Seems like i’m going to walk a little longer.
how long? no one knows, but after not having the balls to try and overdose myself it anti-depressants and pain killers for the third time i got caught by my Mother and she is not letting me out her sight and have locked every place with locks.
isnt it shameful, 20year old shut-in freak who cant even kill himself is now living a lie inside hes room and being watched all the time except when others sleep. the society doesnt even realise its destroying lives of hundreds and after that tells us its our fault and that it is us who is incorrect. that it is us who need to change.
and as it seems that there is no way to kill myself in near future as i’m literally made to sit on my computer all-day and being watched if i do something else than being in my room where there is no sharp or otherwise dangerous things… this life is not worth living… im 20 year old and im so ugly my family dont want world to see me, and still they make me live this hell they call life. i’m not a great speaker or writer, i’m not musician that would make the next “this is it”. im nobody. and as such i shall die. it doesnt matter if its this week or next year.
nothing will change.
still nothing but toys.