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Caring is such a burden.

by V.
written by V.

I won’t share my personal drama, since I’m sure most of you have enough with your own shit and I find it pointless to vomit a self-indulgent wall of text which screams “my life is shittier than yours”. I simply want to share this suicide-related issue and see if any of you are going through similar stuff and how you’ve dealt with it. Please refrain from posting “at least you have friends”-style crap.

I’ve already planned my suicide, even saved money for all the stuff that is required when someone dies (funeral and that stuff), and I’m always writting suicide notes telling everyone that this is […]

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I just want it all over

by ashleigh_ann
written by ashleigh_ann

I am young, (13 almost 14) and I know I should be weird with my emotions. I have suicidal thoughts all of the time. I cry for no reason, suffer from insomnia, and have constant headaches with no medical reasoning. I’ve taken tests online, searched up the symptoms of depression, and all that stuff, and I am sure that I have it. I was okay until I broke my ankle (like a month ago, still have the cast today) where I got a lot worse. Now I just want to die, no matter what. I’ve been so close to trying to drown myself, and while […]

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I’m still alive

by Sam
written by Sam

I miss being a little kid the world was so pretty and I loved life. Now things are not what I expected to be like. I often wonder if I could of fixed it. My life just shattered. My counselor thinks my depression is caused by my past. Maybe it was I’m not sure but I just I want to feel good again not feel so disconnected all the time. I have really bad social anxiety I have no friends I’m alone. I think I like being alone I pushed all of  them away. Yet sometimes I wish I had someone who just understand me. I am […]

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I have HIDDEN a book about my unseen sent MESSAGES.

by freezinginfire
written by freezinginfire

It seems like everyone who didn’t previously hate me now is mad at me. I’m standing on a building a fly could topple and here comes an eagle. Tomorrow everything will get worse, plus there will be the addition of having no opportunity to fix it because of my, now expected to be stressful, vacation.

1. Why can’t anyone accept ME?!
I REALLY tried to PLEASE all of you!

2. Why won’t they BELIEVE me?!
I didn’t do the stuff they say I DID!

3. Why does everyone leave me?!
Everyone is gone, A PART OF my inspiration was recently hit by a police car on THE interstate […]

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Like they REALLY want to help me. NOT -.-

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

FUCK THEM!!!
FUCK THOSE THERAPISTS!!!!!

I’m really mad right now…The therapists say that they want to make me better and they will do everything to make me better. Yeah right. I’ve been in therapy for ten months now there and it only got worse and worse. I have going to the part-time therapy (5 days a week from 9 am till 3 pm) for 4 months now, and I have reached none of my goals. And those therapists…. they really sucked!! I really feel like they don’t take me serious. This was a conversation I had a few weeks ago when I told the therapists that […]

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I’m Drowning in my own hatred

by The End
written by The End

Good God life is just so fucking difficult I am so tiered of the same stuff happening in my life I think I am destined to be alone and miserable for the rest of my life. It feels as though that I have to experiecnce soo much bad luck. Nothing good can ever happen to me that’s just the way my life works. I wanna talk to someone. I never know what to say at all I posted something like this before, but I just don’t see why I am always alone. I fucking hate the way I am. Could someone please help me I just […]

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I was hoping to seem some change

by Butcheredpanda
written by Butcheredpanda

So I wrote this post 4 months ago already;

The future doesnt seem bright

 

I was seriously trying and hoping to see a positive change, I didnt expect that everything was right again, but at least expected something positive.

 

Well guess what, there is none. Every day is getting worse and worse. Everyday I am having a crapload of headaches, completely destroying the ability to do something good, something helpful for a day. These headaches, I am sure they keep holding me back, if i didnt have them I am confident in my ability to improve stuff in my life, but guess what, I dont even get […]

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A really big mix-up

by I.cant.breathe!
written by I.cant.breathe!

okay so I just got on today and realiized that my friend has been using my account so I need to clear some stuff up. my name is jacqueline or jackie and this is MY account, i don’t have cancer. my friend has the same name as me (jacqueline) and she uses my account. she has the cancer which is like heartbreaking. and i just needed to clear that up, I on the otherhand was just realeased from the mental hospital cause of my suicide attempt. i just needed to get that all straitened out. and me and her are still going to share […]

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Cocktail of Pills

by hazelleyes
written by hazelleyes

Just got my own cocktail of pills.

Antidepressives, sleeping pills, stuff for memory. 

Soon, there will be more (ADD concerning).

How did I get to this point?

I just hope this is will start making some effect, and I start feeling better. Although, funny enough, one of the side effects of the antidepressive right when you start taking it is intensification of suicidal thoughts or something like that. lol seriously? This is gonna be a funny ride.

I won’t be around for a week, I’m going away, but once I come back, I shall evaluate if this cocktail is doing what it should.

