My life is like a roller coaster, it has it’s ups and downs, parts were I scream and parts were I feel safe. But if it’s one thing I learn I’m the maker of that roller coaster, I chose what happens good or bad. So I can’t really blame people for my mistakes. I’m the maker of what goes on in my life. If I want things to go right I must go up my roller coaster instead of down. I have to change how my roller coaster is, I can’t have it going down no more. I have to be a new […]
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My life is a thrill ride, I swear. Three weeks ago, I had friends checking in on me to see if I had killed myself, yet…A week ago, I was on top of the world. I was feeling great. I had no worries and didn’t even feel the back twinge of depression. Now, I’m back down. This time, I feel like I was tossed off a skyscraper and the impact is forever engraved into my bones. I am back to not feeling any type of emotion except apathy and sadness. I am at a loss and I don’t know if I can crawl out of […]
Im on this roller coaster and I don’t remember buying a ticket. The last 2 days have been exhausting. Â I’ve been getting very low then thinking wait it’s okay maybe, then down again. I literally just ended up sitting on the floor hugging my knees and crying..
ps, i DO try, because I think I read on here yesterday about people not trying and it really pissed me off because what one person sees as someone not trying might be that person trying very hard. well, that is a very confusing sentence but you know what I mean. Â But I better just calm down or I’ll […]
Hi, my name is Shannon and I am “to far out to find my way back” as I like to say. I have excepted the fact that I may never get better but I never expected to get this bad. Depression is like a roller coaster with up and downs that change so fast that outside life becomes a blur. In short I’m so lost in my own world that I may never find my way out. This scares me more than anything else because my world is like a horror film, full of death and destruction. The one thing that scares me the most […]
Hey guys! I’ve noticed a lot of negative energy surpassing my computer screen and mingling with my mind reading your life stories. I honestly think that it’s time we change our ways or at least attempt to make our lives brighter. Many of us are young and struggling with the convoluted ways of life while others are a bit older, wondering how you made it this far. Many of us don’t know what to do with life; you’re simply stuck. Many of us were/are sexually, mentally, verbally and physically abused. Many of us feel  like life is nothing but a tragedy. (Trust me, I’ve been everywhere you have).  However, if we […]
It’s 4 am can’t sleep , haunted by my past unable to let it go . Keep thinking that there is only one way to make everything go away . Deep down inside I tell myself to just survive the night , it will get better tomorrow . But the thoughts keep flooding my mind , the old friends that I pushed out my life , the family members that I never talk to . Telling myself that if I let no one love me , or get close to me then it wouldn’t be like I’m hurting anyone but myself .
But […]
So I have been feeling depressed for a while now. I wouldn’t really say its constant, my emotions are a bit of a roller coaster.see, I feel like I’m gods mistake, and that I have to put his “mistake” right by killing myself. The worst part is that I know I’m just being too much of a dramatic ******, but I can’t help it. I have recently moved schools, leaving all my best friends, and now I’m growing apart from them. Not only that, but everyone at my new school thinks I’m gay. Even my “friends” admit that they think I’m gay. My mum gave […]
Oh my lovely alcohol, oh how you do please me
Fill my heart with sadness, and electrifying glee.
A sweet yet bitter liquid, that seeps into my veins
You dull my mind, you free my spirit, and take away the chains.
Sloshing in your frigid flask, you ask and tease for more
With jest and greed I indulge thee, and pass out on the floor.
No memory of prior things, convulsing laughs and tears
Ups and downs, a roller-coaster, yearning for more beer.
Dancing jigs to country music, strange and quite erratic
Thank god nobody’s watching, it must be quite traumatic.
Spread out on the cold concrete, bottle in one […]
Life…
This four letter word that we are still wondering, debating, and living each day. As easy it was given, it can be extinguished. Life is always compared to some sort of object, for example, something as simple as a box of chocolates ‘you never know what you’re going to get’. Or even something as exhilarating as a roller coaster, it has its ‘ups and downs’. i believe that the reason why we come up with such simple analogies is because nearly everyone has experienced something as simplistic as that. But what about something more complex?
For instance, a car crashing and burning. One moment, you’re sailing […]
Hi usually I visit here when I am preparing myself to get of this roller coaster joke called life.
I have had a few good rants and read others rants and sad stories.
I have succeeded in alienating my self from all my friends and most of my family . As was planned so I could just slip away.
I have problems with who I am. As I am gay oriented (maybe bi ) male brought up in a gay hateful environment I have grown up to be very homophobic myself. How this relates to me Is I hate myself for being gay. While I […]
I’m fine again. A few weeks ago I was about to kill myself but right now I want to jump from a bridge just for fun and feel the adrenalin, I know I’m crazy but this is my high and as long it gets, as hard the down will be.
I hate this thing on my life that I can’t never be happy for a while, if I get some hapiness then something bad happens and it’s taken away from me. Right now I have a crush on this beautiful girl (I’m bisexual) so all I want is speak to her and spend time around but […]
In my adolescent years, I never thought I would make it to 18. Feeling so alone, coming out of the closet at 12, no one to love, to be loved by, to share our love through sex…
I have way to make myself feel better, and they’re pretty foolproof. But as we all know, it gets hard every now and then… That’s when I can pull through the tough times and make it all feel better! But it’s that pulling through that’s the hard part. And what if I do pull through?? What, do all the happy work just to end up in my own hell […]
I have this feeling. It starts in the back of my throat and goes down to my stomach. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is, but I guess I can relate it to the feeling you get on a roller coaster. Not the one you get when you begin to plummet, but the one right before that. The feeling you get at the top of the hill when you start to hear the chains slowly go down and you begin to wonder why the hell you got on the ride in the first place. By then, though, it’s too late to get off and so […]
It feels like I’m living on a roller coaster and I keep getting stuck at the bottom. The past year has been the worst if my life. My parents almost splitting up, my boyfriend attempting suicide, my dad threatening suicide, one of my old friends taking her own life and me being blamed for it. There is no comparison for that type of pain, that agony. I didn’t cause this I had to tell myself just to drag myself out of bed in the morning. People I thought were friends turned their back on me. It hurt. Then another person close to me takes his […]