The pain is getting worse. The pain is getting longer. The pain is getting more frequent.
Maybe I should keep quiet about it. A silent suicide.
Yeah. I won’t talk about it anymore. If I die, then so be it. It’ll be all natural, won’t it.
Stay calm. Patience. Just be patient. Just wait. Let it be natural. All in all, it’ll be a better memory for those who remember.
Be patient.
Please I ask of thee, but listen to me and tell me ,if Iam mad. Life around us is in toil and pain ,sleep is short. Leaving me alone, to pounder the ifs and what’s ,where and why. when is my mine ever  going to see peace in my waking day . Was I born this way? to walk amuck the stranger an imperfect human. Mocking my way, and wondering. who is that strange person.  Nor do I look and ask the same, from my point of view. Long Days and Nights have past.  has it gone ,what is it that I am supposed to […]
I can’t stand anything anymore. I’m so bitter about everything. i hate my job, my friends are awful, I am stuck in a town that I have lived in my whole life, i didn’t bother applying for any colleges because my grades always sucked and now I’m stuck going to a stupid community college and I don’t want to go to college right now. I am not mentally stable enough to pass any courses and I have to pay out of pocket because I don’t qualify for any financial aid. But I have to go or else I have to pay my parents rent because […]
I was born into this world because they wanted me.
They dont need me anymore.
really angry and irritable for some reason. maybe it’s the heat. i am lonely yet i want to be alone. i am tired of talking. tired of being me. i have little patience for social niceties. i guess you would call that isolating myself. i am pretty good at that. i find myself lost in my head a lot these days. losing time. not paying attention to the here and now. seems like i am fading away. almost have myself convinced that my demise wouldn’t be a big deal. i wouldn’t be missed by too many people. there seems to be more times where i […]
so im sick of this…. my drunk 15 year old sister is now bullying me to. she was my last true friend….. imma take all my sleeping pills tonight and all the pain pills i can find. i am srry i cant go one in this pain. imma just end it. i love you world i just wish u loved me back…. 
Im so confused beyond belief..
I dont Know how to feel about this situation..sad?angry?hurt?
I feel like i dont want to talk to anyone not even go to school..
I don’t want to face anyone without you telling me what is wrong..
you were the person i looked forward to seeing..
I messaged you..you dont answer..
you’ve been gone for ages,and im worried..
you see the messages but you dont reply..
I want to know if you’re okay..why you’ve been missing school..
I dont know if you have the same feelings i do for you..but others are telling me you do..
but how can i know when your gone..when you have seemed to disappear..
I guess […]
Yes, that’s what my mother struggled to rub in me yesterday. All because I left my university without her goddamn permission in the midterm. I found a job, she wouldn’t let me work. She claims that I’m living in a kind of faitytale. She wants me to study, study, study… I’m so sick of it. I’m in for a fuckload of problems now. She is running out of money. I am running out of patience. Having to wait for another half-year to be able to work in the summer and pick up the fucking money I need to buy a gun. If I make a […]
I wrote an essay on how to be happy and remain in that state of mind no matter the situations in your life. It basically focuses in changing your mental process. i believe that if we learn how to control our thoughts, we can control our emotions and actions. For example, if you catch yourself having bad thoughts, learn how to replace them by good thoughts. Its a long process but it can help you if you put effort into it and continue to practice it with patience and belief. Some of us have gone through the worst things in life, in fact, depression and […]
More and more I think that “If I die young” has a lot of truth behind it.
Why doesn’t anyone listen when we’re still here to voice our opinions? Because it’s “all in your head”, “you just need to cheer up” and “focus on the happy things in life” OH why didn’t I think of that -_-. On the other hand, if I were to go back to those same people with a physical disgnosis like cancer or even a broken bone…. I’d get a lot more sympathy and a lot more support. How is this alright? The millions of people with mental illness have […]
I was watching this movie called My S.O. Has Got Depression about a Man who gets depression and struggles to deal with it and how it affects his relationship with his wife. What I liked about this movie was how it well it depicted depression but for me what really made it hit home was Tsure’s (main  character) feelings of uselessness and how some of the people around him wouldn’t understand his depression and would approach him with a “you need to toughen up” approach to things. After watching the movie I read an interview about Tenten Hosokawa the author who wrote the book that […]
well i know my friends okay. physically. and for now. the next few weeks will be really hard.. but hopefully we will all get through it.. but now i only have to worry about how she handles everything, and what she does day to day.. i will have to be patient and make sure that she knows im here..
