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Small Hope

Is killing yourself really difficult?

by shadowclone0 6/27/2013

written by shadowclone0

I’ve read lots of posts here over the last two years..

It seems like there are a lot of failed attempts..

so, without any ill intentions on my part..

Do random things just go wrong or something?

I’ve always been too scared to try because I know myself..

I’m a VERY huge perfectionist..Â not toward others, just things I do..

So I know very well that I will not fail if I try..

That’s why I’ve never tried because I still have a small small hope..

and as long as I still have that tiny hope(even if that same tiny hope

feels so hollow or totally gone some days), I won’t try it yet..

So […]

6/27/2013 6 comments

Facing the dark

by llmorrow75 7/5/2012

written by llmorrow75

It’s been so bad all day today, and now it’s nearly time to face the dark. Alone. My thoughts have been running marathons all day, and I see no sign of the excruciating turmoil inside of me letting up.

Once again, the horrible days where I am so physically sick from this, I can’t move, and so emotionally fucked I start losing track of which thoughts are rational and which are not, are the days when I have no one. The times where I am paralyzed with fear and flashbacks and lonliness… they are the nights that I suffer alone.

I guess I do have one small […]

7/5/2012 4 comments

my dear sweet beloved

by endless_sorrows 4/29/2012

written by endless_sorrows

i fell in love with this one girl her name was samantha right from the bat i knew she was suicidal but that did not stop me… i thouhgt she could help me escape… she and i were very similar in many ways… people would tell me we were soulmates… we were sappose to die together that was the plan…but i wanted to finish something before i died she had agreed that she would wait for me and she did… little i knew the more she waited the more her pain… our pain grew… i told her to use my body in hwat ever she […]

4/29/2012 2 comments