I suppose its time for me to finally start hoping I can die….fear cant dissuade me this time…ive already started…theres no going back now…..If there is a god out there…please don’t let this fail.
If luck isn’t on my side….il return after I get out of the hospital….if not…I hope you all can find peace as well be it through living or dying. Goodbye.
Vita teneat nisi miseriam.