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three years

Suicide Notes(Letters)

by SamuelDocGreen 6/23/2017

written by SamuelDocGreen

I have my plan, I’ve done the research, all that is left is the notes. I don’t want to leave them gasping for air like fish. God such bad choice of words especially with how I’m doing all this.

Anyway, I am finding my closer friends harder to write than my friends but not as close to. No, I’m having trouble explaining why I did what I did. I’m having trouble not breaking down and flinging my computer against a wall at 5 in the morning. I’ve decided but I can’t leave this world yet until it’s explained and everyone gets there pictures from me. I […]

6/23/2017 1 comment

I Just Lost the Best Part of my Life

by Arthur R. 4/23/2017

written by Arthur R.

My girlfriend of almost three years just left me with no explanation, Im just looking over pictures of us together and i cant stand it. I had just gone with my friend to get an engagement ring just five months ago. i made the last payment on it just last week. I was going to ask her to marry me at our favorite cafe, it was where we first met. i had stopped her from suicide after she had lost her father and now im honestly the one whos trying. since that night we had made more memories in a few years than i had made […]

4/23/2017 16 comments

Could someone get me a coffee?

by Hampshire_Girl 3/25/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

Hello fellow SPers. I hope things are going ok for you all?

I’m sooo tired at the moment. Combination of feeling pants on the health-front and screwing around with my body clock – chatting to someone from SP who lives in the US. There’s only a four hour time difference, but in the early hours of the morning in the UK, boy, it’s a killer!

I’ve had to take time off sick for the first time in nearly three years because of a chest infection resulting from a cold caught off one of my very generous work colleagues! The office I work in has way too many […]

3/25/2016 3 comments

College

by Mary Love 2/29/2016

written by Mary Love

I am now in college. It has been 3 years since I’ve lost my dad. Its been a hard three years. I am trying so hard to make it in this adult world. I never knew I would be this stressed out. I have been finding so many grey hairs. I am only eighteen. This is crazy. Sometimes I want to give up. There are so many days when I can’t find a way out of my bed to get to class. Last semester I did horrible. I lost my $9,000.00 scholarship. It broke my heart. I don’t know where I’m going to school next […]

2/29/2016 4 comments

My best advice.

by EasilyHopeless 2/27/2016

written by EasilyHopeless

I survived, thrived even, over the past three years by just one thing. Feel nothing. I promise, it works.

2/27/2016 7 comments

Why is everything so boring?

by Lawli 12/23/2015

written by Lawli

I just want to run away and leave everything behind, everything is all so boring here and I’m wasting me life here.

I’m only 15 so I have to wait like three years and then I can finally leave this place.

12/23/2015 5 comments

Fuck it

by whatevr2800 12/11/2015

written by whatevr2800

It fucking hurts. And I couldn’t possibly tell anyone because they don’t give a shit. I was lied to for three years and it hit me hard. My anorexia is a joke to my family, my self harm scars are getting easier to hide again, and I just want to sleep forever.

12/11/2015 2 comments

i kinda already knew

by No_one_care 10/15/2015

written by No_one_care

So i have or i guess had a best friend who i considered like a sister but i feel like she didn’t feel the same. We have been best friends for three years. I think that the worst part about losing your friend is not losing them but feeling like you are losing them. I feel less important when she talks to other people. I know that i can be easily replaced. She is sooooo pretty and smart. I just already hate myself and i thought since we were in similar sitiation we would have EACH other back. But i guess not. I can not […]

10/15/2015 4 comments

searching for help

by hi35 9/14/2015

written by hi35

I guess this is the place to vent. I don’t know it’s been about three years since I’ve been this depressed. I used to be on this website back then. I feel like crying screaming and then again I feel numb and so emotionally exhausted that I’m hurting physically. Almost three years ago I was raped and I’m holding the best thing in my arms right now that ever walked the face of the earth. She is the product from that horrid night but omg she’s so amazing!!! I fall in love with her more and more every day. But what in the world do […]

9/14/2015 6 comments

Help

by Cabinessence63 9/3/2015

written by Cabinessence63

It’s not something as dramatic as suicide but I want your help.

The last three years, I have been in a very weird phase of my life. When I go outside , alone, I feel that people are thinking bad things of me and I feel that there is a big cloud over my head and they can see whatever I have on my mind. I am overweight and I eat unhealthy food with big ammounts on my plate. It’s not like I am a glutton but it’s like I force myself to eat it. I have never had a real friend. Noone that I could […]

9/3/2015 7 comments

Sinking

by dead 8/31/2015

written by dead

I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like a crippling black hole inside of me is sucking the life out of me. I feel so alone, I am so alone. I have two friends at college but they’re busy most of the time with work and class, leaving me in my solitude. I don’t want to go on anymore, I want to relapse on cutting when I’ve been mainly clean for nearly three years, but I don’t want the scars, the repercussions, the consequences. I just need something, an outlet. I’m so lost, so hopeless. I want to curl up and die, disappear, not […]

8/31/2015 12 comments

The life well lived

by thesadguy68 8/24/2015

written by thesadguy68

What’s wrong with my life? Ask again. Ask what isn’t wrong. I’m eighteen years old. I have no parents. I have twin boys that are three years old. I attend college full time. Plus I recently got a DUI and I can’t pay for my children and court fees and attend college. My family always seems to be oushing for more and more until I’m at the breaking point. How do I cope with all of this? I take it day by day, today is history and tomorrow is a mystery. God bless!

