I have been battling depression since I was 12. In the beginning, people dismissed it easily. My parents thought I was just a “moody teenager”. I got used to simply distracting myself, locking myself in my room, listening to music, reading books and writing poetry as a release, almost like every other teenager it seemed, so I guess you could not really blame them for not noticing. The main difference between me and most of my peers from school was that I had self-harm thoughts at least since I was 14. When I was 13 I witnessed my cousin’s abuse (mainly emotional but […]
Im 20 years old and I’ve had thoughts of suicide since i was 15 years old. I dont have a long drawn out sad story or history of abuse of any kind. I have a loving family & a boyfriend but i have never felt more alone. I often ask myself “How can you have so much but still feel like you have nothing ” . I have never figured out the answer. Im just so unhappy it almost scares me how many times I’ve actually sat in my bathroom , held pills , razors etc. and almost ended my life. Some part of me […]
I cannot WAIT till im a adult. Then i’ll just be as far as possible from my home and my family. Now before i go on my rant, let me just say no, i dont have a physically abusive family, no are my parents divorced nor are they dead, sick or drug addicts. They just treat me like woman were treated in the 1940’s. No rights. No freedom. They were OBLIGED to stay home and work, things like that. Well that’s how I am treated. I have been occasionally depressed for a while now. (my depressive bouts usually last between hours to a week). Anyway, […]
so here i am on the internet rock bottom so to say… first of i am not from america or england so my english will be bad but i need to get this off my chest …
So where to start? the fact that every day i feel worthless a big fat loser with no future unworthy of love? or that almost every night before i go to bed i think on how where and when i could kill myself? oh and dont worry this isnt a sad story its freaking hilarius so lets start i have a decent life i mean shure i only have […]
Everyday I wake up hoping it is the last day. Well wondering and thinking of ways to end it because I have lost all hope. I don’t know why I feel this way, I have no sad story to tell. I have it all. I am not dumb or really ugly I am Ok at what I do but I am not really good at anything. I am always in the middle I think it makes me more mad that I have no friends. No one bullies me or anything it’s just that I don’t like the people that want to be friends with me […]
I just cant take living with my dad anymore. i thought that by moving with my mom things would get better. but as soon as i think things are blowing over. something els happens. It seems like i jus have nooooo out what so ever. im 15. but i’ve been through so much already. and nooo im not trying to tell you the same”dramatic” sad story. But everytime i get upset the only reasonable out that comes to mind is ending my life. i know that sounds crazy, but i have this thought almost every single day. and they think i want attention & i […]
This is a sad story of a now 26 year old man who was “Left Behind” by everyone. I am sorry, it is a bit long, but I respectfully put it all in one post. If you have these same problems, read this. Especially if you are currently in school.
For those of you who don’t know, I have Depression, Social Anxiety Disorder, and ADD. This story revolves around how I believe that the public schools I went to are responsible for plaguing me with this third disorder – whichÂ doesn’tÂ help the depression one bit.
Way back in grade school (jk-grade6) I was having issues with ADD. So […]
The long, sadÂ story of my self-hate and depression:
I know there’s something wrong with me.. i feel there’s something wrong with me.. there HAS to be something wrong with me. I miss my old self. I miss being normal. I’m just getting more and more pathetic day by day. I can’t really explain what’s happening to me. I try to make sense out of it and i can’t. I’ve heard there’s a period of self-hate during life, but it’s just been getting stronger and stronger. Maybe some people just never grow out of it?
To break it down.. i’m a useless piece of sh_t. I have no […]
My life seems to have fallen apart.
The First thing that happened was my mum leaving my dad , yeahÂ alrightÂ parents break up all around but my mum left me with my dad and my three brothers.My life was never gonna be the same.
The Second thing that happened was disgusting I was still 8 and my oldest Â brother was 15 . One day I asked if I could play some songs on his keyboard and he turned round and asked me to kiss him and he’d allow it, so I did ’causeÂ IÂ had to practice this song for my lesson. Then after that it happened more and more […]
Okay so everyone always wants to know what my problem is, why I feel this way or why I seem totally unable to make things better. But for fucks sake they donâ€™t know me, or my history, so they’re in no position to judge! The fact is if they did, theyâ€™d probably understand why I want to die as badly as I do. And trust me it’s such a long, sordid and sad story that half the time I wouldnâ€™t even know where to start or how to explain.Â Sometimes I look at the way my life has turned out and it makes me fume with […]