I hope everyone here has a better week […]

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All I wanna be dead

by Aguyfromnowhere
written by Aguyfromnowhere

I dont know where to start.Everyday , before I sleep , I pray to God to take my life.I don wanna live anymore.I want to start with my father.He doesnt care about me , He didnt care about me till today ,btw I am 23.He only thinks money.He gave me little money even he can afford much.For example,in November , I wanted to him to buy me boots because mines were old(I was using them for 5 years).He said ok , and we went to shopping.After we bought them he abused at me hurl.Why does a dad do something like that to his son although […]

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I Still Want to Cry

by TrumpetChick99
written by TrumpetChick99

I know that Trevor isn’t worth it. But he is.. I know something about him. Something that hardly anyone else knows. He has problems at home.. And it makes me so furious at his parents for treating him like they do. See, the thing is, I don’t think he said all that shit that Emily said he did. He’s been staring at me all day, then turning away, blushing. I put my hands on my hips once when he looked at me, though… I don’t care if he’s mad at me, though. He can deal with it. And if he did say all that stuff, […]

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Betrayed again!

by Saint Thomas
written by Saint Thomas

Why does this shit always happen to me. I try to be happy everyday but i guess im just really good at making a facade to every day of my pathetic little life. Who am i? my apparent friends always back stab me in the end i only have one friend who is my brother (not real brother) ive known him since we were 4 and i trust him with my life but others i meet sure ill be nice to them and shit like that but i try not to trust them or else id be breaking rule 1. Trust no one Suspect everyone […]

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Let me die please

by dekaash
written by dekaash

I don’t want to live anymore. I hate life, I hate everything. I really want to take my life away but I can’t. I’m a Christian and believe in God. I don’t want to go to hell. My life is pointless. I go to these “special” classes, only two and I hate it. I was doing bad in school and got put there last year. That’s like telling me I’m dumb or something. I get a headache when I get there, I’m not the same. I tried asking my mom to put me in regular classes like the rest of my friends. I’m not dumb […]

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I’m broken, and I can’t even remember why.

by hazelleyes
written by hazelleyes

It all hit me. I was at coffee with my friend, and all of the sudden it all hit me – the depression, the urge to kill myself, for all of this to end.

I have no purpose, I see no tomorrow, I see no future. I just want to die, so fucking badly.

I’m living but I don’t feel like I am. I just want to fucking die! Why can’t I? Why can’t some car hit me and I’d die? Why can’t something happen and my life would end? I have no purpose. I feel like a puppet doing stuff only because I am told I […]

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My past and how I got stranded in my problems.

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

Boot777 asked me what my main problems are that cause my suicidal thoughts. I decided to make a post of it, so here it is. Well, there isn’t really one problem you can point at that causes the suicidal thoughts. Actually, there are a lot of things that cause them. I am not telling you all of them, because probably I’ll forget one or two and that’s going to be bored, so I’m going to tell the important one’s (I guess). I’ve been bullied from my fourth untill now. The worst part was at age of 11, 12 I guess. I was at elemntary school […]

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Stuff; unimportant

by theForgotten
written by theForgotten

I see people all around me getting loved, being in happy relationships, doing things with friends.  People talk to me in school and at least pretend to enjoy my company.  I don’t understand why every time I try to make a move on a girl, they stop talking to me for at least 3 months and every time I try to make plans with ‘friends’, they’re always doing something.  Everyone who supported me, ever, found other people, boyfriends, other things, better ways to spend their time and it seems a chore for them to talk to me.  Am I really that undesirable?  Is everyone else […]

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First writing, my day.

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

This morning I looked outside and all I saw was snow. You may think: “Is that special?? O.o” Well, I can tell you: yes, it is. Because in The Netherlands we don’t really have severe winters or often snow. So when there is snow, it’s special. Especially when it’s like 6 inches, like today. I had to go to my part-time therapy (from 9 am till 3 pm every monday till friday) and luckily my father brought me. There was like more than 1000 kilometers of traffic jam, a new record! (on a normal tuesday in the morning it’s around 300 kilometers) and we also […]

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I sit and wonder if I’m okay

by DiademS
written by DiademS

school is going to start, it’s going to be a sudden change of pace… reading, always reading… so many people… memorizing stuff… I may not have to post anymore… it’s interesting to have gone through this in this way… i’ll be back but who am I?

 

I’m sore from trying, I’d rather be sore from doing… my head hurts on and off… 2 more days until a new year… will I be able to do it? will I finally make it? I tell myself I’m strong enough… I do… I believe I’m ready to do this… Time is crawling…still I wonder, am I worth making this memorable again?

 

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my story

by xxxlonelyxxx
written by xxxlonelyxxx

Hey everyone most of you might know some of this but i really just need to get this out. No one really knows some of this stuff in my life but I need to get it off my chest.. I can’t carry this weight forever. and I can’t carry this weight alone. I trust so many of you on this site not to judge me or even respond but just to.. understand. Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense either.. I’m just trying to purge all of this information to maybe make more sense of it.. don’t worry it won’t be too long ill try […]

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I’m tired

by DiademS
written by DiademS

It’s been a rough couple of days… I’m sorry for all who are suffering I fight with this pressure in my head even as I’m trying to put it all behind me… I did manage to find some help… I’m glad i held on long enough… I will be more careful to not drain myself providing for another who is incapable of providing in return… It’s a rough lesson to learn when its family member or a loved one… I need time away from them and now that I’ve had some help I’ll be okay…

 

9:43pm

Sitting here remaining positive that I won’t allow that to happen […]

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