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tactile hallucinations

1:30 am internal dialogue

by system 4/12/2021

written by system

don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me DON’T TOUCH ME

my skin is fucking crawling. he’s here again. he’s in my blood, in my bones. he’s in my room, but he’s not. his hands are cold. ****** please leave me alone. pleasep lease please pleaseplease leave me al one,,..

i can hear him again. i can hear him. a broken record, repeating over and over all the things he said

i can feel the razors. it burns it burns it burns it burns makeit stop please, ******

my body is a trauma graveyard and these scars are the gravestones

please stop ican’t breathe you’re hurting […]

4/12/2021 1 comment

tactile hallucinations

by system 3/14/2021

written by system

don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me

i can feel his hands around my neck he won’t let go he won’t let go he won’t let go

****** im sorry im sorry im sorry

he’s not really here but i can still feel everything

he was never here

******, how have you found me? how do you continue to torment me? i haven’t spoken to you since late september

i will never be able to forget the feeling of a razor being dragged down my face

over. and over. and over.

it still burns.

3/14/2021 1 comment

feeling things that aren’t really there

by system 3/6/2021

written by system

it doesn’t get any less unsettling. it’s just as disturbing as the first time i experienced it.

hands. hands that aren’t there. gripping my neck, my shoulders, my face.

the feeling of someone standing directly behind me. i feel their breath on the back of my neck. i can feel their eyes on me, an unforgiving gaze.

but there’s nobody there. nobody is ever there.

sometimes, things he said replay faintly. but there is no noise. the room is quiet. i am alone.

but he’s still here, watching me. suffocating me. controlling me.

he still, in some way, has managed to lay his hands on me. he never did, he was […]

3/6/2021 3 comments