I’ve been going through the motions for a few years, now. Living on autopilot, mostly. I occasionally do something nice for myself; traveling to China and Europe and getting a new car and cool new toys. Sometimes that makes me forget. Sometimes it makes me question my decision. It always fades, though, and the reality always returns to embrace me and remind me why. I always smile and accept, too; death is a light at the end of my tunnel. I look forward to it, but it is something I cannot allow myself to have just yet; I am still needed. There is someone very […]
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Physical Attraction
Im in love with a girl. She’s gorgeous, funny, and just fun as shit to be around. I love her more than ive ever let her on to know. I love her beyond just a physical attraction. I want nothing but happiness and good things for her, even if im not the one to bring those things to her. I want to die, i really do…. But im just not sure how it will affect her. Im sure she’ll be fine. Im probably just a footnote in her life anyway. Just a nice guy that she liked for a little while and then moved […]