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Thinking Of Suicide

I need someone to listen…and maybe someone to talk to

by AmIStuckNow 10/7/2014

written by AmIStuckNow

I really need someone to listen to my story and my feelings. I am in a position where I can really get the help I need and don’t really have anyone to talk to. Even if I did, there are some things I can’t really tell them.

This is really long, but it would really save me if someone can read it and respond…and maybe talk to me.

So, I am just going to pour out my feelings here. A lot of what I write will be vague, because I can’t divulge my identity (I’ll explain why later.)

Recently I’ve felt very suicidal for a lot of reasons. […]

10/7/2014 5 comments

I’m Tired

by redrum99 9/11/2013

written by redrum99

hi, i am 20 years old and i’m currently studying overseas from my country. the first time i wanted to kill myself was when i was in the 4th grade (8 years old). and since then, every time i got a problem, i always thinking of suicide. i used to cut my wrist and taking sleeping pills when i was in junior high school. i have lots of problems with my family, school, and sometimes boyfriend. i just moved here 3 months ago and every night before i go to bed i always pray and ask to God what am i doing here, in this […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

Im Scared Of Letting Go….

by nolongerneeded 8/26/2013

written by nolongerneeded

Everyday seems to be getting worse…. I’ve been thinking of suicide a lot… I’ve been hurting Â a lot but no one seems to notice it, I’m screaming for help but I’m not getting any.. I feel as if no one cares no ones listening. I’m so scared of letting go but at the same time I feel the need that it’s my time to go I will never be what anyone expects me to be everyone’s trying to change me.. Every little side comment that people make about me hurts me more inside than they realize.. It hurts to show my face anymore! NO ONE […]

8/26/2013 5 comments

I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise 7/22/2013

written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

7/22/2013 4 comments

“The woods are lovely dark and deep..” Was he thinking what I’m thinking?

by LostOlHope 4/4/2013

written by LostOlHope

Whose woods these are I think I know,
His house is in the village though.
He will not see me stopping here,
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer,
To stop without a farmhouse near,
Between the woods and frozen lake,
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake,
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep,
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,

4/4/2013 4 comments

Update- Docs have Notepads

by Domino Jays 1/24/2013

written by Domino Jays

A new little ‘mini saga’ I’m starting soon I hope. Influenced by the program ‘Notepad’ that comes regularly installed on laptops and PCs. I love the damn thing so much, I use it constantly. So simply, it makes me want to cry because it’s so simple. Anyways, this little mini saga probably won’t be updated as much as the True Story saga. This is basically when I’m really thinking of suicide, and it’s basically the ‘Suicide Note’ that I would probably write at the moment. I’m experimenting, see if it will help with the venting. If it doesn’t help, then don’t expect much from the […]

1/24/2013 2 comments

So. Im thinking of suicide…

by Deathsinevatible 1/23/2013

written by Deathsinevatible

what is the point of life? Why do we stay on this earth? why Don’t we end our lives right now if were suffering. Can someone please answer these questions for me? Just whats the point.

1/23/2013 3 comments

back into the loop again.

by madwolf 12/30/2012

written by madwolf

I woke up very anxious and stressed this morning. It’s midnight here now. And I’m thinking of suicide again. And murder. My parents’ arguing woke me up. It always bothers me when they fight. Why? Because I have a crazy mother. Yes, crazy. Clinically diagnosed with bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness. I have seen her at a low level to the highest peak of her craziness. And when she gets nuts, really nuts, I shake like hell. I hate how much I am unable to control it. I always tell myself to toughen up but my body and mind defies me. I put […]

12/30/2012 4 comments

What if…

by TheBeautyofGrey 12/21/2012

written by TheBeautyofGrey

Hi, my name is Liz. I don’t know how to start talking about my feelings, it seems like they haven’t been around for a while, The thing is, I turned 20 and realised that a whole moment in my life was skipped. Now, everything is basically wake up, go to college, go to work and sleep. It’s like the world no longer exist and I’m a machine. I’ve tried to get into society, to be around other people, but I just didn’t fit. It seems like everything is controlled by a biological rule, you need to have a good appearance so you will have the […]

12/21/2012 5 comments

Trapped inside myself

by SertralineDream 11/30/2012

written by SertralineDream

Ive been thinking of suicide lately and this is not the first time i have attempted before and failed, i really thourght i had got myself over the worst of it after that until recently. Me and my gf split after a long period of being in a kind of together but technically not situation after i messed up an hurt her (wasn’t the worst thing i could of done but it was bad) all the guilt of hurting the person i love the most has kickstarted my depression and i did try to deal with it but im getting nowhere, i dont feel like […]

11/30/2012 0 comment

I’m scared of happiness, I’m scared of myself.

by seriously.injured 11/5/2012

written by seriously.injured

Today is my best freinds birthday.
I couldn’t leave her alone on her birthday.
I have been thinking of suicide for So long, i was finally got the courage to do it.
But i thought, if i left my best friend, a day before her birthday.. she would kill herself to.
She is amazing.
I have just been going through such a hard time right now, and i honestly can’t live this lie anymore.
I’m so fucking scared to be happy. I’m scared of faking a smile. I’m scared to live. I’m scared to die. I’m scared to be alone.
I cut all the time. […]