My boyfriend and i are together for the last 4 years(long distance relationship),very very happy,but 6 months back he told me he will not marry me,since then i feel very insecure and immensely fear losing him.Even though i’ve always been sure he loves me a lot,out of frustration i’ve been yelling things i shouldn’t have and hurt him,hes been very forgiving all this time but last night he said he couldn’t bear it anymore and told me not the contact him in anyway.I can’t control myself what do i do?I really never wanted to hurt him,but hes the only one i feel i own,which i […]
I suppose I am doing this correctly.. I am new here after all.
My story?
It’s a little bit too long for a post that I have the patience to make right now, so let me just sum it up so you all can get a general idea of where I am coming from.
My family: I have a mom, who can be psychotic at times but a lot of moms are. I look at her more as a person rather than my mom. Sure, she might get involved in my life attempting to be my parent but for the most part she is just […]
Hi all i’m new.
I just want to have a little rant about a psychological term known as projection and if anyone has to unfortunately spend time around anyone who does this.
I have a pretend friend that i have known for around 15 years, he used to be a great lad however, he changed in character very suddenly and started to become more secretive with his thoughts.
Before this happened he would always have his worries about fitting in in some way or another it seemed like he just didn’t know who to be….identity crisis maybe.
Anyways, mentions of always feeling like he was the back of the […]
ok so i thought i just put everything bout my family in one post.
My dad: drug addict. been high for bout 30 years, off pain killers from his multiple surgeries. when he has been off i can tell cuz he is nice i know when he is taking them cuz his patience is screwed over and he is a dick. he has depression also.
My mom: is an assumer she will never listen to me i will be in the middle of a sentence and she automatically thinks the worst case scenerio. causing ***** fight after ***** fight. when she is stressed she turns […]
It has stopped.  The agonizing cries have ceased.  No longer will I see shadows chasing my footsteps.  I have materialized once again to bathe myself in a world of love.  I see smiles and happiness all around me.  I am beyond thrilled to feel a touch or witness a smile guided in my direction.  I am a victim no more.  The sun shines on my face.  I moisten my lips and wait for it’s beauty to bestow it’s essence upon me.
Yet, Â I cannot feel it’s grace. Â It does not come. Â The faces start to blur and laughter no longer blesses my ears with it’s sound.
The dullness […]
I am slipping, slipping fast and hard. For a day I couldn’t feel the pain anymore, instead I felt numb, nothing, dead inside, which is actually worse. So both kids are out today, I am on my own, broke open a cheap bottle of wine and got drunk just enough so I can feel again. Trying to loose my inhibitions so I might just on an impulse do what I need to do, but I still know that my moral compass is stubbornly strong so I won’t. Crying. I want to die more than anything else. Still, it can’t happen. Really loosing the plot today. […]
I wrote that on my arm last time I was on a psych ward, and then was about to take my life when the girl with learning disabilities across the hall from me came and knocked on my door wanting me to do her nails. She had been through so much and we were friends, she really didn’t deserve to have to watch me be brought out in a body bag which would have happened right outside her room. So I held on for a while and now I feel the same hopelessness again, the same desperation I just wish there was a way to […]
Who is this quiet girl?
The one with the scars
What makes her so deplorable?
Why is she so marred?
Why don’t you ask her?
“What is your life story?â€
Are you afraid to stir
A pot already overflowing?
Do you know sometimes
That’s all she needs?
A kind caring stranger
To let her feel seen
But you stay away
You never seem to think
About her or the fray
She keeps underneath
Why do you ignore
Her transparent mask?
Can you not see
She wants you to ask?
But you are repulsed
With no obvious cause
Why are you appalled
By someone so small?
Is it this aura of death […]
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