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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

the guilt of a victim

by system 3/5/2021

written by system

i am left with unbearable shame after what he did to me. i dwell on what i “could have done differently” and go into a spiral of self blame and hatred. it’s my fault. it’s my fault. it’s my fault. when truly, no, it wasn’t. he had every opportunity to not be an abusive, sadistic, conscienceless monster. he chose to continue. he chose to blackmail me. he chose to abuse me. he chose to force me to mutilate myself. i did not choose to be abused. i did not choose to be stripped of my dignity. i did not choose to become a puppet.

I WAS […]

3/5/2021 3 comments

In need of help :’- |

by Urm8451n 2/22/2018

written by Urm8451n

It is striking me hard. I’m trying to hold on.

Why couldn’t I tell her what I wanted?

Why couldn’t I get mad at him for kissing my ex? Why didn’t I succeed at saying what I need and feel when I went through all those horrors.

This place is bad for me. it brings up the memories. I remember why I quit going with those friends. This f.. more like fuckers.

I’m….Im broken. I’m broken hearted, broken minded. I’m missing all the good things at life.

What will be the point at succeeding if I’ll end up friendless? If I’ll end up alone. If I’ll fail to […]

2/22/2018 1 comment

Fucked Over by Public Schools

by kloudkat 4/13/2017

written by kloudkat

I’m eighteen, I’m a senior in high school, and I’ve attended four different high schools, one for each year essentially. I’ve suffered from depression since I was eleven (due to childhood abuse), and during the beginning of my sophomore year, I suffered from my first severe flash back starting my downward spiral of PTSD and Major Depressive Disorder. During the fourteenth week of school that year, I was admitted into a private mental health facility for inpatient treatment. I was there for eight days, and right afterwards, I attended iOP which is intensive outpatient; it lasted for six weeks. So I was gone from school […]

4/13/2017 3 comments

So Close

by SaneDog 7/19/2013

written by SaneDog

I’ve been pretty unlucky in life. When I was a child I was raped. Then my sister and father left me and my mother. She started crying and drinking all the time and saying/doing fucked up stuff (like trying to stab me). A bunch of other stuff happened with religion and drugs and stuff that fucked me even more. Eventually I ended up with psychological problems including social anxiety, psychogenic pain and schizophrenia. In college I found a therapy that was very effective at treating these problems: schema therapy. It involved going back to childhood and fixing the problems at the source. As part of […]

7/19/2013 4 comments

Here we go

by michinyo 4/16/2013

written by michinyo

Okay, this will be long winded. I’m sorry.

I’m 22 years old. For the past ten years, I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety. I’ve been officially diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety, severe social anxiety and borderline post traumatic stress disorder.

I’ve been through a lot in my life, but I’ll make it short. As a kid, my mom was a pot head and she slept all day while my dad worked two jobs, only seeing him for about 15 minutes a day. Thus, I was left alone a lot as a kid with my brother. My parents eventually split up and my siblings and I […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

One year today.

by shewithnoname 7/30/2012

written by shewithnoname

So today is the 30.07.12, and today I have given myself one year too think it over, to plan it and too decide if Â it’s truly what I want.
My boyfriend, he left me today. He has no answer, he won’t even talk too me. Fact is I was very reliant on him.
I just can’t cope, and I can’t live like this. So one year today I will decided whether to kill myself or not.

As a child, I wasÂ sexuallyÂ abused Â by three girls, and one guy. I was physically and mentally abused by my sister. I was tormented and at age 11 I started too […]

7/30/2012 4 comments

Jaded

by TWonline 7/28/2009

written by TWonline

I never thought things would come to this… but here I am, writing.

At age 25 I found out that I had to have urgent open heart surgery to replace my aortic valve. I was in 60% heart failure without even knowing it and could have died at any time. I had the procedure done, and am alive and kicking… though I opted for a tissue valve (so I could enjoy a higher quality of life) and was told that it would only last roughly ten years. It is now three years later, I just turned 28, and post-traumatic stress disorder finally kicked in. I moved […]

7/28/2009 2 comments

my story

by whhorvat 4/28/2009

written by whhorvat

Throughtout my life I have faced many chalenges. A year ago on this Friday, May 1, I was raped by my best friend. I talked to my mom’s ex-boyfriend about it and he seemed very compassionate and willing to help me with my recent misfortune. I trusted him greatly, so I decided to spend 2 weeks at his house, which is in fact 6 hours away from my house. Needless to say, he raped me more than once in my sleep. Both of these terrible experiences have led me to extreme depression and post traumatic stress disorder. I never thought I would ever become suicidal, […]

4/28/2009 5 comments