I feel like life is one long ass horrible ass nightmare. And if i die I’ll wake the fuck up.
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That’s all I ever hear. It’s just a “stage”. Every teenager goes through it at some point. All they want is attention. Lie. It’s all a lie. If this is a “stage” then it’s one long, never ending “stage”.  I’m not a three year old going through the “toddler stage” like every toddler goes through. That’s a “stage”. I’m NOT going through a “STAGE”! this is a lifestyle. A lifestyle we dont want but are given.
For what it’s worth, I’m 61.I have battled depression since I was 14. I spent almost all my adult years self- medicating with drugs, mostly alcohol for the last 40+ years on a daily basis. I’ve been in treatment 4 times but always relapsed. About 3 years ago I noticed my cognitive skills and memory we taking a dive. I qut drinking ( except for a few breif relapses).I began seeing a psychologist for 2 years(i’d been in therapy before) . Not long after I started seeing the psychologist, I started seeing psychiatrists, again. I’ve had my regular doctors prescribe medications that did nothing. […]