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on the edge

On the edge

by whydoiwantto 4/11/2016

written by whydoiwantto

I’m on the edge right now. One of the few close friends I have, someone I considered my best friend, said that she didn’t want to be friends with me anymore ever since I tried to kill myself back in December, because dealing with the depression is too much. Apparently I’m just too sad all the time and it’s bringing her down…

I’m so fucking tired of my depression ruining relationships. If this medical condition was diabetes or something like that, this never would happen. But these suicide thoughts are out of my control. At the end of the day, after she told me the truth […]

4/11/2016 1 comment

Tomorrow

by hopeisafourletterword 4/1/2016

written by hopeisafourletterword

When we first met I had no intention of letting you inside, of giving you my heart, of loving you with my soul. Just a little while later, all of that came true. It all came true at the point I was most ready to end my life. It was… a miracle of sorts. The single best and worst thing that ever happened to me. No longer on the edge, I was yours to take, although you never did. But still, the tomorrows kept coming because of you. It’s two years later and nothing’s changed. I wish I had moved on by now, but with […]

4/1/2016 2 comments

I’m on the edge of brink of despair. Confined within these four walls. I silently whispered a prayer, for the underdog of death to take me home.

by Raven 4/1/2016

written by Raven

4/1/2016 1 comment

I want someone

by blued 2/18/2016

written by blued

to come up to me with a gun and press the cold steel muzzle against my head and blow my brains out.

I can’t do it myself because I’m a coward. I could hold a razor against my wrists but I could never slit them. I could stand on the edge of a railway platform but I could never jump in front of the train. I could put some pills in my mouth but I could never make myself swallow.

I’m too much of a fucking failure to even kill myself.

2/18/2016 6 comments

My head is in such a weird place right now

by ellarh 10/12/2015

written by ellarh

I thought I hit rock bottom this weekend. I could barely get out of bed, and I didn’t do ANYTHING I had to do, no work, just staying in bed and watching movies I really didn’t care about. I tried to reach out for friends, but literally none of them wanted to go out, and it made me feel worse. Rejected. I was on the edge, thoughts about suicide invading my mind and I couldn’t control my crying.

I woke up today feeling completely different. I’m not that sad anymore, just numb, as if everything I’ve been feeling for the past three days is something really distant. […]

10/12/2015 1 comment

I’m afraid

by Angelus 12/7/2014

written by Angelus

it’s not a good start I know, but I’m on the edge. and I try and try to hold on even when I want to let go.
But, I’m torn. I’m so…torn between letting go and holding on. I’m holding on for the love that burns me whole, for the woman that held me anchored to this earth for almost six years. the more I try and show her my twisted heart the more I push her away into another’s arms. and my heart bleeds. it just makes it all the more harder to keep the promise I made her, to be there for her […]

12/7/2014 2 comments

quote of my life…

by onlyoption 11/13/2014

written by onlyoption

‘to live is the rarest thing in the world, most of us just exist’ – the fabulous oscar wilde
litterally on the edge right now. cant stand anymore. i need a way out. i dont want to just exist anymore…

11/13/2014 6 comments

So I guess this is my story…

by Emt girl 9/17/2014

written by Emt girl

Is it possible for someone to never be happy? If so then I guess that’s me. I found out this morning that my debilitating autoimmune disease is non responsive to current treatment and will require much more aggressive treatment. To do so will require time off from work I don’t have and a loss of income. I can’t pay my rent as it is… I am drowning in debt and I ruined my eight year relationship with my anger and hatred… I am not eligible for help and have no where to turn anymore. I can’t be the reason my kids are homeless again. I […]

9/17/2014 1 comment