I am praying that I don’t wake up in the morning. I usually do this each night before I go to bed now. I don’t yet have the courage to end things myself but I keep thinking each day I will get braver. I know why I want to end my life would seem rediculas to many. silly.. but the pain my heart and mind are in is unbearable to me. I do not want to hear it will get better. that I will heal that there is other options or that someone out there cares. or will love me. I can not even begin […]
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Everyone’s annoying and out to get you. Your friends are disrespectful and unappreciative little cunts who don’t give a shit about what you’re going trough (the only reason they ask ,,what’s wrong” is purely curiosity) and the people around you stopped appreciating you a long time ago.Â
You’re an ugly little ***** who no guy will ever date, fuck or marry.
You’re not doing well in school or work ergo you deserve to die because you’re a useless member of this society.Â
By wanting to kill yourself, talking about depression and anxiety, having anger fits and complaining makes you either boring or a scary individual that nobody wants […]
Aite Ive had this random sex encounter with 3 guys by the end of december , but got hsv 2..im gay and that pretty much ruins my sex life.. and they were all healthy, it was me i was shedding and didnt even know i had hsv on my lips! on the last guy.. i really liked.. & started texting him mid january. from that day we kinda started texting everyday. now its like less cause he’s on a trip and is coming back in like 2 weeks. since i thought he would be in town by mid jan i kinda started talking to him […]
Unfortunately, I have returned. Aha. I’m laughing. Why? Because it’s not that I have ‘returned’, I’ve always been here. I’m just in the front right now. Clara has decided to pull out of the frame and I am here once more. Belle.
Now… I’ve managed to get her body a little bit addicted to sex. She’s horny a lot… and well… Clara isn’t one to try and be horny a lot. She doesn’t want to feel anything towards anyone other than her dearly beloved who passed away almost a fucking year ago. I can’t wait for when she realizes how needy she truly is. You would […]
Hello.
There are a few background things you might want to know. Firstly, I’m a clinical psychopath. This doesn’t make me a killer or a psycho, although it is generally a daily struggle to keep from being either. To me, the world is black and white; there exists, for me at least, no shades of gray. My parents have known about my condition and have actually by and large done an excellent job of raising me. I come from a privileged family and have had everything I have needed provided for me, within reason. I’ve worked to secure that which would not be provided, namely the […]
This isn’t really to do with my suicidal thoughts… I don’t know, maybe it is.
But this website seems to be the only place where people “understand” my poetry. My “art”.
This is a poem I wrote about a woman that I was in love with. That I still am in love with. To make a long story short, a couple of months back, she told me that she didn’t love me anymore. Just like that. I honestly believed that we were going to get married. And then she does this.
I can’t blame her, and I know it would be worse if she had […]
It saddens me to see these young kids considering suicide as an option. You have a long time left to live and you’ve got rampant hormones. You need to ride it out and see what the future provides.
Sadly I have seen what the future provided and now that I’m 45, I’m not sure I want to continue. I’m going on my second divorce. I haven’t had a sex life in 20 years. I spent 10 of those years looking for the right woman and 10 of them married to the wrong woman. The prime of my life has passed me by and I got robbed.
The […]