I’m tired of trying to be like I was before; happy, etc. I just want to take a break for a little while. I’m not going to cut, or at least I’ll try not to, but I’m not going to really be happy either. I think that Trevor doesn’t like me. I’m not using any buts this time. No hope for it. I’m done with him. For real. No crawling back. Thinking back on it, he’s probably at least 25% of why I was so unhappy before. I just don’t care about him. I mean, I don’t even want to think about him. Or any […]
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Taking A Break
I have decided that its my time to take a break. I’m taking a break from just everything. If you thought I was reckless before then now is the time to let go. I’m done with it all. IÂ will try suicide again. I will do whatever the hell I want because I’m dying anyway…so what the hell does it matter anymore? All the friends that I have (which is few to none) don’t even know. My life is so useless…I deserve all that came towards me in the past couple years. I deserve the pain. But now I can’t fight it anymore so I’m giving […]
There were many “signs” that pointed to the relationship with my ex meaning(to my understanding) that she was the one mean for me. However, there are many ways that the “signs” could have been interpreted. For instance, her name appearing as a suggested friend on a networking site alongside her old lawyer’s could have meant we were to be together or it could have meant stay away from both the lawyer and her; randomly going out and hearing a performance of a song she sang, “Forget You,” could mean forget her; or standing beside someone and having them grab my hand and tell me to […]