Well after years of social isolation suicidal depression and stress the chickens are finally coming home to roost. I no longer have the will to live and spend half the day in bed. I am on antipsychotic medication and am due a hospital assessment to determine whether I need hospitalizing. As a loser and social misfit I need a miracle to get out of this trap. Suicide is of course so final and hard to face but I feel is my only option as my life has become sheer agony. My only tears are for those I’ll leave behind. No one can help me, no […]
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I think I’ve finally decided suicide is the only option for me. It used to be one of a few, but those seem to have disappeared. I just can’t take it anymore. I am exhausted and at my threshold of pain and bullshit. I’d do it tomorrow if I had enough pills. I will have to wait for a refill. Time to plan and get things in order.
I just want permanent sleep. I hate being in this existence its such an overwhelming walk of meaninglessness. I do try i do go forward i do quit i even try to get back up at times. Im just at my wits end. It feels like death is the only option. I dont comprehend existence. Im tired of only existing in such incredible loneliness. I want to die. Life never happens for the ugly and meaninglessness. Just more depair and reminders of failure. No comments. I dont want another rah rah go be better comment no matter how well it means to be.
I dont know if its depression or or normal teenage bullshit, but i just dont give a fuck about anything anymore. I used to have good grades now theyre slipping and i have exmas coming up but zero motivation to study. All ive been doing is being usless by sleeping, crying, eating too much, and cutting. My parents are also sick of me. They expect me to be happy all the time and dont know why i never am. They were having a one-sided arguement with me today and told me that theyre ashamed of me and that they should just poison my sister and […]
Do you ever just lay there and listen to the way your house breathes? Do you ever just lay there and watch as the shadows on your wall slowly change and grow as the time passes and the suns position changes? I can feel my depression breathing deep in my gut, spreading its shadow into my heart. It ways heavily and I fear there is not much I can do to stop it anymore. Slowing it seems to be my only option, but its triumph is inevitable. I hate feeling this way. I wish there was an option to surgically remove this depression and anxiety. […]
I’m here not for any confessions just to tell about me to this world and if even one person agrees who I am that’s enough for me
I’m a 20 year middle class boy who has faced many troubles infamily…from childhood days I have never seen my fathers love towards me he keeps on shouting and pin points a very small mistake to a large one.. I will be beaten up when I dont obey my fathers words for even a silly thing and my mom doesn’t even raise her voice against my father she reacts like “whatever my husband does is correct bcoz he is […]
22, male suffering from emotional, mental and physical pain.
No real friends. They all left after high school and the ones I kept are either doing their own thing or gone separate ways. I don’t go out or socialize. If I do, it’s rare.
Riddled with anxiety. Can’t get a girlfriend, still a Virgin. Hopeless at talking to girls and developing new friendships or relationships. Good talk but never goes anywhere far. I’m seen as too nerdy or mature. I just hate how people view me as some sort of stranger.
Physical pain. Suffering from back pain, shoulder pain, knee pain. Can’t do anything physical anymore. Job involves […]
For a while now I’ve contemplated suicide. I believe it’s the easiest way out. No, I don’t think running away from problems is going to solve them but I do know that after trying your hardest to solve them with absolutely no solution, running is your only option. And after running and running and running you get tired. I’m tired. Tired of running, tired of fighting, tired of breathing, tired of existing. I just feel like, if I die, everything will be better. I feel like the minute I swallow those pills or that poison or from the moment I jump, everything […]
when you told me you loved me, I believed you. now your nowhere to be found and I’m here falling off the deep end with nobody to catch me. this fall feels never ending, like I’m stuck in time, just floating there in emotions greater than sadness, pain, and loss. I’m trapped with no way out. You, you were suppose to save me, I can’t save myself. but now thats my only option. how can one save themselves when they look in the mirror and see absolutely nothing, I don’t even feel worthless, its greater than that, greater than disappointment. it’s just nothing. that’s when […]
I’ve been close to the edge before, or at least felt it begin to close in on me.. At which point I would try to find some stronghold to pull myself back from. But right now, at this very second, I’m finding it hard to have any reason to stay. There is nothing left for me. There’s too much going on, but at the same time there’s nothing going on. Right now, a way out seems like the only viable option. The only good and reasonable option. The only option, really. I just can’t do it anymore, I simply can’t, and I don’t know if […]
So much has happened since the last time I posted. I haven’t been able to actually log in and write about it, but I thought, “I have to keep on writing and just let it all out, before this pot is ready to explode and suicide becomes the next and only option available.”
