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Preparing to Leave

by ExitProject 6/20/2015

written by ExitProject

Yesterday I decided to make a list of all the reasons why I need to “Leave.” Within minutes, I’d come up with 18. I could have kept going all day. The list has since continued to expand.

I’ve considered suicide before, but I now have firm plans to make my “Exit” in just a few weeks’ time. Despite having spent the past 25 years in therapy, I haven’t been at all successful in changing my unhealthy patterns; no matter how conscious I am of my issues or how carefully I make decisions, I always end up in crap situations and attracting people who are more broken […]

6/20/2015 2 comments

A Little Release

by kissofdeath10 11/30/2014

written by kissofdeath10

So, someone wrote a post about “Window Shopping” the other day, and it got me thinking. I had this track I recorded lying around and decided to speak some words to it. Thanks for the inspiration! It’s a rough cut, but it helped me through the moment.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/Window-Shopping.m4a

I am supposed to choose something

Anything, just not nothing

But I prefer the window-shopping

I get too overwhelmed by the options

It isn’t just tradeoffs, or give and take

There is so much more at stake

Pick what you want, but it might break

Then pay in time and tears for your fate

Imagine it’s a bomb that I’m meant to defuse

And I have to […]

11/30/2014 1 comment

danger ahead

by passionfruit3 9/3/2012

written by passionfruit3

I wonder if i could hire a hitman.Its not a plan or anything like that just curious.My friend has tried to kill herself recently and ive determined after therapy she wont be the same shell eventually be healthy with time.Im not upset about this its good that shell get the help.But i wont be of need anymore. my family will be able to pay bills and possibly move into a better home.I myself do not neccesarily want to die but i sense danger ahead that will destroy my sanity either way.I must escape.And no one will save me cause they never had any interest in […]

9/3/2012 0 comment