I have intentions to be productive for myself. I want to be helpful and do right, for myself and others. I like to impress and make people around me proud. I have a standard to live up to. My family expects my fullest respects, and endlessly utter my continuous responsibilities. My friends just expect me to be there. Usually I’m quiet, but if I’m around long enough most are bound to get a piece of my mind. After that I kind of just do what it takes to blend in. Even though I’m more than use to sticking out. The feeling is like: hope–To be […]
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Stress Anxiety
Well I’m 21 years old and seriously considering taking my life. I have no friends, have never had a relationship or even a chance to prove my worth to a girl. I stand alone day and night living this hell I call my life. I’m so depressed, frustrated and the feeling of hopelessness that washes over me is the worst. I feel as if this is it for me, this is going to be my life until they put me in the ground. The older I grow the more the loneliness and fear of being alone grows and it’s becoming a harsh realization that I […]
I haven’t cared what has happened to me for years now. I have been living with this silent recklessness, if that’s what you want to call it, for far too long. I will stand in the middle of the highway hoping someone with change lanes and i will get caught in the cross fire, i go for walks in the middle of the night into the dangerous places in town in the hope that i will be ‘in the wrong place at the wrong time’ and get shot for seeing something or just provoking someone. I don’t use my brakes properly in the car, i […]