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Self Doubt

Chronically Lost and Confused

by wishful thinking 4/25/2013

written by wishful thinking

I, like most people here, am looking for answers that we all know don’t exist. Â Despite that we all continue, we push on with blind faith, hoping, wishing, praying that the answers will just suddenly appear before us. Â But I have lost my faith and hope and my wishes and prayers go without response.

I am now 45, and I have been struggling with depression ever since I was 17. Â It has been a long and exhausting trip. Â It has caused me to lose all of my friends, resulted in me being hospitalized for a total of 3 months between high school and college. Â Â And […]

4/25/2013 5 comments

What am I so afraid of…?

by TarotXIII 1/22/2013

written by TarotXIII

It struck my recently. This rock-bottomÂ self confidence, self hate, doubt, etc. It is fear. Fear of what you ask? That’s what I’m trying to figure out. I’ve never been this serious about something in a long time. I’ve been doing researches, reading and a lot of thinking. The whole Carl Jung theories were eaten whole one night. His theories on our “Shadow” is whatÂ strokeÂ me the most.

Anyways, it seems I am deeply afraid of something. I just can’t find what. I wish I could say it’s aÂ reliefÂ to have pinpointed something, but it’s not. Each time I start something, it just end midway. Fear of failure? Thinking […]

1/22/2013 6 comments

I Deserve Better Finally Kicks In!

by plain jane 12/9/2012

written by plain jane

Strangest thing…. today when I was brushing my teeth it just sunk in. This thought…. I said it aloud then. I DESERVE BETTER! Then I said it again and again. I think I finally believe it. The thing with me is that, sometimes my feel good revelations are short lived. Until someone knocks my pack of cards by a light flick. I can’t say this too will stick. But get it!

Yesterday I googled a camp song I once heard… No body loves me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms…. and so on… It made me laugh, because I was indulging in self-pity. […]

12/9/2012 4 comments

Happiness is a mirage

by MyRequiem311 5/27/2012

written by MyRequiem311

For so many years of my life, I’ve endured the constant feeling of sadness and feeling alone. Every day, progressively worse than the last. Then the day came where I met someone who gave me a breathe of fresh air in my life, and gave me a purpose and reason to live. How great it was to love something more than yourself. She lives 10 hours away, I sold everything I own in this world to go see her, I leave tomorrow.

But why is it I’m so close, but I feel so scared? I feel as though I’ve already lost her, and I haven’t even […]

5/27/2012 0 comment

To Fade Away…

by Shelly 5/11/2011

written by Shelly

For me memories are like ghosts that haunt the perimeters of my conscious mind, often making me feel ill at ease when I donâ€™t even know why. The more upsetting memories are like demons that torment me from the depths of my unconscious mind, bringing up flashes of painful experiences when I’m least prepared for it and my defences are down. Both want to fill me with self doubt and self hatred and sap every ounce of confidence I once might have had, to leave me an utterly shattered and blithering wreck in the shambles that my life has become. And yet the more I […]

5/11/2011 8 comments