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pain free

Why Do We Hesitate?

by Suicidal Angel 2/2/2016

written by Suicidal Angel

Why is it that we hesitate about taking that final step?
I myself have the perfect, easy, pain free solution available right now,
but I cannot discuss what that is due to this forums rules.

Anyway my point is I still hesitate to take that final step and I’m not sure why.
I got really close once and had this feeling of peace and happiness until someone else stopped me so I know I’m not scared.

Am I waiting & wishing that life will improve?

No I’m not because I can’t think of anything that would make me happier than to not have to do this thing called […]

2/2/2016 20 comments

leaving soon.

by ready_2_die 11/27/2015

written by ready_2_die

I’ve decided Monday is the day. As soon as my son goes to school, I will leave to die. I was going to use pills, but, decided on a gun instead. I keep putting it off, because I think things will get better, but they don’t. I’m at peace knowing that I will be pain free in a few days. It’s nice to know that people will be relieved when I go. I won’t be a burden or annoyance anymore.

11/27/2015 8 comments

Random why questions pt 2….the even better one!

by wndozh8er 8/25/2015

written by wndozh8er

Why do Many people think that everything that is said over the Internet is true and buy into scams and rumors without investigating further?

Why did “human rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when a fully veiled Muslim woman had to remove her religious attire in order to get her drivers license? If someone wants to stand up for people who are really getting there rights stomped on – than stand up for people’s rights to get quality health care, a living wage, the right to choose, etc.

Why did “civil rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when American Jihadist Anwar Al Awlaki, who […]

8/25/2015 15 comments

Death doesn’t matter

by nomore 7/5/2015

written by nomore

I have suffered with depression and suicidal feelings for as long as I can remember, but something has always held me back when it comes to ending my life.

I have made several attempts, but have failed so far.

I can’t be bothered to write about what has happened to me, because I have tried every form of therapy there is and it doesn’t work and I have never really felt any other way.

I’m just fed up with the lack of understanding, the patronising advice given by therapists and family and the accusations of self-pity or attention seeking with regards to suicide.

I don’t feel sorry for myself, […]

7/5/2015 1 comment

feeling worthless

by steve 6/16/2015

written by steve

im feeling really crap. small, petty comments upset me yesterday and now I have become self aware of a suicide method that has been at my disposal for the last 13 years. pain free too, I am a bit bothered by the fact that the medicine that keeps me alive can also take it away. I hope to not get into a position where I even think of using it. I need some sort of help to keep my mind busy. sitting in this stupid house gets my mind wandering

6/16/2015 3 comments

Recently permanently disabled from suicide attempt

by sagishi 5/15/2015

written by sagishi

I’m so devastated. Every day is just sadness. I live in constant terrible regret. Because I was a coward and couldn’t kill myself the guranteed ways, i live in constant physical pain. I can’t walk and run, my right leg is paralysed and left is nerve damaged. I used to love running. Even though I have always hated myself and suffered from depression, i trained and had a body to be envied. Now, its like ive woken up inside a nightmare, life doesn’t even feel real. Im just so sad. And it’s all my fault. No one else, just me. Suffering. Seeing doctors, specialists but […]

5/15/2015 4 comments

sucks balls

by schizophrenia 222 10/11/2014

written by schizophrenia 222

Fuck depression sucks big time, the only time I’m not depressed is when I’m drunk or asleep.

Take me to a better place lord I want out from my illness. Doing it as soon as I save up for an older style car. The pain free way until then, living out this rotten existence is the only way.

I can’t even get a job no motivation and when I did all I had was an increase in voices through the radio. Thought I was tough living as a schizophrenic but I’m not can barely function and all I want is alcohol and tobacco to make me feel […]

10/11/2014 6 comments

The worst of days

by nozmoking 9/17/2014

written by nozmoking

Wednesday – my official day off. My daughter works at the same office so I dragged myself out of bed and drove her to work. I would usually stop for a bite to eat on the way home but I’ve felt like puking for three days so I just went home, back to bed and waited for the sun to make my room too hot to tolerate again.

I ran out of pain meds days early so the “rationing” has me fighting withdrawal again. I don’t see the quacktitioner until Friday and the HMO I have wants all their patients off pain meds so thy don’t […]

9/17/2014 2 comments

I think I’m ready

by johnnyg 9/16/2014

written by johnnyg

Sitting here now writing strangers in the same boat feels a little odd to me. I was not intending to be here, but want to put it out there now that I am. I’m 42, dealing with chronic neck and back pain for the last 10 years. Co-pay after Co-pay it never gets better unless I’m drugged. Drugs are turning me into mush and procedures fail to elevate the pain. I’ve been thinking about this for some time, I feel at peace with my decisions. I’m getting closer to a reality that has been a spark growing for some time. I’m ready and […]

9/16/2014 1 comment