Kinda pathetic having this realization from an anime of all things but it actually spoke to me better than most people can. Anyways its this show called Watamote and it just had its final episode. Its about social anxiety ,loneliness, generally just things that I could relate these past few years (frustration from trying to make friends, no love life, no sense of fulfillment) which is the reason I started watching it and basically it ended on the note that after all she did nothing has changed and shes still lonely but the thing is she just laughs it off and says “it doesnt matter […]
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Pathetic Loser
well now there is more drama in my pathetic loser life. we have to come up with a rather large chunk of change by next monday-tax day! and it is basically my fault. silly me i didn’t think the feds could possibly want more from my paltry income. boy was i wrong!! i will never hear the end of that. and then my husband’s drinking buddy wants to do an “intervention” with him this weekend about his drinking. won’t that just be a barrel of laughs? it means nothing when the nagging wife complains . maybe it will mean something when a friend says something. […]
AT THE TIME I FELT:
1. I’m an incompetent and pathetic loser who has ruined his life and will never change because of his own laziness
2. I don’t give a fuck about other people or what they may think or feel , not even those who love and care for me. All I care about is satisfying my own sense of personal justice.
3. All I can think about is how much I hate myself and my existence. The ultimate self-punishment is suicide. These thoughts are driving me nuts and will continue unless I decisively end it NOW.
MY TIMELYÂ EPIPHANIES:
1. I CHOOSE to judge myself the way i […]
When I go to school, out of the corner of my eye I can see them pointing and laughing. When I walk through the halls, I can hear the whispers. Do they think I can’t hear them? Do they think, I am really that stupid to not see through their lies? I am not their friend, I never will be. To them, I will always be a “whore”. “Pathetic”. “Loser”. Ever since what happened on Wednesday. I ignored them. A couple minutes ago, one of my closest friends video called me to call me a whore. “YOU’RE A WHORE. YOU SHOULD GO DIE.” he said. […]
I’ve never posted here before… and aside from a few people I don’t talk about this, but I just don’t know if I can keep going on.
I feel miserable all the time. I feel like a pathetic loser. I spend so much of my time pretending to be fine that I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I wonder if I deserve to feel like this. is there something intrinsically bad about me? Am I a terrible person?
There’s nothing objectively wrong about my life. 2/3 of the world is worse off than me, so I wonder “what right do I have to feel like this?” […]
I cried for the first time in almost 10 years. It was only like 2 or 3 drops, but for someone like me who thought his tear ducts dried out years ago, it was a real relief. I have been contemplating suicide for years now. But only recently have i reached my breaking point. I have no real friends, only acquaintances. Im a 20 year old virgin, who only had one girlfriend, but i never met her in person. Had my heart broken more times then i can count. I learn the hard way that nice guys finish last, because im hopelessly to nice for […]