I’m not going to full out starve myself, but become majorly bulimic… Honestly, nobody on this site probably cares, but I just want to put it out there. I hate […]
There is so much I want to say but so little words that could describe how I feel (and have been feeling for the past few years.) The ones that immediately come to mind include: Tired, apathetic, and hopeless.
I am generally thought of as a happy person because I am always seen smiling whether I’m at work or at school. It’s even to the point that people always laugh at me for smiling so much. The truth is I hate it. I hate smiling, I hate laughing because I just don’t want to. Why should I have to anyways? Â My school life is a mess […]
Well I didn’t smoke today! So I felt Mad and sad today. I was about to smoke with this 18 year old men but I just went in the house! I tried very hard to turn it down. I love weed and very addicted to it. When I smoke my self-esteem goes up. I don’t know why but i always had low self-esteem ever since I was real young. When I don’t smoke I’m very angry and sad and when I think about when I was sexual abuse tears comes down my eyes. Snap Shots Comes in my head of me giving boys oral at […]