I mean suicide is always an option that tries to crawl out of the darkest depths of my mind and there are times that I just let it. I let it consume me and my thoughts because that’s easier than having to deal with reality. But then there are times that I’m just […]
I’m trans, asexual, panromantic, and dead tired. I’ve been diagnosed with depression a year ago, when I cut myself too deep, and my parents found out. I didn’t want them to find out. I wasn’t trying to get their attention. It was my private thing, my personal haven, and I wanted it to stay that way. But I was careless, had to get some stitches, and I was outed as not-actually-alright.
I feel absurdly tired allthe time. I basically stopped leaving my house since I finished school. I don’t have the energy to do anything at all. There’s nothing that I’d like to be doing pretty […]
a lot of the time I don’t even know why I’m feeling the way I do…is it my past?
i can just wake up and just feel like I want to die…I don’t want to get out of bed I stay in the dark no tv or anything and turn my phone off….
some days r good tho and I can laugh and smile then it’s back to this dark place….
i don’t like living like this I want to escape it and the only option seems to be suicide….
i don’t see any other way.
I don’t know how or why I even decided I wanted to commit suicide. I have an amazing and loving family, a group of beautiful friends, and amazing health. Yet, despite all this, I have decided that suicide is the right way to turn. Yeah, I’ve had problems with anxiety for the past 5 years, and I lost my best friend to his slut girlfriend, but this shouldn’t be my only option.
It’s been two years since my husband asked for a divorce and I tried to kill myself. He was engaged to another woman before the divorce was final. Sometimes it hits me hard that he left me. My kids tell me that I can talk to them any time but when I try they don’t want to hear it. I hate being alone. I feel I’m in limbo and just existing. Sometimes killing myself seems like the only option. I am so tired. Tired of the loneliness, the worrying about everything, the having nothing. I live in my sisters extra room. I have nothing of […]
I have been feeling this way for a long time now. I really don’t know why though, I wish i did. I feel like dying is the only option for me. But I can’t because my Mom needs me. I have tons of scars that I wish I could hide but I can’t since its the summer and its really fucking hot. Its hard to feel this way and want to die but you can’t because you know it will hurt the ones you love. *sigh* I really need to think…….
Have you ever felt so shitty that you would do anything to be able to leave?
I can’t be the only one. If someone pointed a gun at my face and asked if I wanted to die I wouldn’t even hesitate. I feel like disappearing I hate breathing honestly. I’ll be gone soon. Very soon. It’s the only option.
I am so sorry. I know I should not have done it, but I couldn’t live like this anymore. It’s nothing anybody did. It’s all my fault. I love you guys, I love everyone in my life, but the pain I’ve been going through is just to much and I can’t picture myself ever getting better or happy again. Thank you for everything you have done. It really did stick and it did mean something. I just can’t continue on living the way I was feeling. I love you all so much and I am so sorry, I really am. I have to do this, It’s […]
Ive always felt like shit, always felt hated and ive always craved attention and i hate myself so bad for it.
Ive been bullied for years and havent told anyone. My brother felt the same way and he told me about it, instead of our parents, he then told our parents. They stopped him from going outside for weeks and they hired so many people to keep him from it, it was that way for 7 months then he got out and commited suicide. He was the only person to ever talk with me and he meant more to me than anyone else. I’ve never told […]
I will be 50 not long from now. I have lived an outwardly full and rich life. People look up to me apparently and i am somehow respected. The truth is i have drifted through life with much luck and relative ease. I have been loved many times but have never loved until recently. And my immaturity in that caused it to fail anyway. The bottom line is that i see little point in going on. This world and this life just has no relevance to me, it is pointless. A few weeks ago I made an attempt to end it by downing a bunch […]
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