The burn of the scars
A knife with black thread
The floors turn red
With the blood I’ve bleed
The knife goes in and out
With ease, the thread
That close them finally
Breath
When black spots
Cover my eyes, my
Job is done. As I surrender
To the pain
A smile grace my face
Because I know when
I come to the thread
Has erased
All the pain that
It chased
Do you know that moment when you don’t know what to do anymore. When your world is crashing down but you still have a stupid smile on your face. This is all happening to me,& I’m losing it. Yeah people out there have it worse than me & I shouldn’t be complaining but it’s just to much to handle. I just want to end it & leave it all behind. I have nothing to much to lose. The people who once gave a damn  about me just gave up on me. Now a couple days ago I lost the person I love thanks to my […]
Death looks pretty attractive right now. The other night I went up into my attic looking for some guns my parents have been hiding. I fell through the attic and busted up my leg pretty good. Needless to say I feel even worse now. The last two days at work I haven’t been able to stop myself from crying. My supervisor gave me an extremely simple straight-forward assignment and I can’t do it. I can’t focus or concentrate on it. I’m stupid and worthless and lazy. I don’t deserve a good career. I don’t even deserve a bad career. I deserve no career. I fuck […]
I feel like maybe I can actually do something for the good. I try to make everyone happy but at the end of the day I’m not. I feel bad for getting angry with myself for stuff I can’t control. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow with a smile on my face and feel better. I can only hope. I hope everyone is doing good tonight.
I feel like I’m in a tug of war between life and death. I’ve given up and now I’m just watching the days go by. What am I waiting for? because I don’t want to live. I want to wake up with a smile on my face, get ready in a good mood, breathe easy and walk happily to my death.. I don’t want to feel fear or guilt or sorrow.
When I think of the countless number of people who have taken their lives since the beginning of man and the men and women who take their lives every year – it makes me […]
Tonight I have a goal. I want to smile. I want to smile, have fun, and let everything irrelevant go. I challenge you to try the same. I challenge you to call a friend and talk, make plans, or just catch up. If you want, I will be that friend. Tonight I will leave the house with a smile on my face and stress free. Please try and do the same, I want you all to realize you’re beautiful enough to be smiling and worries will disappear. 😀
I am only walking around and putting that smile on my face, I feel like I am torn apart, broken and can’t be fixed. I am doing my best too get by. Not a day goes by were I wish I could fade away and see if anyone would care. Honestly I think not that many people would even notice if I just faded away. Nothing is ever going too change I’ll always be the un-fixable girl. all alone here on the other end, I just do not want too keep going anymore you have too understand that if I do give up its not […]
I started cutting again. My friends didn’t think I had the balls (pun intended since I’m a girl) well surprise mother fuckers. And I couldn’t get the smile off my face since I saw the blood. And razor, its been too long my old friend.
i think that it is very sad to see people going through these rough times in their life and i can relate because im one of them. my name is faith and this is my real story. my depression started when my parents put down my dog, they didnt realize how strong my connection with her was. after that my depression got worse and i resorted to cutting and trying to kill myself. i wasnt happy anymore i wasnt that happy little girl who loved life and would help everyone else before herself. the only part of that little girl that is still alive is […]
Dear Shekiera,
I words can’t possibly express how much I miss you, everyday I think about you, sometimes with a smile on my face and other times with tears. I remember the first time I met you, you were grade one and I was in grade two. we were both shy, socially awkward and got along great because we didn’t have to say alot to have a good time. back in grade two I can’t remember exactly what we would talk about, but I remember that we used to walk around and talk about “what if’s” and “when I’m older I’m going to’s”. You see, Shekiera, […]
Who am i?
All of you are thinking it.
“Who is that kid?
The one that killed himself,
I think I’ve seen him before,
But I’m not sure.”
Let me put your minds at ease.
You have all seen me.
Ive always been here.
I’m the kid in the back seat of the class.
I’m the kid that you see eating lunch alone in the hall.
I’m the kid you whisper about as you walk by.
The kid that teachers never punish.
Because they’re scared of me too.
I’ve always been there,
Watching, silently.
Its funny that after only one year,
I’ve already developed my final opinions of you.
There are those of you out there that can rest easy.
My death is not […]
How do I continue in my meaningless existence when I feel as if I’m on my own? I’m sure all of you who read this knows exactly how I feel, though I doubt anyone will read this so I’m just wasting my time as usual. Sigh. I am going to start using this as a vent, because I have no one to talk to that actually knows my pain, and those that pretend to or pretend to care are just inane and useless to me now. I am utterly alone, I go through the day with a fake smile plastered on my ugly face and a degrading […]
I am living to make people happy, I’m known as the colorful rainbow who brightens up the day where ever i go,I try to make everyone happy so im always smiling and im nice to everyone and when ever anyone needs advice they come to me. I remember when i was so depressed and suicidal and used to self-harm all the time but i don’t do that anymore, now i look at the workd differently it’s like one morning i woke up and realized there was nothing to be sad about,there was nothing to hate. Whenever j was really low i would always remember “there […]
She ran from the school, crying, but racing so that know one could see her tears.
She felt alone, suffered alone, in a roaring silence.
what had M called it?
the Black Velvet Curtain
The place deep inside where she hid, somehow knowing no one would even be looking for her.
It all started when HE asked her best friend out instead. “He only used me to get to my friend”
And when she heard the hateful things he called her behind her back it got worse.
Fatty, *****, ho.
She knew what she needed to do, she had a shrt piece of razor hidin in […]
Most days I wake up with a fake smile plastered on my face. It’s like my own little lie to the whole world because I’m afraid they would know my thoughts. I guess it started when I was little because my dad got really sick he was the only one who understood me. He died in 2010. My mom is the type of person who literally runs from problems with out realizing how much that effects me. She’s never one to tell me that she loves me instead she tells me what others say about me. Around my friends I paste a smile on my […]
I guess I’m suicidal. My stomach churns just putting that label next to my name. I think about it all the time. I think about all the things wrong. I get sucked into that black hole where you just keep going down and down. And then I find myself on facebook in an immature poke-battle with one of my best friends (who I also happen to have been hopelessly in love with for years) and I can’t wipe the smile off my face as I watch the notification pop up again and again. A real smile, not the stupid fake one I plaster on my […]
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