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Lonely

by snader 8/27/2013

written by snader

I have to write this down or let anyone know, it just has to be off my chest.

I feel so goddamn lonely, like nobody really gives two shits about me. I know it’s not true, yet I can never seem to shake the feeling. It just seems like everyone forgets about me, like I’m not important to anyone. My friends are all just moving on so fast and forgetting about me, while I’m still stuck in the pain and grief over my brothers suicide. They don’t understand me but also never seem to try. They’re all leaving me behind and I’m so scared. I have […]

8/27/2013 6 comments

One good reason?

by Forgetable1 5/11/2013

written by Forgetable1

One good reason to live?.. i don’t see one, i just don’t desire life anymore much like anyone who knows the feeling of constantÂ loneliness, it is never ending no matter how hard you try. I’ve been trying to “be happy” for the past few months only because this girl who i could’ve called my best friend was telling me there are reasons to be happy.. Note i am also inlove with her… Or was atleast, i have no idea where that stands but that was the last thing i cared about. Now that its gone? I really couldn’t tell you what i plan do to […]

5/11/2013 1 comment

My suicide plan.

by laughedout 2/17/2013

written by laughedout

Hello, just ranting on about my life.

I am committing suicide soon. I have wanted to commit suicide for a long time (10+ years), but I am at the point now where I know I can kill myself.

The reason I know is that I have been doing things that I would have never done before over the past two or so years. I have forced myself out of my comfort zone, had a ton of experiences I would have never had otherwise, and learnt a lot. One of the things I have learnt is the ability to just DO IT (pls don’t sue).

I said fuck it. […]

2/17/2013 2 comments

No more pain

by tgv1234 2/9/2013

written by tgv1234

I suppose I do it to myself most times. I wish i could blame someone else; that would make it easier. But its all me. My stupidity, my poor decisions, my attitude. I just want it to end. I hate being numb all the time. It feels like the only thing i can feel is anger or sadness. I want to kill myself but i’m just afraid of what might happen if it doesn’t work. I don’t want to feel any more pain. I just want it to be done–quick and clean.

What am i supposed to do? There’s no reason for me to stay. I […]

2/9/2013 2 comments

why do they still haunt me?

by b1urr 1/29/2013

written by b1urr

i don’t really understand why i think about killing myself all the time. the feeling and thoughts don’t even derive from bad memories or events. they’re simply always there.

people tell me all the time to realize that my life isn’t bad, but that’s not the problem, im aware of that.

it’s just, i think i’m the problem. thatÂ IÂ don’t deserve to be here. but what the fuck did i even do wrong?

i try my best to be respectable, i care about people who don’t even give two shits about me, others always come before myself. i try to be good, i think i am pretty decent.

so why […]

1/29/2013 1 comment

What is wrong with me?

by PokeMorgan 1/22/2013

written by PokeMorgan

Hey there,

I’ve been at a low point for many years (and since I’m 17 that’s a lot)

I was heavily bullied, I had suffered home abuse and loss, I self harmed, my grades were dropping drastically. I had a trunk load of self hate, saw no way out.

I attempted on January 2012, I failed, obviously. Though things looked up, the day out of hospital I found a new girlfriend.

5 months later, I ruin things, she can’t deal with my problems. She leaves me after I have a mental breakdown. Weeks later she sleeps with my Friend/Brother. I survive these next few months, barely.

Now 7 months after […]

1/22/2013 2 comments

Honesty ..

by Wednesday 12/22/2012

written by Wednesday

You know, sometimes I honestly believe that no one gives two shits about me. Even the people that say they love me. Most of those people don’t even know me. And you know what I think? I think that no one really cares until you’re gone. When it’s too late to do what you should have. What might have saved someone’s life. And you know, sometimes I consider suicide just to see if someone really did care. And if you did, why did you let me go?

12/22/2012 2 comments

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

by DeathIsTheNextStep 12/4/2012

written by DeathIsTheNextStep

My mother is terrible to me and I have no social life where I am. I am basically raising my younger sister and my mom doesn’t give two shits about me. I want to die, but I don’t want my sister to have post tramatic stress disorder. I want to die so bad. I hate everything. It has come to the point where sometime I haven’t eaten for weeks at a time. I need death. I would indulge myself with death before someone could care.

12/4/2012 1 comment

by Beliel 11/16/2012

written by Beliel

Hello, Â I’m new. Â I dont hate life or any bullshit. My childhood wasnt bad(or as bad as it could have been) and my family Â has the sames money struggles as I think most do, but Â I am just a useless piece of Â SHIT. Â I say I’ll do it, make you believe you can rely on me and thenÂ screwÂ you the fuck over. I’m worse then the wateriest of shits. ty.

