So, I have self confidence and self esteem issues and I’ve recently been looking for a job. This would be my first professionally employed thing and I can’t seem to gain the confidence to apply anywhere. I’ve managed to ask for applications and fill them out decently with only a few mild anxiety attacks but can never turn them in. A lot of this is centered around a fear of rejection mostly, but I also have problems talking positively about myself or “selling myself” like I would have to in an interview or on applications. I either fill things out as honestly as I feel […]
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THING
Actually, if I only had a single word I might use “eclectic”
The inescapable THING that haunts the deepest recesses of your mind.
inside of me exists
this thing
that makes me
me
it nurtures and it
weeps
it cradles me it dreams
i see this thing
that makes me
me
in his stare and
poison kiss
I see it as he turns
his back
he walks away
good bye again
he leaves again
in pain again
no hope again
repeat again
the same again
he’s done
alone again
with this thing
this THING
that makes me
me
I HATE this thing
DON’T want this thing
please please
FUCKING LEAVE
it has stolen
it has robbed
the life i want
the life i dreamed
what now
where to
confused
Letter to nobody
I have been started to write a letter or something similar about my thoughts maybe someone will understand the pain inside
I am an immigrant from east, arrived in Belgium for a better life, but the things did not work that way, they just went down the drain slowly. I work in a computer store, giving other people advices about how to run computers, fixing it problems something like .it was fun at the beginning because this is a thing I like to do the whole it thing, but slowly it is not working anymore.
My wife and I arrived in Belgium to make a […]
The more you look back at it, the more it becomes clear. The chaos in the way everything around you moves, breathes, exists and ultimately vanishes into the void. I’m sort of glad I found this place, I wasn’t sure a thing like this would exist. I’ve been cutting so many ties lately, well, is still tough to linger as you start the preparations. I think it was a good idea to set a counter, so I’ll start with 20. I’ll post 20 things in here before I can manage to successfully be one with the nothingness and have the sweet embrace of everlasting silence.
I […]