11/5/2012 0 comment

Just kill me now.

by Little Red 9/16/2012

written by Little Red

I dont think this world is worth it. Living in all this pain. Im bisexual, apparently “Emo” as i get called at school. Nobody accepts me for who i am.Not even my mother. She always has stuff to say about who i am and about my friends. She says she wont lower her standards for us. She doesnt know im bi. Like who the hell said she needed to lower her standards for anyone. .I dont want to live in this hell anymore. Im thinking of suicide or running away. The easiest way i can think of is just a large cocktail on pills in […]

9/16/2012 14 comments

52 year old women =sick of life.

by dogcito 8/10/2012

written by dogcito

Hi I’m 52 and increasingly I am thinking of suicide. I really cant see the point. Pushing yourself, achieving new goals just doesnt have any sense to me at this age.It’s not going to make me happier either. I have a degree a career that I dumped (It is enough to drive anyone barking mad -secondary teacher. too much political correctness.. Fucking awful kids of all races.) I’ve no family. I’ve a husband that is the nicest man I’ve met but never has any f’n money.coz he’s a latino immigrant. He doesnt want to do crime. That’s fair enough.
I frequently think I should […]

8/10/2012 7 comments

What to do next ?

by Ann-Marie 7/7/2012

written by Ann-Marie

I can’t say i haven’t tried i am currently being treated for depression i self harm unfortunately i don’t blog this kind of thing to the world but now as i write this i’m thinking of where to i go from here and whats my next step in life to be honest im not entirely sure myself doesn’t it seem worth it when i think about it all there is is getting a job marriage , then divorce kids and die anyways . I’m not sure about living a life that means that . i’m thinking of suicide but i cant bare to see my […]

7/7/2012 1 comment

say goodbye

by cookiemonster 4/11/2012

written by cookiemonster

I’ve started out with a terrible life. When I was 2 my real dad tried murdering me. When I was three he choked me to death but the emt brought me to life again. I wish I could of just died then so I wouldn’t have to go thru this pain any longer. My lifes falling apart at the seams again…. I’m 14 and tried suicide 5 times! But each time at the end when I’m about to die someone saves me even when I try fighting them. At this exact moment I feel unwated unloved and depressed. I’m thinking of suicide because who would […]

4/11/2012 2 comments

by kjl131313 4/4/2012

written by kjl131313

I just came across this website a couple days ago. I have gone through reading everyone’s writings from the bad to the good. I have been suicidal for over 14 years. I have gone through the depression of high school getting close to friends only to in my own way pushing them away to where I was alone. I been through everything I read here. But I do not have bad family background. I am bipolar andÂ suicidalÂ thoughts are part of my life. As I have gotten older I wish I could say things get easier but for me they have in a way. You learn […]

4/4/2012 0 comment

Feeling a Force Against Me

by chr75751 2/12/2012

written by chr75751

Can’t believe I’m posting here. Thought I was over all of this. I’m 42 now. Lifetime of depression, anxiety, anorexia, and bulimia. I had gotten to a point where I had left a bad marriage, bought my own car, own house, raising my child, and held a full time very difficult job. I decided to change shrinks 1 week ago who suggested I do “talk therapy.” I went to 1 apt and have essentially fallen apart since that apt. This was totally unexpected. Apparently, I’ve been trying to hold everything together all these years…just keep going, just keep going, and follow the routine is what […]

2/12/2012 4 comments

Talk is cheap.

by Jakeke 1/28/2012

written by Jakeke

I do not like sharing feelings. They are very personal and I feel they belong to me, I don’t like wearing them on my sleeve for everyone else to see. In the recesses of my mind, I’m a much more critical and mean person then the one I portray for other people. Why would I tell them what I really think if all it would do is upset them or make them think less of me? And yet, every where I turn is someone or something encouraging me to share what I’m thinking. I have no problem speaking my mind with almost anyone I like […]

1/28/2012 3 comments

Ready to die

by fisherminisher 7/21/2009

written by fisherminisher

I’m glad there is a forum like this that I can relate to. I have a wife and 3 kids and I am 30 years old. I’ve been thinking of suicide for years now and over the past few months have gotten past this weird barrier that I had before. I was so cautious and scared to kill myself before and now I feel like nothing is stopping me. Sort of like a green light. Now I don’t obsess about it as I used to and have moved onto phase 2 in finding the right way to do it. One thing I learned is that […]

7/21/2009 5 comments

Seriously considering this

by dyingj 7/6/2009

written by dyingj

When I registerd here I was seriously considering ending my life…I felt that I just could not go on anymore…my heart was broken, as well as my spirit.Â I had just finished crying my eyes out, and cursing God, why when he had the chance did he not take me…I had replayed are the hurtful things my husband has said to me over and over in my head…I also had just watch another amature video of him and his girlfriend post on the net…I watched and listened to all the things he said to her…and thats not the only one of them that he has […]

7/6/2009 2 comments

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