11/16/2012 2 comments

Split second

by dissappear 10/23/2012

written by dissappear

Why I must I fuck up in the tiniest way, and lose friends over it? I just don’t understand why people can’t take jokes. In the end I end up all alone anyway, so whats the fucking point of existing when no one wants me included in their life? Â And then when i’m finally excepted, I fuck it up? And because they have more friends, they dont give 2 shits about Â what happens because they have a back up plan. But me? I may have about 1 friend, and I’ve just lost them, over some stupid tripping incident which narrows it down to I AM […]

10/23/2012 2 comments

Can’t take any more

by ohaiikatie 8/18/2012

written by ohaiikatie

Words can’t describe how much pain I’m in. I love him so much and he couldn’t give two shits about me. He had said he loved me and cared about me and than started acting like I don’t exist. I don’t know what to do. This hurts so bad. I really can’t live without him. He’s all I think about. We broke up in April and ever since than I’ve been going through the worst bout of depression I’ve ever experienced. I really cant take this anymore. I met an awesome guy who wants to take me out, but I’m not going to give him […]

8/18/2012 2 comments

No Matter

by ApatheticShadow 8/9/2012

written by ApatheticShadow

It’s no matter. Everything, nothing. Please somehow show me how to change myself, to make things better – because so far my efforts are merely in vain. My own mind teases me – “Oh hey, you’re good, you’re great, things are going to work now!”. Give it a few days, if that, back to: “Fuck!! I hate myself! I hate all this shit! I could give TWO FUCKING SHITS about EVERYTHING! I AM DONE!”. Release the beast, the demon, the real me from its temporary hiding place, or maybe cage. Too bad, so sad – it can’t stay there.

I really don’t know what to do […]

8/9/2012 4 comments

I just want to scream!

by Crazypandachick 8/2/2012

written by Crazypandachick

Just when my life takes a turn for the better, it takes another for the worse. I’m still dealing with the same shit, but now the people I put in prison for raping / helping rape me got released (biggest load of bullshit out -.-) and now I think my boyfriend wants to split just because I want to go to University in a different state to make sure I get the best education and experience. He always brings up leaving all the bullshit here and just leaving somewhere with me, so I offered him to come or to have a long distance relationship and […]

8/2/2012 2 comments

I wish I hadn’t woke up this morning.

by ALLbeletsHAPPY 7/20/2012

written by ALLbeletsHAPPY

Im just going to rant.. Yes I realize nobody actually gives two shits but Â whatever.. So, I wake up this morning and automatically felt angry, sad, stressed, and to add on that my medication is making me sick due to not having food to take with it.. So I call my work and tell them I cant come in and now I need to find someone to cover my shift. I doubt anybody will. Anyway.. i just.. I really just dont want to be here anymore. How about I go count my pills….

7/20/2012 4 comments

hate everyone

by imperfect_disaster 5/21/2012

written by imperfect_disaster

I can’t believe my own friend made me cut myself just now. I haven’t cut myself in about a month and there, she made me do it. Yes I blame her. I literally fucking hate everyone and I wish I was dead. I’m sick of fucking trying to make everyone happy when no one gives 2 shits about me. Fuck everyone and everything, I wanna overdose and I don’t fucking regret it. I’m bleeding right now and I blame society. How can anyone be so selfish? I wanna freaking die already, I wish I die soon. I can’t take this pain no more. I hope […]

5/21/2012 6 comments

Sweet, sweet alcohol. I love you

by jamesmohio 5/21/2012

written by jamesmohio

I was so depressed last night. Poor me, poor you. Poor fool who thinks your life sucks. Shit, I’m sick of pity. I’m buzzed. I drank a cup of Jack, now I feel good. I can’t help but wonder how long this will last. 10 more shots and I’ll want to die. I have an extra big bottle tonight. Manipulation has always done me so much good. I know my habits, drink and feel good, drink more feel okay, drink too much want to die. I have too much alcohol in the fridge. Way too much alcohol for one man to handle. Blah blah blah. […]

5/21/2012 10 comments

I love You, my Girls :*

by Black_Scorpio 2/9/2012

written by Black_Scorpio

Things been fucked up more than ever. My boyfriend still can’t show any of warm feelings, acting like a snowman, can’t even make himself tell that he misses me and so on.. So finally i told him, that i’d rather choose not to have him, than having him like that. I asked him not to write me, not to call me, not to find me anymore..except he will find some feelings.. I just couldn’t take that coldness anymore.

My friend called at the same time, i was cryin.. so She took a food, bottle of wine, Marlboro and came up.. Feeded me, drunk me, poison me […]

2/9/2012 3 comments