I have been a fighter all my life, molested as a child and growing up in extreme poverty in Flint, Bullied constantly and then raped when I was 15. Depression has never been a stranger to me, but I always wondered whether it was circumstantial or a chemical imbalance. I met my boyfriend of 7 years in high school and attended college, I even sought help from a psychiatrist who prescribed me Seroquel and told me I had Bipolar Disorder, the pills made me a zombie for 5 years but for once in my life my insomnia went away. Fast forward to now, my boyfriend […]
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: Some good music (Title Fight), 125 mg of Seroquel, 4 mg of Xanax, 15 mg of Temazepam, 2 shots of vodka, a beer, and a quick masturbation session before I fall asleep watching some lame ass television show or something. Loneliness really is a *****..
Decided not. This site was an amazing find. Thank you, all of you, for being excellent. Tomorrow. Finally. Take my Seroquel, go for a walk along the river, and — oops! — “accidentally” slip and fall in and go through a weak spot in the ice, and I won’t be alert enough to fight it. They won’t get me ’til Spring thaw. And like hell I’m going to the emergency room to be violated again. No thanks.
So long, and thanks for all the fish.
I was prescribed Ativan for my anxiety, but wen I took it, that shit made me feel so horrible I thought I had relapsed back to day one, before admission to the hospital. So tonight since my urges to cut are bad still, and haven’t subsided at all….my mom suggested I take Xanax which has taken the place of Ativan. More then likely gonna zombify me since I took it with my Seroquel….ugh.
Well they put me on Seroquel. My jerk for a psychiatrist…..or should I say nurse practitioner says she’s seen a lot of good results from people on that medicine.
whatever.
I hate the fact how i can do good not being sucidal and staying out of hospitals.Then you make one stupid mistake and it ruins everything.My mistake was being curious and that curiousity led me to find the pills my mom hid away..I now have a bunch of those pills and dont know when i will snap and try to kill myself.I just know i cant help it and it willl happen.I will try to kill myself at some point.Ive only told my best friend she asked if she could tell my parents i threatened to do it sooner if she did.I felt bad about […]
Omg, like I’m mad paranoid. I’m paranoid to even be writing this right now. I feel like everyone is against me. Like my life is the Truman Show. I struggle and misery is my best friend, it’s like after awhile you enjoy the pain. A sort of frenzy begins to happen. I’m just really in a dark place. I feel like music is talking to me and sending me subliminals from my boyfriend. This happened before with someone else I cared for. It’s like I’m getting all these subliminals and signs from everything. I’m always freaking out and no one knows. No one […]
What to say? I came to this site out of desperation so I hope it is authentic. I am a 36 year old female who has experienced depression in cycles for as long as I can remember. Late last year I was given a provisional diagnosis of “Bipolar Type II”. After initially being prescribed Lamotrigine (caused skin rash so stopped) I went cold turkey slowly came off 200mg zoloft. Just recently I have been on fluoxetine for around six weeks and have been advised to take seroquel xr (as of yesterday) After a period of depression and mixed episodes I am now feeling a […]
they prescribed me wellbutrin– an antidepressant, and risperidone, an antipsychotic.
i’m not psychotic. I just have a neurochemistry problem. schizoaffective disorder, maybe– “disorganised thinking comorbid with mood disorder”. i was in the hospital for six days this october, on the behest of my school psychiatrist. oh it was just like “Girl, Interrupted” except I didn’t have the manipulative roommate. I was put on seroquel, then they added abilify. mild numbing and mild despair. oh on the 4th day Dr Bashir actually got to listen to me for 20 mins and I got taken off abilify and was put on wellbutrin. my school psych replaced the seroquel with […]