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Dear Meursault…

by OddOneOut 6/3/2013

written by OddOneOut

For those who don’t know, Meursault is a character from the famous literary jewel “L’etranger (The Stranger/Outsider), written by Albert Camus, and is pronounced Mur-Sew

The book is famous and controversial because of Meursault’s character (which I won’t explain here; all of you should read the book it’s amazing), which I strongly believe is EXACTLY like how I am becoming right now…
I don’t care anymore. Whether something is ethical or not, what the effects of my actions will be…I feel emotionless (ba-dum, tss), don’t feel pain or happiness, time passes and the only way I know that it does is by the colour of the […]

6/3/2013 6 comments

Happiness is something to strive for.

by HappinessComesAndGoes 4/19/2013

written by HappinessComesAndGoes

This is my story about how i had my heart broken a couple of times. it soon spawned a fear of abandonment in me and made me think i was never good enough. if you wish to hear how i survived my hardship then please read this.

I was born different from other kids. i chose not to give in to the social flow and i Â lived how i felt. i had friends, a pretty good amount. i fell in love many times and had a few relationships. I grew up being who i felt was me. Sometime around the summer of 2012 about early June, […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

Let Me Feel

by AscahIsBroken 4/1/2013

written by AscahIsBroken

Here is the place where I will let myself be terrified
I’m sick of telling you that I’m okay, that I’m fine
It’s getting to the point where I’m starting to hate lying
This time I won’t turn off the panic, I wanna cry
Release, I need to free the monster, free the fear
Even if I have to cut apart the cage
I will destroy this with my rage

I don’t wanna prevent myself from being this way
I don’t wanna tell you that I wanna live today
Because if I were to be honest, I don’t
And I’m scared of what I’ll do to […]

4/1/2013 0 comment

The Actual Process Of Insanity

by AscahIsBroken 3/31/2013

written by AscahIsBroken

Here is the place where I will let myself be terrified
Iâ€™m sick of telling you that Iâ€™m okay, that Iâ€™m fine
Itâ€™s getting to the point where Iâ€™m starting to hate lying
This time I wonâ€™t turn off the panic, I wanna cry
Release, I need to free the monster, free the fear
Even if I have to cut apart the cage
I will destroy this with my rage

I donâ€™t wanna prevent myself from being this way
I donâ€™t wanna tell you that I wanna live today
Because if I were to be honest, I donâ€™t
And Iâ€™m scared of what Iâ€™ll do to […]

3/31/2013 0 comment

Home Away From Home

by Domino Jays 1/23/2013

written by Domino Jays

I can’t believe it.

I’ve survived this long.

I’ve waited all day.

Practicallly gave up on him showing up today. But not even five minutes in of slipping into my bed to sleep, I get a text.

“Hey you,” it says, “Get on.” It’s from a restricted number. I don’t know who it is but I decide to get on anyways. I type in the password to my laptop. The fan is on low and the lights are off. It’s a common bedtime setting for me. Something to listen to so I don’t get paranoid of every little bump in the night. And the blanket to help me dream […]

1/23/2013 2 comments

I can’t relate to anyone

by weirdling 9/30/2012

written by weirdling

I spend my free time in my room playing games and listening to the spirits speak to me.Â They aren’t any kinder than my cruelest bullies, so it isn’t much fun.

I do okay in school in a tough major, but sometimes everything gets to be too much.

I just want to lay my head on the train tracks nearby.Â It seems just as good a choice as any.

9/30/2012 7 comments

I am pathetic…

by Imanidiot 8/24/2012

written by Imanidiot

My life is the worst. Whatever i do i feel sad. And the thing is that im not supposed to! IÂ have a great family, good grades, going to a high school that is the best in town, i have friends,Â people sometimes think imÂ interestingÂ and many people would say that i look just like a regular teenager. But… evenÂ though i have all that im suicidal. The thing is that i can’t find any joy whatsoever in my life. I hate school, i hate every subject, i hate watching TV, i hate playing games, i hate my friends, i hate all people at my school, i hate my […]

8/24/2012 1 comment

I don’t know what I want anymore

by deimos 8/24/2012

written by deimos

At all.Â IÂ hate the person I become when I’m actually achieving something in life (schoolwise, at this point).Â And I hate the person I am when I sit at my computer all day playing games.Â I could totally be a fucking mooch if I wanted.Â Who am I kidding, I’m a fucking mooch right now.Â 24 years old this Sunday and I still live with my parents, who pay pretty much all of my expenses.Â Especially school, which I’ve been in since I was 18.Â Granted, I’m going to a state school and my parents are not poor, but I still feel like shit […]

8/24/2012 1 comment

Nothing to say.

by mudderfker 7/16/2012

written by mudderfker

I guess ill start from the begining… I grew up without a father, for my childhood, I never had fun because I was always forced to do homework from books that you can buy. If I did a problem wrong, I would get hit with a wooden stick on the hands or slapped in the face… I always enjoyed games since I grew attached to it considering my mom was at work. Playing games also were the part of the my life where I would unstress my selfI also never had an actual summer since my mom still forced me to to spend all my […]

7/16/2012 0 comment

Giving up. . .

by erik1421 5/29/2012

written by erik1421

I’m 16 and currently go to high school. My mother tends to nag on me and yell at me a lot since I enjoy spending my free time playing games. She does not enjoy the way I spend my time and calls me the word “addicted” when I do play. She has a boyfriend that I don’t like…because he moves my possessions without notifying me. And when I questioned him about it today he clearly told me he will respect it only for my mothers sake…I mean why can’t he just apologize to me and say he’s sorry? Now for the issue at school…. I […]

5/29/2012 0 comment

Thoughts about life from an emotionless person

by emotionless101010 2/16/2012

written by emotionless101010

So, i found this site and thought: Why not share some of my thoughts here? First i must say, that my english isn’t too good, so boring, repetitive and easy sentences will be written here. Now let’s begin.
First some information about me: I am completely healthy, i have good grades even though i don’t study for it and i don’t have financial problems. However i probably have a Schizoid personality disorder. At least i fit exactly to all descriptions you can find about it. Also i am very bad at sports, only moving a bit exhausts me, i can’t walk for a long time […]

2/16/2012 1 comment

Loneliness and Depression

by Le Joe 2/13/2012

written by Le Joe

My name is Joe, I live in England and I am training to be a hairdresser. I started my training two months ago, I am 19 years old.

I’ll be honest with you my life so far has not been easy, like the majority of people in this world I’ve faced issues and encountered problems which has hurt me, which is fine bad things happen. I was bullied at school, people made fun of my physicalÂ appearanceÂ a lot, and I didn’t fit in with the popular crowd. I hanged out with the more geeky group, and didn’t mind it, I got on well, but as time went […]

2/13/2012 4 comments