On Thursday night after you didn’t reply I felt alone
On Thursday night it was the first time in a few months that I sobbed myself to sleep
On Thursday night I felt so suicidal
On Thursday night I felt the lowest of low
On Thursday night it was going to be the second time I cut
On Thursday night I was so frustrated with myself I threw my scissors across the room
On Thursday night I was so so so so so close to the edge
On Thursday night I felt very very very worthless
On Thursday night I felt very very very useless
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Thursday Night
I’ve said a million times that I would rather be beat up than to hurt emotionally, but it never seems to work out that way. As I found out on Thursday night, even if you are beat up physically, your heart will still hurt.
I am not getting any younger. I am 29, I have a seemingly great life; I have a full time job at a great company, I have a wonderful apartment near my job, I have my two cats that I live with, some great friends, a supportive family… But there is one thing missing – a relationship with myself.
I am constantly trying […]
Since people have not been following the sites rules I thought I would post about week 4 of the greatest sport in the world, the N.F.L. Hear me out though as it is also a post about depression
Ravens Vs Browns game was a no brainier for many people on Thursday night but the Browns did put up a good fight in the end.
Bills Vs Patriots will be huge as will the Jets Vs the 49’ers
Chiefs Vs Chargers will be a good match off game against to teams
and the Bengals Vs Jaguars will be great against two average teams fighting for top dog, with this sort […]
I don’t want to go into my story, I don’t want to say why I’m doing this, but what I will say is that I have suffered long enough. My whole life is hell and it’s only getting worse and worse. It will never get better. I think I might end my life either tonight or Thursday night; Thursday night is most likely. I would like to talk about it some though… if only to feel less alone.
So, what happened… Thursday night, I downed a bottle of medicine, because someone three fries short of a happy meal wrote on a website that “liquid is absorbed faster than pills.†So I thought… I die faster, and I fall asleep before I suffer. So much for that idea…
Obviously, my plan didn’t work. I didn’t have to go to the hospital or anything, though. I downed it, and my heart was pounding, to the point that I just knew I was going to die. So I laid down in bed, pulled the covers over my head, turned on Relient K, and tried to go to […]