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Sometimes you have does days wen you remember all the good things that happen in your life and that they can’t never come back. Wen you begging to remember them you just want to cry, you begin to feel that pain again. You don’t know how to stop it. You just cry and cry; you wanna scream but no words comes out, you wanna tell someone so they can help you but there’s no one. You begin to feel alone, you feel depressed. You begin to feel that pain growing so fast. You begin to do stupid thing to your self. You don’t want to […]
Been cutting since I was 15 (7 1/2 years). Never thought I would do it, once I started, never thought I would stop. I finally stopped. Went over a year without cutting, then relapsed, then stayed “clean” then relapsed then stayed “clean” then relapse and so on and so on. I will always be an addict to this stupid thing that controls me. I crave the feel of it, the release it gives me. I know I should have control over it, especially by now, but I cant help but want to give into it. I am still and always will be a depressed person, […]
What does it take to find somebody in this world who actually cares about your situation and who actually works for your benefit? All I keep meeting is people who turn towards their darkside for any little petty stupid thing and people who have nothing but LIES. Here I am, Amphetimine addict who has just had a dealer I’ve known for over a decade stop serving me and blanking me completely just because HIS stuff  made me paranoid and I guess it tripped him out a bit, after all we havent all got brain conditions due to drugs.
I cant find anybody else who sells it and EVERYBODYÂ I know […]
This guy from my past has been calling me but tonight he was going on about how he helped some girl at the library where he works and it was like he was trying to upset me about it, its hard to explain, he plays mind games, and the stupid thing is it worked. He has upset me. I am very vulnerable right now and he knows it. What is it about me?
So I made an excuse and hung up, but now I am feeling even more shakey. The thoughts are, I dont want to feel like this anymore, I cant do this anymore. I […]
And finally number four, self harm.
I hate those words, self harm. It’s strange that to some people it simply means a problem that someone has, to others it’s a consuming addiction. I don’t even know how to talk about it, I’ve never really had to. Not out loud. People are too afraid to ask me about it face to face, or if they do they never come straight out with it, like if your parents try to have a sex talk with you, without actually mentioning the word sex. Thats what all of my friends are like. But the stupid thing is people expect me […]
Today I broke an ongoing achievement of mine which was to never smoke , but I was told it relieved depression after the first one I was actually quite surprised at how I felt. It felt great I was also offered cannabis which I took, looking back I’m disappointed in myself as it was a stupid thing to do and now I’m getting addicted. But it’s made me quite suicidal I’ve gone to the point of self harm but what I found weird is it relived my depression more than smoking or weed. I don’t want to get addicted to this or take it to far but it would […]
I tried to kill myself a little more than a year ago. I still struggle with the thoughts, sometimes more than others. Right now I’m just so tired. I’m feeling “blah” again, how I did before. I can’t help but think about just giving up right now. It would be so much easier. I also can’t stop thinking about last time. I feel guilty for all the pain I caused everyone, but in some twisted way, I feel guilty for not going through with it.
The stupid thing is that nothing is really wrong right now. My life is pretty good…which makes me feel even […]
I am so completely exhausted by constant suicidal thoughts and fantasies. Anytime I make a little mistake, or when someone’s response to what I’ve said feels off, there’s a voice berating me, telling me, “I hate you, you’re a stupid fucking whore, go kill yourself. Go kill yourself Rachel. Go kill yourself,” over and over and over. Every day. The theory being: “Everyone remembers every little stupid thing you do and they hate you for it. You should kill yourself and make them forget how stupid you are. Don’t tell anyone, don’t ask for help. They’ll never see it coming.” I don’t think I’ll actually […]
hi, i just need to get this off my back, so heres my story. i am a skateboarder, i have a pretty good life from what everyone knows about me, but thats not actually true. im that happy kid that almost everyone likes, they go to when they’re sad, they go to when they need inspiration, etc. thing they dont know is how unhappy i actually am, its not the cut myself unhappy, im too much of a pansy to even think about hurting myself, i cringe at the thought of a cut from a razorblade, fuck that. thing is, i hate what i am, […]
im crushed. im hurt. ive hit rock bottom.im screaming for help but no one cares no one is listening.
written by thegirlwhocryedwolf
I very much hope that at least one person
in the entire world reads this,because
it would make me feel as though someone
somewhere gives one single flying fuck about me.
I did a stupid thing I put my heart out there
and ended up getting crushed
So here’s the story is:
Jasmine, her boyfriend James,and his brother Nick where having a
sleep over at jasmines house.They only invited Nick because
Jasmine thought I would come over to keep him company.
He had recently been dumped and he was a bit sad.
But I was at my dads house for the weekend.
So since Nick felt like a third wheel James asked if I would […]
there have been lots of times when i have been depressed, i cry sometimes. like uncontrolably for hours, but that hasnt happened in a while. i usually do that when i know no one can hear me, because i dont think they would really get it. like most people i know they turn around and go “well you have it a lot better than some.” my best friend, and in some ways my only friend called me a spoilt bratt, when i was depressed on monday. thats why i dont trust her enough to talk to her, thats why i’m here.
i dont sound all “woe […]
When I think of myself more often then not I just want to puke. I used to be so happy and free spirited and I feel high school and just recent events in my life is ruining me. I am more cynical, I dont get along with parents, I dont have a 4.0, I feel fat and ugly…i am a let down to my amazing little sister and my life is just one big treadmill. Its like ive climbed on and cant get off. I just have to keep running because I cant stop or I will get flung off and I dont know how to […]