8/24/2015 0 comment

Hello All

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 7/12/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

So, my name is Megan, and this is my first post here.
I’m sixteen and have been self harming on and off for the past three years, and I tried to kill myself three years ago. My best friend and my sister’s friend are the only people that know about my suicide attempt.
When I was thirteen, I self harmed for the first time. I remember it quite distinctly, because it was the start of a long, dark road. It was barely a scratch the first time. I used a pair of compasses that I found in my school bag, and I cried immediately after […]

7/12/2015 2 comments

Take a walk in my footsteps.

by NotAttentionSeeking 7/11/2015

written by NotAttentionSeeking

Imagine falling head over heels in love with someone. You have been in love with this person, thinking about them, obsessing over them 24/7 for 3 years and it’s still going on. You find out that the intend to propose to you and you couldn’t be happier. You are in a state of ecstasy. In a state of unbelief, that you have to pinch yourself to make sure that everything is real and you are not dreaming.

You really arn’t dreaming but it’s not real. The unconditional love you felt from that someone – it’s not real. The plans that you would be together for ever […]

7/11/2015 0 comment

Existential Crisis

by alonelybird 7/2/2015

written by alonelybird

My psychologist says I’m having an existential crisis and have been my whole life pretty much. It’s strange coz I just laughed when she told me, I am numb; it wasn’t funny. I don’t care about my family anymore, I don’t care how my suicide would affect them; I just wanna die.
“Cow” by Sparklehorse, I’ve been cutting to this song for three years so it’s quite sad and trigger-ey for me. I remember this one time I was cutting, I accidently stabbed myself and it went about 4cm in. I find it funny that I can mess myself so bad and no one ever […]

7/2/2015 0 comment

Accidents Happen.

by Mister Rhee 5/31/2015

written by Mister Rhee

http://youtu.be/fNx2Fmdp-4Y

Hi,

I’ve decided I’m going to end my life in just under 14 days. That’s fairly soon, but it’s my time to go… and we all know that when it’s time – it’s time. But first, a little about me:

I’m 26 years old, worked a job like no other and had been married for three years. I left my old job and ended up working in construction and telecommunications for a time, before meeting the supposed “love of my life”. Not many people escape my old job, but I managed to. I didn’t let it change me and a voice in my head reminds me that […]

5/31/2015 11 comments

greetings fellow poor devils

by sadsadist 5/3/2015

written by sadsadist

I’ve been around watching and reading for three years guess I decided tonight was the night I made an account I don’t really know why maybe because the only person I’ve cared about is on the phone with a asshole that treats her like shit and by the time she gets off the phone shell tell me how much she regrets being intimate and cheating on him with me then again I could be here because I’m a sick puppy as is

5/3/2015 2 comments

can i just die and not live anymore

by depressed_chick101 2/15/2015

written by depressed_chick101

people think that i can always handle their words well guess whati fuckn cant . i cant handle people calling me fat worthless stupid ugly or them tell me you should die nobody wants you here nobody will miss you if you are gone no one will care . it gets to be to much . i cant handle this anymore i just want to forget everything the pain everything . i dont get why people think its okay to do that to me or others . ive lost so many people .. its been five years since my bestfriend killed herself for the same […]

2/15/2015 2 comments

Back then

by tpc 1/10/2015

written by tpc

Does anyone else remember when they were about three years old and you would say “no, I don’t need that, I’m a big girl/boy”? I do. What made being “a big girl/boy” so desirable? It’s kind of weird thinking about myself as a child, how innocent and pure I was back then. I never would’ve guessed myself to be nearing the end of my teenage years and already wanting to end it, which doesn’t really surprise me to be honest, I hardly ever finish anything I start. It’s just so crazy to think, when I was a child I wanted to grow up, be a […]

1/10/2015 2 comments

I don’t know.

by stilltrying 12/30/2014

written by stilltrying

I’ve been depressed for only three years now and I have been in therapy and in treatment for two years and a half. I have been hospitalized 5 times in the past 2 years. I’m only 18 and I have felt enough pain to last a lifetime. I have tried so hard to get better, and nothing has changed, and I’m not sure if I can keep trying. I just want everything to stop. I don’t know what to do. I failed a suicide attempt in February and I so badly want to do it and succeed this time…

12/30/2014 4 comments

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